SWNOVELS Chapter 11 ~ You never loved me ~
* Anna's Pov *
What the hell is wrong with me? What am I doing? I just kissed this bastard back, is my head not working anymore, or I have gone mad,
I just kissed him, bloody hell, fuck, Anna, Anna, you are such two timers, just a while ago you cursed him yet when he kissed you melt away like dust, you have no shame yet you call him shameless. But one minute, why am I cursing myself? He was the real culprit; how dare he kiss me? Push him away, yet you hug him like an octopus.
"you Blaze listen to me, don't overthink, it was a physical reaction, nothing else, and it was you who walked away from our relationship. I didn't, so it was your choice what to do since you never loved me, and this is my choice I will not marry,
What kind of useless desire of yours, you never loved me, so why are you doing this, I could never have entered your heart, so I threw you out of mine? I hated to remember the pain; it feels like yesterday when I lost my desire to live without him, yet this heartless man left me and never looked back.
Blaze's face turned dark, but I didn't fear him. Why would I? I loved him with everything, yet he threw me out of his life, so why would I give him what he wants, never. I am not someone who will silently bear everything just because he is the man I loved.
Blaze took a few steps toward me; I stubbornly stood on my spot.' he stopped in front of me and suddenly caught my chin and forcefully raised my face" who permits you? Who, Anna, Love in this life? Only I can stay here" he pointed toward my heart spot with a negligible force. My chin and chest area were burning because he was pretty rough with me this time. But who would think he is to that I will stop telling I need and what I want "huh, I don't need your permission, my heart belongs to me and I Am the owner, as like you, did you take me my approval when you left without giving me a reason, did you ever come back in these five years and give me any explanation, Blaze this called karma even god can't save you from your karma " I spoke every word I wanted to say, Blaze seems like frizzed,
I wanted to say more and more; after all, I looked at this why's the answer for five years and found nothing, so I want to answer what sin I committed; he left me an ocean of my tears.
When I was hoping he would give me the answer, he was thinking something, and like always, stepped back and left the room without a sound, when he went out, he closed the door with all his strength, thank god the door was too strong to take his tyrant torture.
My legs were strong enough to support me until now after he left, I fell on the floor strengthless; I did not stand up,
I felt exhausted already, five years I silently bore the pain and burn of a third class girl left by the man I loved when I finally gave up and tried to give up on my life, and immense responsibility fell on my shoulder, my father's treatment responsibility,
I had to do it at any cost; I thought I already wanted to give up on my wife, so why not exchange this life to save him? That's why I agreed. I planned everything beheaded after all. But who knows, fate will play another game with me.
I wanted to cry; I felt complicated; I thought I forgot him then why I lost my control and sense when he said these words. An unknown feeling built up in my heart. Why, why?
I thought I lost the capability to love someone, then why does this feeling make me nervous and anger me at the same time? Why Can't I pull it out completely?
After sitting there for a long time, my
legs started getting cramps. Taking this sofa's support, I stood up, yet I felt an electric shock on my legs. I hate this feeling even more.
After beating my own feet with a stick, I finally felt better. I heard a loud sound from outside the bedroom window. It was the chopper's sound of a helicopter.
I went to the window and looked outside; a helicopter had just landed. I was so happy to see this.
I wanted to jump from the window but remember the height. I turned back to the door and ran as fast as I could.
I clearly remember how up the stairs
as I opened the door, and the bodyguards ran behind me. I was too busy to care about them; ran fast enough to feel I was air and flowing at storm speed.
When I came downstairs, the maids looked at me like I was going to some war or something. I ignored them and ran toward the main door; quite shocking, it was fully open. Can I be happier seeing the door open for me? I went straight outside and saw the helicopters.
As I reached there, it disappointed me seeing blaze there.
"Why are you running like this? What if you fall and get hurt, love " Blaze jumped from the helicopter and came to me?
"where are you going? I asked, ignoring his nothing but honey.
"I have something to do, love. Do you need anything? He asked,
"Will you give it to me if I ask?" I know the answer, but hope is human's only strength.
"Love says, I will give you everything, including my life," he started once again.
"oh, then how about give me a ride to where you are going and leave me there, "I said with a smile,
"Love," his voice turned cold. Okay, he is doing this again.
I looked behind him and thought something; pushed him and ran toward the helicopter; I jumped and climbed inside the helicopter with my small hands and legs. It was pretty tiring. It looked easy, yet I was huffing and lost my breathing balance.