Where I Belong

"You're right you don't deserve her but I know deep down she still cares for you. Don't give up on her this time Blaze because if you do you might not get another chance and don't break her heart again because you won't like the outcome this time. Now for the sake of my daughters health please go home and take a shower" She smiled slightly shoving my shoulder.

"You'll call if she wakes?" I asked getting to my feet. Bending over I placed a gentle kiss on her forehead. I guess going 3 weeks without a wash wasn't a good thing.

"I promise and make sure they cook you something before you come back".

"Fine" I grumbled not wanting to leave her but what choice did I have?

Throwing herself at me she wrapped her arms around my waist. God she was just as little as Ava. "Thank you for always looking out for my baby. Her father and I really appreciate it even if we don't tell you. And Blaze you are good enough for her" She whispered placing a kiss on my cheek.

Giving her one more glance I left her room making my way through the waiting area and out the front doors to my bike. Catching sight of Franko talking with Tommy I strolled towards them.

"How you holding up?" Tommy asked as he passed me his smoke. Taking a long drag I inhaled deeply before letting it all out. Truth be told I wasn't holding up and the only thing keeping me going was knowing she was still breathing. "Not great then" He answered for me. What was he expecting me to say?

"I want everyone at church tonight" Franko said as he dropped the butt of his cigarette and lit up another one. "I need to know everyone is focused and I need some sort of lead or heads are going to start rolling". Fuck church I wasn't leaving her.

"On it prez and don't worry we'll get the bastards" Tommy growled slapping Franko on the shoulder before making his way into the hospital.

"I know what you're going to say but fuck Blaze I need your head to be in this. I need you focused".

"How can I be focused when she's fucking lying in there? I can't focus on anything but Ava and I know you're desperate to find those fuckers and trust me so am I but right now.."

"I want them dead before she wakes up Blaze. I want their prez brought to me so I can make his death a slow and painful one" He said cutting me off.

"I want that more than anything but do you think going in all guns blazing when we don't even know where they are is such a good idea?" I asked

"I don't give a fuck how we do it. My little girl is lying in a hospital bed fighting for her fucking life because of they bastards. You of all people should be wanting to kill those fuckers with your bare hands".

"I fucking do Franko more than anyone but let's be smart about this one. Once we get a lead on where they are then we go after them but right now we lay low. Who's to say they won't come back and finish her off?"

I was wiping the blood from my nose before I realised what had happened. Snorting out the blood I bared my teeth. That fucker got me good and now I knew where Ava got it from. Glaring at him I knew now wasn't the time to push anymore of his buttons.

"I can't stand here and do nothing not while she's in there lying helpless. I need to throw something there way. A warning, anything but they need to know we are coming for them".

"You do what you gotta do prez but right now I gotta look after the only thing that keeps me going. You need me to do anything you let me know but I won't be attending church tonight".

Slumping against the wall he brought his hand up and wiped at his eyes. "You look after her and don't leave her side for no one not even the doctors. I'll keep you in the loop about what our move will be".

Nodding my head I gave his back a pat as I mounted my bike. I had wasted time and I really couldn't afford to do that not when she could wake up at any second. Clipping my helmet together I turned the key to my bike and revved my engine. "Oh and Blaze take a fucking shower before you come back here" He grumbled chucking his cigarette away before heading back inside.

One thing was for sure him and Aubrey were well suited.

Pulling into the clubhouse my eyes fell into slits when I noticed the parked SUV. I knew who it was and I knew it was going to happen sooner or later but right now wasn't the fucking time. Yes he was my brother and yes I hated that he was dating Ava but in the last 3 weeks he has never once shown his face at the hospital. Growling I unhooked my helmet and jumped of my bike. I couldn't deal with him right now and he better stay out my way. Storming into the clubhouse I noticed how quiet and eerie it was and then my eyes landed on my brother. Who does he think he is coming into my territory with his fancy car and his fancy suits. "You're not staying so get the fuck out" As soon as the words left my mouth Shane got to his feet. "And take your lap dog with you" I growled my hands balling into fists.

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"I don't want no trouble Sean" He spoke placing his hand on Shane's shoulder.

He was the only person ever to call me Sean well a part from my mother. "You shouldn't have walked through those doors then" Walking toward the bar I signalled for Kelsey to get me a drink. "How is she?" She asked pouring me a whiskey.

