A Girl Nobody Wanted

Sarah's POV

I couldn't understand why I don't remember any of these things. If my family had to go through that much because of me why I forgot everything.

However, I felt so ashamed of my self because I made my family suffer. I know I didn't choose to be sick or anything, still, they suffered because of me.

“I will g0 to check on mom. You two can think about everything I told you.” dad said, standing up.

“I have one more request to do..” dad had already started going up the stairs, but he turned to us again and said.

We both looked at him.

“Please don't hate your mom. She has gone through a hell lot of things in her life even before I marry her. Her only happiness was her job. She had no one other than me. Don't ever forget no matter how she treats you now, she sacrificed her most important thing for you. If she was not there for you, none of you would be here today.” he said.

Then he left us...

We both stayed in absolute silence for a few minutes... We both were so much connected to our own thoughts.

“You know, Sarah... Those days were so hard for me.” breaking the deadly silence, Shane began to speak.

“Our house was a perfect example of how the hell must be looked like. It was not cleaned at all... We barely got anything good to eat. We ate whatever it is easier for mom to cook. You were always crying because most of the time you were in pain, or it was difficult for you to breathe. Mom had to tend to you all the time. Soothe you, rub different medicines on you... I was fed up with your crying and wanted to go out and play so badly. But mom didn't let me because she was afrai So staying at home and listening to your screams all day, made me go completely mad. *

I can imagine how his status could have been. He was just a kid.

“Even after we started schooling, my status didn't get any better. Actually, it got worst. Mom was doing some part-time wc during that time. so other than attending to your treatment, she barely had any time for me. I was so weak at school worl Teachers always advised mom and dad to help me with my school work, but they didn't have time. Actually, they didn't ju ignore me during that time, Sarah... They actually treated me the same way they treat you today. ” he said, looking at me sadly.

“What?” Understandably, they couldn't pay attention to Shane and they couldn't buy things he wanted. But I couldn't eve: believe that my parents ever hurt Shane as they hurt me. They love him so much.

“Now when I think back, I feel they tried to release their anger and frustration on me... You were so sick so they couldn't release that on you, I was the easiest target. I got scolded for nothing. When a teacher said something bad about me to mom or dad, I got beaten without any sympathy. When 1 ask for something that they can’t buy, they beat me. Mom asked me to help with household work. I tried to do the maximum I could to make her happy, but most of the time, I got scolde because I did some small thing wrong. I was beaten, scolded, and bullied in both school and home. I was called Smart Sarah's dumb brother. People in school, they asked if I was adopted because they couldn't understand how someone sm: like you got a dumb brother like me. They used to beat me. They didn't let me play with them, telling I am stinking”

I was just staring at him with tear-filled eyes. I never thought, Shane had such suffering. Mom and dad love him crazily. S why did they treat him that way? On the other hand, in school, how they could treat him that badly, especially the teache All these happened in primary school, where teachers pay much attention to all the kids. So why they let those kids bully my brother? His past situation is quite similar to my present situation. But he was just a little kid when those things happen. Thinking rationally and keeping my mind busy with other stuff, I was able to manage my situation. But how coulc he do that? He was so little...

“All those things made me hate you, Sarah... You were loved and adored by everyone, I felt jealous about you. I know I sound so silly, but I was little, I couldn't think logically. After some time, everything started to get changed. Mom and dad started to pay more attention to me. I started playing football, and it gave me the unique identity I was seeking for. I became this talented football player, not your dumb brother. But my attitudes towards you didn't get changed. My hatred towards you didn't fade away. When mom and dad started to treat you badly, it actually made me happy. I wanted you to through the same pain I had...

“I can understand how you felt, Shane..” I said.

“You are too good, Sarah. I know you have already forgiven me for everything I did to you. But no matter how hard my childhood was, 1 have no right to make your life hell... You didn’t choose to be sick. You didn't ask anyone to scold me or bully me. You had nothing to do with those. You sometimes even tried to protect me. But I started to hate you so blindly. told you all these things not to justify my behavior. There is no justification for how inhumanly I behaved. I just wanted yr to know everything” Shane said.

