Where I Belong

Rubbing at his nose his eyes fell into slits "Of course I fucking did and do that again and I'll turn you over and spank that ass so hard you won't be able to sit down for a week" He growled.

Rolling my eyes at him a yawn fell from my mouth "Can I ask you something?" I said looking straight into his eyes. Now he was back I had to know what I was letting myself in for. I needed to know how he was going to act around me when we had company. I've seen the way my dad acts around my mom and to me it looks like two people in love.

"I'm not in the mood for a fight sweetheart and with the way your eyebrows are creasing it tells me your little mind is working overtime".

"I just need to know Blaze".

Sighing he sat up so he was leaning against his head rest. Reaching for his smokes he lit one up taking a long draw "You don't need to know shit Ava, don't stick your nose in where it doesn't belong sweets".

Falling quiet I bit my lip hard to stop me from saying what I wanted to say. Pushing the covers of I crawled out of bed. Maybe work wasn't such a bad idea and it would give me some space away from him. No matter how shitty I felt I needed to get out of this damn clubhouse.

"Where are you going?"

Looking at him I watched him stub out his cigarette and pop his hands behind his head. He did look tired, maybe he was taking care of business.

"Work" I said heading off into the bathroom before he could reply.

Tying my hair into a messy bun I left the bathroom and stopped the minute my eyes landed on him. Fast asleep hugging the pillow I was lying on earlier. Picking up my bag I was about to leave when his phone beeped from the bedside cabinet.

I know I shouldn't but...

Biting my lip my eyes flashed to him again before landing back on his phone. Grabbing it in my hand I unlocked the screen my heart dropping at what I read.

'Last night was fun! We should do it more often :) Sasha'

Setting it back on the cabinet I grabbed my bag tighter and left the room. Who the hell was Sasha? Walking into the clubhouse I walked to where my dad was sitting, a few guys listening to whatever the hell he was saying.

"You need something?" My dad asked

Leaning over I wrapped my arms around his neck and lay my head on his chest. I had no idea what had come over me but I just needed a hug from my dad. Hearing chairs being scraped back I lifted my head to see the guys had left us alone. "What's wrong A?" He asked his voice softer than normal. My dad was a hard man and there was nothing soft about him. Some people say he doesn't have a heart but I know they're wrong.

Feeling the lone tear roll down my cheek I let it fall onto his cut. "Nothing I just needed a hug from my dad" I croaked holding onto him tighter.

"You sure sweetheart? You know you can come to me with anything. Did someone hurt you?" He asked

Letting him go I slid into the chair next to him. "No one hurt me dad I can take care of myself you know".

"I'm know you can darlin' but you don't have to" He said placing his hand on my knee and giving it a little squeeze.

"I have to go to work. I'll see you later at some point" I sighed placing a kiss on his cheek before getting up.

Why did it feel like I had a truck sitting on my chest? My heart felt like it was going to explode. I don't get why he couldn't just tell me the truth. Everything he said to me was a lie. You don't tell someone you made love to them and then spend the night with another girl. If anything I was angry at myself. I should have known it would happen. I see it happen every night and yet I still thought there was this little chance he was different. Wiping away the lone tear I walked out through the doors and toward my car.

"Sweets hold up"

Feeling my shoulders sag I leant against my car door as he ran the distance between us.

Okay Ava! Time to put those big girl panties on and tell him he means nothing to you. Push him away...

"You alright?" He asked

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"Why wouldn't I be?" I said my answer short.

"Time you getting off? I was thinking we could go for a ride? Get away from here for a bit. You fancy it darlin'?"

"Can't I have plans. Sorry" Turning away from him I opened my car door and got in. Big Girl Panties! Watching the expression change on his face I didn't give him a second glance instead I started my car and got the hell out of there. This was the right thing to do but why did it hurt so much?

"I thought you were off today?" Josh asked as he met me by my office door.

Was I?

"Dedicated to your work Ava" He chuckled "Seriously though,  go home and relax. It's been quiet here all morning and after hearing about your night last night I bet you have some hangover".

Speaking of which, where was Ally? "I have some paper work to catch up on. I'll put in a few hours then ill go". Taking a seat at my desk I lay back on my chair. "Coffee?" He asked

"Yes please" I grinned hoping this one would go down better than my last one. "Thanks Josh".

"No problem Ava. I won't be long".

"You can't go in there"

Not even 5 seconds later Blaze burst through my door and he did not look happy. Dropping my pen I leant back in my chair and looked at him.

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"You have plans?" He snapped closing my door with a bang. "Bullshit Ava. What the fuck is going on?".

Time to turn up my bitch mode. I could do this, no matter how much I didn't want to, I had to. I wasn't going to be with a man that sleeps with other girls. Why is it men can be happy with the one woman?

"Yes I do. Now get out I have work to do" Dropping my gaze from his I turned my attention back to the notes infront of me.

"Cancel them now" He growled throwing my phone onto the desk. Hm I wondered where I left that. Glaring at him I took my phone and slide it into my top drawer.

"No" I snapped feeling my anger rise. What makes him think it's okay to come into my work place and then try and tell me what to do. "Get out before I call security, I mean it Blaze".

"What the hell is-.."

"I don't want this" I said motioning between him and I. "I don't want you, I don't want the bullshit that comes with you. I want to be left alone now please get the hell out" I snapped rising from my chair so I could open the door. "You're lying. I know wh-.."

"I'm not fucking lying" I said cutting him off "I don't want you now get the hell out" I yelled trying to hold back the tears behind my eyes.

"Everything okay Ava?" Ally asked as she popped her head around the door, her expression changing when her eyes landed on Blaze. Turning my back on both of them I felt the shudder go through my body as the flood gates opened.

"I think it's best if you leave" Ally whispered

Hearing a few curse words and a growl it wasn't until the door closed that I knew he had left.

"Are you okay?" Ally asked placing her hand on my shoulder. Shrugging it off I about turned and went back to my chair.

No..