Where I Belong

Hot damn

"No" I croaked, kicking my self when my voice came out sounding small. I wanted to sound strong like he didn't have any effect on me. "I'm still mad at you" With my good hand I pushed against his chest. Not that it made any difference because he didn't move.

"Mad at me for what?" He asked moving backwards slightly.

Was he kidding?

Pursuing my lips I continued to stare at the floor. "Nothing now can you please get me down from here?".

I sometimes wondered if he liked picking a fight or he actually wanted to start an argument. Maybe he liked it when I was angry.

"You're not going back to bed" He said moving away from me so he could grab his smokes.

"Well I'm not sitting here all morning and I'll go back to bed if I want" I huffed "Not like I have anything else to do".

"Well if you stayed at the cabin you could lie all day in bed if you wanted but no you thought it was a good idea to come home. Sorry sweetheart but when I'm up you're up".

And we were back to this!

"I don't feel good Blaze"

"Bullshit Ava" He smirked taking a long draw of his smoke.

Could have worked!

"I can't wait to get this off" I groaned squeezing my eyes shut. I'd like to see him try and control me when I've got the cast off. "So are you just going to make me sit here all day? My legs getting sore Blaze" This time I wasn't lying. "No I'm going to take you in there and help you get washed and dressed and then we're going out".

I didn't like the sound of that.

"Going out where?" I asked wrapping my arms around his neck as he carried me back to his room. "I'm not going back to the cabin Blaze and you can't make me". I knew what he was like and I knew if he got me inside a car that's what he would do.

"Chill out I'm not-..."

"I know you and I know you were thinking it" I said cutting him off.

"No I wasn't thinking it and no you aren't going back because everyone refuses to keep an eye on you after the little stunt you pulled" He snapped dropping me onto the bed. Fair enough

"I'm going to shower first I won't be long" Slamming the bathroom door behind him I lay back against the pillows and shut my eyes. He was pissed I knew that much but I didn't care.

"You better not be sleeping" He yelled

"You better not be sleeping" I mimicked peeling my eyes open to find he was already dressed. "Why are you so moody" I asked as he took a smoke out of his packet and lit it up.

It was still early and I wanted to sleep. It was a long night and I needed more than 5 hours sleep to function right.

"Are you going to answer me or are you just going to stand there gawking?". It was like he could see into my soul when he stared like that.

"I'm not moody Ava I'm tired it's been a rough few days" He sighed sitting on the side of the bed. "And you being back here isn't going to make it easier".

"Is that how you really feel?" I asked not knowing how to take it. I know he wants to keep me safe but wouldn't he rather keep an eye on me here? I know I'd prefer to be here rather than in a cabin with people I barely know. Puffing on his smoke I waited for him to answer me. I know coming back here would knock his focus but I couldn't spend another night in that cabin not knowing if my family were alive or dead.

"I want to keep you safe Ava but the shit you pulled was fucking stupid. How do you expect me to keep you safe if you won't bloody listen to me?" His voice was raised but I didn't know if it was because he was still pissed or he wanted an argument.

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"I know and I'm-.."

"No you don't fucking know" He yelled getting to his feet. "How can I deal with this shit and keep an eye on you at the same time?". Wow!! An argument it is

"Well I'll go stay with Ally then and you won't have to keep an eye on me" I snapped turning my head so I didn't have to look at him.

Hearing him laugh made me grit my teeth. "If Cage is anything like me that bitch will be getting her ass whooped. It's the least she deserves for what she did. Both of you will be here at all times".

"Anything like you? You haven't whooped my ass" I growled my teeth scraping together. Gripping a hold of my chin he pulled my face close to his "That's because I wouldn't have stopped" He snarled making the hairs on the back of my neck rise.

Gasping at his words I pulled my face from his grip. I couldn't believe he just said what he did. "You would really hit me?" I asked my voice coming out shaky.

"Get ready I've got shit to do" Turning his back on me he slipped his cutte on and headed for the door.

"Blaze" I yelled as he pulled the door open.

"If that's what it'll take to put you in line then yes I would".

Hearing the door slam shut I grit my teeth and balled my good hand into a fist.

Motherfucker

........

I wanted to scream with how frustrated I was becoming. I skipped having a shower because I knew I couldn't manage on my own. Dressing was a great struggle and now I couldn't even get a damn hair tie in my hair. Did he come back and help me? Did he hell!

Throwing the brush against the wall I ran a hand down my face. Another couple of weeks and I'd be back to normal and I couldn't wait. No more depending on anyone, no more needing help with anything and if I wanted to get up and leave then I was free to do so. Well maybe not free to do so but I could be sneaky.

"You done?" Came his gruff voice from outside the bedroom door.

Fuck you

I wanted to scream it so badly but instead decided not to answer. If he wanted to act like an asshole then I'll treat him like one.

"Ava?" He called, again it fell on deaf ears.

"Seriously if you're sleeping I'll..." opening the door his eyes fell on mine "Why didn't you answer me?" He asked leaning against the door frame.

Shrugging my shoulders I turned my attention to the mirror in front of me. Pretending to fix my hair my breath caught in my throat as he placed both hands on my shoulders.

"You could have called out if you needed help" He said as he began to massage my shoulders.

Shrugging him off I cleared my throat "Yeah well I don't need your help Blaze". Staring at him through the mirror I watch the frown settle on his face.

"I was an ass" He sighed

"You think?" I laughed sarcastically. How can he think hitting me is ok? I step out of line - bang punch to the face. Is that what it'll be like? Did he actually mean it or was it a heat of the moment thing?

"Ok I was a gigantic asshole that shouldn't have spoke to his old lady like that. Is that better?" He asked his hands moving down my arms.

"You don't mean it" I sighed casting my eyes downwards so our eyes were no longer connected. "I get that it's in your nature to speak to me like crap and still expect me to be okay with it but Blaze it's not in my nature to sit and take it and no matter how much you beat me it will never work".

"Do you think I'd actually beat my old lady? You get some men that do but I would never lay a hand on you. I know I said-.."

"You said if that's what it'll take to put me in line then yes you would" I said cutting him off. "How do you think that makes me feel? Do you want me to be scared of you?".