Warriors of Blue moon

The week with Heath had gone by so quickly. I had told my parents the next day after I returned back from Heaths what was going on and that I would be staying with him in between my patrol shifts so not to expect me home this week. they understood and I could see in their faces they were sad for me, they had also asked that he come for dinner one evening so they could say goodbye.

They didn’t know Heath extremely well or as much as I would have liked them to but they had spent time with him and gotten to know him over the course of our relationship.. I guess I always figured we had more time.

After my first night back at Heaths I was glad that I had an afternoon shift cause it meant we got to stay in bed together for longer and I still had time to have breakfast with him and his Gran before he had to bring me home so I could get ready for work and pack what I needed to have at his for the week. Heath didn’t leave me when he took me home he stayed with me while I packed right up until I had to leave for work.

That evening I went straight to his house to find he had cooked us a candlelit dinner, we spent all evening talking and laughing like we had no care in the world, sometimes forgetting we were limited with our time together, and once again when we got into bed we kissed until our mouths ached and snuggled up in each others arms.

Every day when I had finished my shift we would do something. We walked on the beach, went to the town cinema and one evening when I didn’t have a shift until the following afternoon we hit a few bars and got ourselves a bit drunk on alcohol and wound up in the village park eating chips and chicken we bought at a nearby takeaway restaurant, giggling like naughty school children.

On our fourth night we had dinner with my family and the whole evening all I could think was how much I wanted this to last longer.. I loved having him sat next to me in my home with my family eating dinner together. I so baldy wanted to see where this could have gone, if what we had, had real potential to be together properly. We both had strong feelings for each other that was clear and I couldn’t help but think if we had just a little more time could it have turned into love... real passionate head over heels love.

He kept holding my hand under the table in between courses and would stoke my thumb with his finger and I could see he really did enjoy being with my family as much as I enjoyed being with His gran and Trey, everything just seemed to fit together.

We had spent mornings and nights cuddled up on the sofa talking, watching movies. every chance we had to cuddle and kiss, we took it. But to our dismay last night was our final night together and we had stayed up till 4am kissing and cuddling in his bed and talking about us and how hard this was going to be. I was so so close to giving him my virginity, a big part of me wanted to spend that intimate special moment with him. I might not still be in love with him but I knew it was close and I had loved my time with him. But the more logical and scared part of me made me back out of it knowing that if I did gave him my virginity... it would be THAT much harder to say goodbye to him today. To let myself get even closer to someone that’s leaving me for good. We had promised to stay in touch. we’d message and video call but we both knew that, that would only last for so long, hell I barely see Sam anymore since he started getting ready to be a Beta and he lives in the same house with me so I already knew just how busy Heath was going to be taking over as an Alpha.

Heath had all his stuff packed and ready in the moving truck to head out first and he had hired a larger more comfortable car for him. trey and his gran to drive to the Moon Valley pack. We just pulled up outside my house and I said my last goodbyes to Trey and Edith, I got out of the car with Heath coming over to me and holding my hand walking me to my front door..

We faced each other as I fought tears not to fall.. we put our arms around each other and held on tightly, this was it.. our goodbye and I could feel my tears begging to spill over.

“I cant believe this is it” he said, his voice muffled in my hair as he squeezed me tighter.

A tear finally slipped ”I know" my voice shook as I tried to speak ”I’m going to miss you so much Heath this is so hard, but I don’t regret knowing you and all the times we had together even if its all lead to this.. it’s still been worth it” I pulled back to face him.. our faces just inches away from each other ”You’ll always be worth it”.. I gulped ”You’ll always have a place in my heart Heath, you’ll be there forever, I want you to know that, cause your very special to me” another tear slipped, making way for more to follow.

He traced him thumb across my cheek wiping away my tears ”Lelanna” he took in a deep breath ”If I got to stay here and be with you, I would have asked you to be my girlfriend” he chuckled ”and I know I would have Loved every moment spent with you just as I already have... you have been so unexpected... I just didn’t see you coming, like a beautiful sweet tornado right into my life” He kissed me then deep and soft..

He pulled away slightly and looked into my eyes ”promise me though, that when you do want to settle down you’ll only be with someone that knows how beautiful and special you really are and makes you smile everyday, cause you deserve that and more Lelanna” he kissed me again.

“I dont want to think about that” I said with a weak voice, my throat clogging up again from unshed tears. “but if you ever need anyone to talk to or just anything... you tell me ok... remember I’m always here”

He held me into him tightly and we sank into a deep long kiss, wanting to savor every moment, holding onto the kiss for as long as we could..

We were suddenly bought out of our kiss by the loud beeping coming from Heaths watch, he sighed deeply “fuck” he mumbled under his breath as he turned it off ”my little stunner, that means I have to go” he said looking at me with saddened eyes.