I was so shocked. When did he become this mature? Even my dad tried to tell me that I am responsible for everything, ev for the way they treat me. But Shane was clearly saying that I have nothing to with them.

“It is true that mom and dad had to go through a hell lot of things because you got sick. But what can you possibly do for that? You didn't get sick deliberately. So I think blaming you and saying they all became this way because they had to go through a lot is pretty unfair” he said.

“You know I love both of them so much. I don’t want to hurt any of them. But I truly think they shouldn't treat you this wa I think doing so much for you in the past, and getting angry at you because they did those for you is pretty ridiculous. ” h added.

I was totally speechless... What he tells is true. I am extremely grateful to my parents. I they didn't sacrifice so much for me, 1 would be dead by now. But they can't treat me like shi* for something I didn’t do on purpose. If I had a choice, I wot prefer to die without letting them suffer because of me.

“Also, they can't use what they have done for you in the past as a reason to force you to do something you don't like. You indeed owe them for what they did. But you don't have to agree to this fu**ing stupid proposal for that. One day you will definitely be a high-class professional, and you would ean a lot. At that time you can treat them. That is my dream too... won't let mom and dad work anymore as soon as I get a job.” Shane said firmly.

“I don't know, Shane. He is going to make my life hell. Do you think mom and dad will let this go easily? They will try their best to make me marry him. He is so cunning, isn't he? He found the exact way to hurt me and Jake” 1 said worriedly. “That is true. Our parents or that bastard won't let this go that easily. But you have to be strong and face this. When the time has come, you can tell mom and dad about Jake, then they will be so happy. Victor McMiller's son is far better than I nephew, isn't itz” Shane asked, laughing.

His laugh made me laugh too.

“But Shane his offer about your sponsorship is truly amazing. ” I said.

“True. But I don’t want anything from him, Sarah... I am confident about my talents. I can find a sponsorship my self. I am not going to let him use me to hurt you or Jake.” Shane said firmly.

I felt like running to him and hug him tightly. How nice to have a brother like him?

“So what are we going to do now, Shane?” I asked.

“We are going to tell mom and dad that we are not going to accept any offer that bastard has brought,” Shane said.

I sighed. It is easier to say, but hard to do. After everything dad said, I find it really hard to say no to him. After all, I am al because of them, right?

But I am not going to marry Andrew Patterson as well. I would die happily rather than marrying that evil bastard. On the other hand, in my life, the only person I can even think of getting married to is my Jake. If I don't get to marry him, I woul live alone my whole life.

“sarah, don't be afraid. You must tell what happens today with Jake and Luke. You have all three of us with you. What we are going to do is not making any harm to mom and dad as well. They may have to wait just a little bit more to take their most deserved rest. That is better than being pawns of Patterson's wicked game.” Shane replied.

“Hmm... said confusedly. A lot was going on in my mind, and 1 actually needed some time alone to process everything. “You may go and make a call to Jake. Tell him everything. I will clean here.” Shane suggested.

“No, let's clean this together, “I said.

“You have done enough today, Sarah... I didn't stay home to help you because I knew mom won't let me help you. It will j make her angry with both of us. Now, be a good girl and go..” he said, standing up.

My heart melted with his words, and I couldn't control all the emotions I was having.

I went to him and hugged him.

“I love you so much, Shane. Thank you very much for being on my side. You are the best brother any sister can have.” I whispered.

“I am not the best brother yet, sister. But I am trying to be the best brother for you. Because you truly deserve it. You are such a good person, Sarah... No matter how hard your life was, you didn't lose the goodness in you as we all did. We let t hard time turn us into monsters, but you spend a hard time loving and caring for others. I am really proud of you and I lo you so damn much my twin..” he said, gently caressing my face.