Where I Belong

Once I had gathered my clothing I made my way over to the door "Thanks for letting me use your room". I whispered wishing the ground would swallow me up. He didn't need to know anything more especially if he was just going to laugh at

me.

"Ava look I'm sorry". He said pulling on a pair of boxers.

"I'll wash your clothes and bring them back to you before I leave". I said just as I pulled the door open.

So much for getting a sleep before I leave. "Don't leave". He muttered. I could feel his front against my back. Feeling the shiver run through my body I closed my eyes. I hadn't known this guy more than 2 days and already I liked him. I hadn't felt immediate attraction to a guy before.

Hearing the door close my eyes snapped open and I turned around. "You want to laugh at me some more?". I asked bringing my gaze up so I could look into his eyes. "I have seen one before I'm not a complete loser. Not that I need to explain myself to you". I huffed folding my arms over my chest.

"I'm sorry I just thought, you know.." He sighed running a hand through his hair unable to finish his sentance.

"You thought because I look like this I'd have to have slept with lots of people, right?". I asked moving a little so I wasn't as close to him.

"Right". He answered

"Wrong, I focused on nothing but my school work and it paid off. I had to focus and having a boyfriend would have held me back. I had to make something of myself". I said feeling my emotions get the better of me.

"Wow darlin' calm down". He whispered bringing his hand up to wipe the tears of my cheeks. I hadn't realised I was crying.

Why was I crying?

"I'm sorry Blaze". I spoke taking a seat on his bed. "I'm sorry for crying on you and I'm sorry for acting like a spoilt bitch. You didn't deserve that". "Been a rough couple of days?". He asked taking a seat beside me.

Wiping at my eyes I smiled "You could say that. I guess this is all new to me. I mean have you seen the girls that come around here. I feel so out of place".

Laughing he placed his hand on my knee and gave it a gentle squeeze "You're gorgeous Ava don't let anyone tell you different. Those girls are desperate to become old ladies. They'll do anything and anyone to get there. Don't worry about nothing your dad would put a bullet in anyones head if they touched you. Man or women".

"He won't have to put a bullet in anyones head. I'll be gone by tomorrow". I replied feeling his body tense beside me.

"What about your mom. She seems content being here". He said his hand gently stroking my leg.

Had his hand been doing that the whole time?

Shrugging my shoulders I glanced at him "My moms done it all before. I just can't believe she's fell straight back into it. I was the one that wanted to find my dad, she was against it from the start. Heck she didn't even know I was coming here and now she's the one that doesn't want to come home".

"Love the man love the club babe". He said taking his hand of my leg and standing up. "That's our life".

"Yeah but it's not mine. I don't belong here, I don't think I ever will. Can I ask you something?".

"Fire away darlin'".

"How old are you and where's your old lady?" I asked having no idea why I did.

"What is this 21 questions?" He smirked repeating an answer I gave him before.

Smiling at him I shrugged "I'm just curious thats all". I replied watching him as he slipped on his jeans.

"I have an old lady, she just doesn't know it yet". He said tucking his gun into the back of his jeans. Why did his answer make my stomach drop. She sure as hell was one lucky lady.

"Age?". I asked pulling my knees up to my chin. Blaze wasn't as scary as I first thought. Well I guess anyone could be scary when they're holding a gun to your head but I felt safe with him. "Too old for you sweetheart". He winked pulling on his hoodie before slipping on his cut.

I guess that was my answer. "I consider 40 being to old for me". I winked having no idea where my courage came from. "And there's no way you're older than my old man".

"Well look at you getting all confident". He grinned making me smile. "Tell you what I'll tell you my age if you stay".

The smile fell of my face. Was he trying to bribe me because it sure as hell wasn't going to work. Why was he wanting me to stay.

"Think about it darlin' you belong here, you know you do. You'll be well looked after and it'll save me a lot of miles on my bike". He mumbled.

Miles on his bike, what was he talking about?

"Miles on your bike?". I asked feeling confused.

"Every damn weekend he'd have me riding out to make sure you were okay?".

"Hold up". I said standing from his bed "That first day you saw me you knew exactly who I was and then when I was parked outside the clubhouse and you basically made me shit my pants. That was all for show?" I snapped. "Calm down". He hissed "I had no choice, I couldn't let you know who I was. You had to come here on your own free will and you did".

Now I was pissed. Here we were getting along fine and me feeling guilty about being horrible to him while he had knew exactly who I was the whole time. "How long have you been watching me?" I asked.