I pulled him back into me and placed a long hard kiss on his lips.. before finally letting go “ok” I said hesitantly, I wasn’t ready for him to go.

He moved his hand to my cheek and stroked it as he looked at me adoringly with emotion in his eyes ”bye, bye beautiful”

My throat hurt as the lump got ten times worse “Bye” i just about got past my throat, tears slowly starting to drop from my eyes “Bye handsome... and thank you for every moment”

He smiled a sad smile ”no baby, thank you” he kissed the back of my fingers, before finally letting go of my hand and backing away toward his car then finally turning around to it and opening the door he looked back at me as he got in, winding the window down, he got in and started the engine, his eyes still on me, he gave me a wink and blew me a kiss, a smiled and blew him one back that he pretended to catch. He slowly drove the car forward, it gliding along the wheels only just moving round as he kept his gaze one me and I kept mine on his until him and his car were past my house and out of sight.. my throat couldn’t take anymore and I let the sobs come. I went into my house and straight up to my room, grabbing my ‘do not disturb sign’ i stuck it to my door, got dressed into pajamas all the while tears still falling from my eyes, my faced soaked I turned off the lights and got into bed..

I couldn’t help but wonder if this was the right choice, would I really find it THAT hard to leave this all behind? Or could I be just as happy, if not happier there? even if this isn’t Love and I knew it wasn’t fireworks kind of love.. he’s the one, my heart beats for you kind of love, but what I felt was strong.. is it strong enough to become that sort of love.. cause being here and watching him go..it hurt, and I missed him already.

I stayed in bed all the next day, luckily I didn’t have work, because today I didn’t feel like plastering on a fake smile , making small talk and patroling the boarder.. today, I just wanted to be left alone.

Every now and then my parents or Sam would pop their head around my bedroom door to ask if I was ok, only for them to be met with a grunt.. I didn’t want to talk... hense the ′do not disturb’ sign I had put back on my door. I just wanted one day to myself so I could miss him and think about him without anyone trying to distract me, with the same thoughts going round and round in my head... should I have gone with him, could i have had a happy life by his side... but if we didn’t work out, well then what? but wasn’t it worth finding out anyway? I pulled my blanket further over my head to shut out the daylight, I’d stopped crying after an hour or two last night before I fell asleep, but all that crying left me with a nasty headache today, I still felt tired and I felt pissed off. Pissed off that we had something good and it had to end.

I finally met a great guy, a guy that wanted me too.. shit, maybe I should go. When he first told me he had to leave, at the time I thought it would be too hard for me to leave my life behind for a guy I didn’t love but... now... now I’m not so sure, and I knew this was something I would have to really think about. Maybe if I visited him soon for a week It could help me to decide. I know if I gave Gabel enough notice he could change my rota and have someone fill in... I closed my eyes as I knew it was something I would need to try and as I thought more about visiting Heath I let my tired eyes flutter and close again and fall back to sleep, knowing I had made a decision.

That one day did me good, at least enough to recharge and get my ass out of bed, I had work the following day and I couldn’t avoid it just cause I was feeling sorry for myself, but I still didn’t feel like smiling, I still felt... low and I missed him!

Luckily my patrols this week had been nights, when it was quiet, no one to bombard me with questions or bothering me with conversation and doing nights meant I could spend the day in bed while the house was empty and enjoy the peace and quiet. I knew it wasn’t particularly healthy me shutting myself off, usually I’m always trying to do something with my day but I wanted to be on my own with my phone for when Heath called or text and so far he had every day.

He’d been thrown into everything, all the duties all the responsibilities and having to spend time with his community.. he told me a lot about it.. The people were nice they respected his Uncle as Alpha and now they respected Heath too and his rise to be their new Alpha. I told him about me visiting him for a week as soon as Gabel could sort out a week that would be easy for me to go and Heath loved the idea, telling me he wanted his Uncle to meet me and he wanted to show me the entire pack territory, just hearing him talk about it made me feel more excited about going there and seeing his new home and wondering if I could fit in and be a part of it.

After constant messages from the girls, which of some I ignored..by the fourth day of me hiding they lost patience and came to see me.. and it did help.. I knew it would though.. they bought tons of food and we spent the whole day watching films. comedy, horror, action.. but we purposely left out any romance. They stayed with me right up until I had I had to leave for work and at least that night I did feel better I did actually have a little smile on my face.

By the fifth day it was Sam that spent the day keeping me company and we talked... a lot! mostly about his work and mine and his plans to take Dakota away this weekend.. I couldn’t help but feel excited for them I do hope he chooses this weekend to ask her to be his girlfriend.. I needed some good news to make me happy... and that would make me ecstatic. Sam cooked me a big lunch, he listened to me talk about Heath and my plan to visit him and that I couldn’t decide if me and him could have a future together if I went to live with him.. Sam reminded me to always pace myself to not make any brash decisions either way... just to keep in touch and then visit him... and go from there.. he told me that when I visit him a decision wouldn’t be hard to make that I would just know more either way, what I wanted to do and to just go with it... which made me laugh.. that’s the exact advice I gave to Dakota, and I knew he was right, I knew that’s all I had to do and all I could do right now and it did make me feel a lot less mopey about myself.

