Fire On Fire

I stood there, the shock evident on my face. What?

"What....?" I voiced out my thoughts. I didn't know how to react. I hadn't expected him to respond to me that way.

I thought we had established some form of understanding, but he cut me off. For a second I hoped, prayed, it was just a joke. There was nothing funny about his stoic expression and blank grey eyes. My heart dropped.

So was he just going to abandon me..? I thought...I don't even know what I thought. What WAS I thinking ? There was nothing NORMAL about any of this.

I stared into his eyes, speechless and for a second, I thought I saw another emotion flicker, briefly past his eyes. I must've imagined it because right then, he grabbed his sword , sheathed it and walked out the door.

I didn't know why, but I felt hurt. I shouldn't have felt hurt but I did. It had only been two days and I was already getting this attached? What was I supposed to do? just sit and wait? What if it came back for me ? What if...what if...

Excuses. All excuses.

I had to do something. I couldn't just sit and wait. I had to think about my safety. There came the burning question, was I safer here or with...him?

Something at the back of my mind screamed out. Follow him. And so I did, even when every part of me didn't want to, something willed my body and pushed me forward.

That moment, before I touched the door knob, something inside me knew. Knew that this was the moment where everything would change. Even when I didn't really know it then, some part of me did.

Everything seemed surreal. It was as if I were making the biggest decision of my life. A part of me knew something bigger was at play. Fate. This is fate.

I knew that once I walked out that door, things would change.

I placed my hand on the cool metal. I breathed in deeply and pushed.

A cool breeze kissed my face and it reminded me of when Ace kissed my face. The first night. This pushed me even harder. There in the distance, I could see his tall figure. I wanted to scream out to him in that moment, but I lost my voice. My throat tightened and I wondered, maybe this was a bad idea. The thing at the back of my mind screamed again. Go.

I pushed past all my mixed emotions and walked towards him, picking up the pace with every step.

By the time I reached him I was breathless and panting. He was a fast walker. He stopped, sensing my presence.

"I told you, you're not coming" he voiced, his back still turned towards me.

"And I say, I am" I huffed back, annoyed.

His head twitched. My heartbeat quickened.

"Fine. Whatever" My heart dropped.

Not that I didn't want that answer but he was treating me like an enemy, or a burden. He was pretending like nothing happened, like we didn't have anything. Maybe we didn't and I was just delusional.