When u needed me (GXG)

Faithlynn's POV

I woke up to an empty bed and searched for my phone, its 11 a.m and its Saturday where is Reagan I wonder, she doesn't have work on Saturdays and Sundays.

From that night a week ago where I mentioned for us to get married, she has been avoiding me, she just run away whenever she sees me and try to dodge every question related to the marriage.

I mean I might do the same thing if I was in her place, but she needs to understand, how difficult this situation is for me. I can't just marry anyone, and I don't trust anyone as much as I trust her, to be tied up in a relationship that long. I know that she cares about me and will do everything right by me if we get married.

I know it might be awkward sometimes because we are best friends but it's not that weird if I or her don't make it weird or awkward. We just simply have to get married and live together so after couple of years I get my green card and after that the citizenship. Then after that she can divorce me if she wants, also there is no problem in us getting married because she understands me, and I understand her.

After lying in bed for couple more minutes I get up and went downstairs in search of food and Reagan. But didn't find anything so I start making breakfast.

When I was about to finish my breakfast, the front door opens and revealed a sweaty Reagan with a water bottle in left hand. She looks so gross with all the sweat and her shirt clinging onto her sweaty body.

As I stare at her longer, her gross figure turns out to look sexy. Oh no, I probably should not think like that about her.

She didn't notice me staring and went for the fridge and grab some orange juice pouring into a glass " can you made me breakfast too? please?" I nodded in response.

"Where have you been." I asked knowing the answer that she went to the gym or for a run.

"For a run, I'll be down in a minute, please make some pancakes, thanks" she said walking upstairs into the room. Well, I guess that's the least I could do and feed her for all the things she has been doing and had done for me.

From all the years I have been with her I know one thing about her, that she is the laziest person when it comes to cooking. She gets annoyed when she cooks something and so she prefers to eat something which is not complicated to make.

She came down after taking a shower, I know she took a shower because her hair is wet. And sat down on the bar stool, I served her pancakes as she requested.

"They are delicious, thank you." She said savouring all the flavours in her mouth.

"Look Reagan I really want to talk to you about something." I said gaining her attention from the pancakes.

She looks at me and asked, " have you called Amelia?" I looked at her annoyed, is she really going to ignore what I just said?

"No, I will, later, but can we please talk." I literally begged, giving her my most depressed expression.

"We are talking. What is it?" She asked.

"I might have an idea to get the citizenship." I said carefully.

"Yeah, you said you are going to get married."

" Yeah! About that" I take a pause and gain all my confidence, because I need it right now. "I... umm...I... Will you marry me?" She sat there shocked. I thought she knew, what I was planning, I thought she heard me that night.

She sat there not moving, staring at her plate. Then looked up at me and said, "Are you fucking serious?" And start shaking her head. " What are you saying, what about our families, what would they think. And you know what my brother and sister think, they would just say that I was waiting for you for all these years that's why I didn't date anyone." She said looking at me in disbelief and left without another word leaving the half pancake, but I won't let it go to waste. I grab her plate and eat the leftover pancake.

So, here's a thing, Reagan has never dated anyone, and she never had a serious crush on someone, I don't know how it can be possible. But she is like that and also, she is a tomboy. So, her younger brother and her older sister had their theories and suspicions: that Reagan has been in love with me for years and she don't want to ruin our friendship that's why she never acts on her feelings and that's why she never dated anyone.

She sometimes gets really angry on her mother and sister because they always force her to wear more girly clothes, but she doesn't feel comfortable in those clothes maybe because she doesn't like to show any skin or maybe they are not comfortable for her.

And when we were in high school everyone would make a comment about our relationship that we should get married or that we look cute together and that Reagan is overprotective of me because, she once punched a boy in his face because he was calling me fat. There were also rumours about us dating until I began dating my ex, Dan.

"Where are you going?" I asked when I saw Reagan going toward the door.

"Away from you, so that you can think clearly" she said, and I know she wants to get away from me and avoid me as long as possible. But I won't let her walk away, so I walked towards her grab her hand and dragged her into the living room on the couch.

"Hear me out please, I don't have time and you know that I only have couple months otherwise I would be deported to god knows where". I said pleadingly.

" I know, okay? I know it's hard and we can figure out other ways to get over this" she said holding my hand.

"There is no other way. Can't you see? This is the only way out of all this shit?" I said raising my voice.

"How can I marry you dammit?" She yelled.

Oops, I don't want her angry, she is scary when she is angry. So I just ran upstairs crying.

"Come back here and talk to me. NOW" she demanded following me. I locked the door and sat there crying, I hate it when someone yell at me especially her.

What should I do now? It's all fucked up.