My weekend was quiet No Dakota or Sam, Maisie and Lola were busy and I had only one afternoon boarder patrol which I had just come back from.. It was a mild Sunday.. the sun had decided to not appear much today and you could see in the clouds rain was waiting to fall and I knew it was a perfect day, perfect time to go out. I ran to the forest boarder till I met a cluster of trees I could hide behind and I took of my clothes, I took a deep breath in smelling the earth and the coldness in the air, the rain that was about to fall, I knelt down and let myself shift... and off I ran, fast, paws running hard on the ground as I darted past the trees, the mud flicking up into my grey and silver fur..it had been too long, too long since I let my inner wolf run... and it felt soo good, so freeing, easy, blissful, the fresh air seeping deep into my lungs the rain drops finally dropping one by one until it soaked my fur..mm the smell of earth and rain together.. that’s life right there all around me, beneath my paws and clinging to my fur..it was delightful.. I have to remember not to leave it so long.

This is what I needed, just to feel free and be with nature. I must have been running for hours till I finally headed back and put on my wet clothes, but I was so hot from running, the wet didn’t bother me, I just jogged home smiling loving the smell of the forest that I carried with me.

A hot bath filled with lavender and camomile bath salts and honey bubbles, I sank in and let my body unwind even further, feeling myself smile on the inside. I heated up and ate my dinner that my mum had left for me, stopped in the girls room to kiss them goodnight and went to my room. I huddled under my blanket as I reached for my phone feeling happy at what messages I would have from Heath, only to my surprise there were none, no biggy just one night without word, I know he’s busy, just as long as he doesn’t forget me already. I put my phone down and went to sleep. I’ll speak to Gabel tomorrow, I’ll leave earlier for work and speak to him first about a week off and then I can tell Heath when i can see him... hopefully It wont be too much of a wait.

I hurried to work the next day, I had another night patrol but I wanted to have time to speak to Galeb when I went to the guard room to sign in .

“Hey sir, can I speak with you please?”

“Of course Lelanna, what can I help you with?”

“Well is it possible for me to have a week off work at some point?”

"Well of course Lelanna, you are allowed time off, long as we have enough notice so we can sort the rota”

“Great, so when can I have that week?”

"Well it’ll have to be for the following month as we’ll need to schedule the rota without you on it for one of the weeks, how soon do you need the week?”

“umm as soon as I can have it” I asked trying not to sound too cheeky

“ok, well how about you have the first week of next month, thats only a week and 6 days away..is that soon enough?”

I smiled wide and shot my hands to my mouth ”Oh sir that’s perfect, that’s just enough time for me to prepare anyway, so yes I’ll have that week”

He looked at me questioningly ”prepare for what? you off to war for the week Lelanna?” he said with amusement in his voice

I scoffed jokingly ”nooo actually I’ll be visiting a good friend who I really need to see”

"oh and who is this friend? I thought all your friends lived here?? Wouldnt happen to be that chap i saw you around the village with, would it? he smirked

“now, now, no one likes a nosey parker, sir...but yes” I smiled ”he’s actually taking over for his uncle as Alpha for the moon valley pack... you know the one further down south?”

"wow” he exclaimed ”that’s a good pack from what I know, but if your going be safe Lelanna, its a long way from here, so if anything were to happen we wouldn’t be able to get to you straight away”

I shook my head and chuckled ”sir, he’s my friend he wouldn’t let anything happen to me”

He raised his eyebrows ”ok, well you better be sure”

“I am” I sang as I turned and walked away not before giving Galeb a cheeky smile.

I headed into the village to start my patrol, the sun was hidden again today, so it was fairly quiet on the streets, only a few people here and there visiting the restaurants and grocery stores.. Tonight was going to be very quiet indeed and I wish I had my phone so I could call or text Heath. I had woken up this morning to him video calling me apologising for not getting in touch the night before, but him and Trey had to finalise details for his coronation day to announce him as the new Alpha, although his uncle still lives he has made the conscious decision to pass on his title to Heath. We talked for an hour till he had to go and I couldn’t wait to speak to him again and tell him that in two weeks I’ll be with him.. the excitement buzzed through me.