Downing it I motioned for another one. "Still the same" I muttered turning to see that he hadn't moved. "Why are you still here?" I snapped I didn't want to get into a brawl with him but what makes him think it's okay to show up here? "I just want to know how she-..."

"Don't you fucking dare" I roared throwing my glass against the nearest wall. I was well aware of the guys taking a stand. Nobody was in the right state of mind right now everyone was angry and Nate being here wasn't helping the situation. Waving my hand signalled for them to stand down. "You don't get to fucking ask how she is. You have no right to even speak her name. Where the fuck were you? She's been lying in that hospital for 3 weeks and you're suppose to be her boyfriend?" I laughed "What was it this time Nate? A business proposal? A hot date? Come on what was it that was so important you couldn't visit your girlfriend in the hospital?" I snapped even saying the words was like having acid dripped onto my tongue.

"Do you know what I don't have fucking time for this I don't care what excuse you're going to pull from your ass. Nothing should have been more important than that girl in the hospital. This is a warning Nate go anywhere near her and I'll put you to ground" Storming towards my room I slammed the door shut behind me.

......

Wrapping a towel around my waist I wiped the steam from the mirror and stared at my reflection fuck I looked like shit. Rubbing another towel through my hair I threw it into the corner of my room. Sitting on the edge of my bed I lit up a smoke just as there was a knock at the door and Jared walked in.

"How's she doing?" He asked leaning against the door frame. Pinching the bridge of my nose I took a long draw of my smoke before I answered him. "She's still unresponsive, fuck knows when she'll wake up" I muttered. "I just need for her to wake up. I've never felt more useless in all my life. I wish I could take her place Jared because she sure as hell doesn't deserve what she's been put through".

"She's one of the good ones Blaze" He sighed taking a seat beside me "But rest a sure we'll get the bastards. I heard we've got church tonight, is there a new lead?".

"I can't lose her Jared because if I do I don't think I'll be able to come back from it. I fucked it with her, treated her how I treat those girls that come in here every night. How the fuck could I have been so stupid? I had the best thing that's ever happened to me in the palm my hand and I screwed it. How can she forgive me for that?" I asked completely ignoring his question. I needed to vent to someone I needed someone to listen to me to tell me she was going to pull through and everything was going to be alright.

"She's a Mendez and if she's anything like her old man she'll pull through this in no time as for her forgiving you, you just gotta give her time. Show her that she's the only girl for you, that she will be the only girl for you. You just gotta get it through your head that if she's with you then she ain't going to be with anyone else. Ava is not that type of girl. I've seen how you've treated her in the past you have to stop pushing her away and trust her". Gripping my shoulder he gave it a hard squeeze. "Once you find the one you're meant to be with you grab onto it for dear life. Girls like Ava don't come around that often but when they do you claim them".

Rubbing my hands over my face I got to my feet. "I gotta get back to the hospital and yeah prez wants everyone at the table tonight just don't be late not with everything that's happening. You could imagine what his moods like, keep me posted just in case he forgets".

"You're not attending?" He asked leaning against the door frame.

"First one I've ever missed but I'm not leaving her side again. Go make sure the rest know about tonight and make sure my brother is gone before I leave". "You got it VP"

Pulling on some clean clothes I picked up my wallet and phone when something shiny caught my attention. Her neckless picking it up I slipped it into my cut pocket. Leaving my room I walked out into the bar area glad to see he had left. "Alright everyone listen up" I yelled gaining their attention. "Prez wants us all in church tonight 7pm not a minute later. Make sure no one gets through those doors apart from club members, got it?" I asked looking around at all of them. "Give her our love Blaze and a big warm hug. We'll take care of things around here you go be with your girl" Tank said as a chorus of 'you got it VP' and 'we'll sort it' echoed around the room.

There was nothing more important than family especially to these guys. The love and gratitude they have shown has been out of this world. We may be the outlaw bikers that might not always get along but when it came down to family we all came together.

"I'll catch you all later"

Walking towards my bike I felt my phone vibrate from my inside pocket. Quickly pulling it out I answered it immediately. Had she woken up?

"Hello"

"You have to come quick... she's awake" Aubrey cried

Why didn't it sound like a happy cry?

"Im on my way" I said snapping my phone shut and jumping onto my bike.

Something was wrong.