When u needed me (GXG)

Reagan's POV

Only 10 days are left for our wedding. To say I'm nervous was an understatement because I'm freaking out. Not just because of the wedding but the fact that I don't know where Faithlynn and I stand. I haven't talk to her properly neither did I apologized to her for that night. She seems so sad, disturbed,hurt. All just because of me.

Yesterday when I saw her face, I wanted to puch myself for causing so much pain to her. Her eyes were red and swollen, her one's chubby and happy face was dull and upset. All just because of me.

Instead of being a best friend who should help her, support her. I'm doing just the opposite.

I don't even have the courage to go up to her and ask for forgiveness, whenever she looks at me it's like she's afraid I might hit her. But I would never do that to her, I'm so messed up in my head I don't know what to do, how to handle it.

As much as I'm trying to supress these feelings they wanted to just escape free. What should I do I'm so confused.

"I want ice cream." Small hands cupped my cheeks, looking at me with those cute big eyes, waiting for a response.

"Which one?" I asked Venessa already knowing the answer.

"Mango and butterscotch." Weird kid have a weird taste.

"But we don't have it." I said knowing we're out of ice creams.

"I want to eat ice cream." She said pouting. She is so adorable who can say NO to her? Not me.

"Then go get ready we're leaving in 5 minutes, go run run." She squeals and jumped off the couch and ran off.

I saw Faithlynn sitting with April and Aron in the backyard. I went out and instantly caught there attention. Faithlynn was looking flawless in blue sundress better than those shorts and that freaking crop top.

"Umm...would you guys want to grab some ice cream?" I said facing April and Aron.

"Yes!" April squeals just like Venessa.

"I'll be right back." Aron said and rushed inside.

"Come on Faith, lets go." April said while gesturing Faithlynn to accompany us.

"Uhh.. I-I don't want Ice cream." She said with a nervous laugh, glancing at me. As if not sure if I want her to come with us.

April glare at me, maybe wanting me to invite Faithlynn separately.

I just held my hand out for her to take "come". I said looking at her. She hesitantly took my hand.

Just as I was about to lead her out someone's hand stopped me. It was April; she's mad about something.

"What is wrong with you?" She yelled at me jerking Faithlynn away from me. I looked at her confused.

"What is wrong with you? Why are you yelling all of a sudden?" I asked back. She scoffed.

"You can't treat her like this. Like she is not a human being but your puppet." She said raising her voice again.

"Every time, you just order her around; Faith can you make me breakfast please make an omlete, Faith come, we are leaving, Faithlynn lets go to our room, can you make a cup of coffee for me, can you put this here, there. You don't even ask if she really want to go somewhere with you or just want to hang around." She said as if I really treat her like that. Faithlynn didn't say anything but hide behind her.

"If she don't want to do any of it then she should just say 'No'." I said getting annoyed for having a senseless argument.

"Oh yeah? So you can just hurt her afterwards?" April said showing me Faithlynn's bruised arm.

I can't believe this, were they my fingerprints on her arm? I walked towards Faith to have a better look at her arm but as I reached to touch her arm she flinch away, again hiding behind April.

"Let me see." I said April pushed me back "No" She glared.

"Faith I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." I said hating myself.

"Oh yeah? You are sorry? For what? For calling her a slut indirectly?" April said with a venomous tone.

"You know what, I would've never thought that you can hurt her like that, you of all people will call her such things and would think so low of her". I just stood there motionless. She pushed me even harder this time making me stumble.

"But for you to know, that she slept in my room because Amelia would not leave her alone and kept going into her room at night because YOU leave her alone and asked her to wait for you? For what? So you can come back and hurt her not just emotionally but physically too." She puched me last time making me fall. And went back inside taking Faithlynn with her.

I sat there angry at myself, wanting to cry, beat myself up for hurting her so much. For making her cry.

How should I fix this. I need to fix it. I need to apologize.

Realising what I should do I ran into the house in search for Faithlynn but to see no one is home. Where did everyone go?.

"Hey where did everyone go?" I said barging in on Nadia and Edward making out.

"To get Ice cream, learn how to knock." She groaned.

I rushed out towards my car and drove off towards the nearest Ice cream parlour. I saw my other car parked there so I rushed inside, searching for certain someone.

I saw her sitting in the booth eating her favourite strawberry and fruit sundae with Venessa next to her opposite to April and Aron.

I went to there booth picking Venessa up and taking a seat at her place beside Faith and sitting Venessa on my lap.

Faithlynn ignored me fully. "Faith, can we talk?" I asked. She didn't say or even acknowledge me.

I took a spoon full out of her favourite sundae, which she hate the most when someone do that, but no, nothing. No reaction.

"Faith please, talk to me." I pleaded. Still no response.

"Are you coming with me or not?" I asked angrily, and that's when I had her attention.

"Please?" I asked holding my hand out for her to take.

"No" she simply said. I looked at her in disbelief.

"You are coming with me, get up." I said in a threatening voice. And instantly regreated when I saw her nod with glossy eyes. Shit.

I didn't say anything and just left them there. What is her problem, firstly she won't listen to me if I speak calmly, but she would listen to me if I'm angry. I can't understand her.

I went back home and try to sleep everything away.

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