It was finally 5am and my shift was over, when I headed home and had some breakfast, I climbed into bed and grabbed my phone to text Heath before I went to sleep

“Hey handsome, call me as soon as you can, I have news xx”.

xxxxxx

Heath didn’t call or text me the following day which disappointed me a little, I wanted to be able to tell him that I’d be visiting him soon. It did make me think about things a little bit though, if he’s too busy to call or text me then would he even have time to spend with me if I visit him? I didn’t want to be a burden but I do miss him and I’m not ready to give up on what we had. But by the third day I woke up that morning with still no message from him, I put my phone down and decided today I would put that aside and spend the day concentrating on myself again just like I used to. Me and the girls had plans to go out tonight, something we haven’t done for a while now and I didn’t want to see them feeling all gloomy and sorry for myself.

I hopped out of bed got dressed into my workout leggings and top and headed out to the training grounds, it was surprisingly quiet today, only me and ten other people here and because the grounds were so big it felt empty. I headed into the boxing gym first and threw some punches and kicks against the punching bag, jumping from one leg to the other swinging each leg around to attack the bag as hard as I could and then I just went in throwing punches, left and right..hit,hit,hit,hit!! my body was already wet with sweat but I kept my aim on that bag letting out my frustrations feeling like somehow im always waiting around for a guy... a guy to feel for me what I feel for them. I spent years waiting for Layton and now here I am checking my phone constantly for Heath to call or message, I’ve always been available for them both, I get Heath has a new life to adjust to but just even one text would suffice for now..

I calmed down my punches and took deep breaths to slow down my heart rate and I walked outside and set my sights on one of the obstacle courses. swinging ropes, bars, climbing walls... that’s what I need today.. I ran for the first wall grabbed hold of one of the ropes and hauled myself up and over, jumping off on the other side landing soft and firm on my feet from the high wall, setting off into another run across a long wooden plank then jumping of the end grabbing hold of a swinging rope, I swung from one to the other keeping myself from falling into the mud pit below, I swung to the tenth rope and landed on the second wall.

I climbed up fast using the small grips, I got to the top and held onto the first monkey bar and let myself dangle then swung from that to the next all across the long line of bars, I let myself loose from the bar and land on the ground to army crawl under the long green netting, I didn’t stop or even slow down I kept on crawling till I made it to the end and face to face with the last wall, the tallest of all three. i pulled myself up one grip at at time as fast as I could all the way to the top then I climbed up the ladder that took me to the tall finishing tower, the towers placed at the end of each obstacle course. I gripped hold of the thick rope that lead from the tower to the ground and i shimmied down then letting go I let myself fall the last bit of height hitting the ground with my feet and smiled.

Now that felt better! My body felt strong and capable I loved the feeling of knowing I could accomplish something and come out of it feeling stronger and ready.. ready to face the harder course next time. I headed out of the training grounds and went for a run through the forest boarder not letting my feet stop. I took my phone and ear plugs out of my side pocket and blasted Linkin park and Jay z’s - Numb in my ears feeling the freeness of the run, getting lost in the song. I don’t know how many songs I got through on my playlist by the time I made it home.

I quickly threw some food together then had a long hot shower, the girls had decided to get ready here tonight. I got out of the shower wrapped my dressing gown around me and went back down to the kitchen to make some sangrias ready for when they got here and I just happened to have a taste here and there as I made them, I put the drinks on a tray and went back to my room to get ready. I was half way through applying my makeup when they all arrived and they were all more than excited at the large cocktails waiting for them and the music, Fabulous - trade it all blaring out of my sound system.

We danced and drank as we got ready. I had my hair loseley half up and half down with long lose curls and I pulled on my dark read strapless dress and my black shoes. We quickly drank the rest of our Sangrias when we were all ready and already feeling buzzed we headed out to the town, we went to the new and upcoming nightclub ‘Beats Utopia’, As soon as we walked in we could already feel the Vibrant atmosphere all around, and the place was packed, shoulder to shoulder, we had to squeeze our way through to the bar.

We started with two shots each then a round of sex on the beaches cocktails. We attempted conversation but the music and bustle of people were so loud we spent more time laughing at our poor attempt than actually talking. We were half way through our cocktails when Maisie bought us another round of shots followed by Dakota buying us another cocktail each. We found ourselves standing in our spots at the bar bumping to the music so I nodded for them to follow me to the dancefloor when Fabulous - you make me better came on. We got to the middle of the dancefloor and moved to the music, winding, drinking, singing.

We were all on our girl night high, ‘kid ink - show me’ now blasting through the dj’s speakers, the bass drumming through the floor. I couldn’t remember the last time we went out just us girls but we were all having so much fun I knew neither of us wanted it to end anytime soon.. this was an all nighter kinda night. We took turns, two of us heading to the bar each time we needed a new drink, we were getting through the rounds quickly but at the rate we were dancing, we were barely drunk.

The beats just kept playing and we couldn’t tear ourselves away from the dancefloor not wanting to miss any of the good songs the dj had playing. Every song had everyone dancing, the dancefloor was so packed, people were just dancing all over the club, I could have sworn there was not one person sitting or standing still, everyone here was lost in the heat of booze and beats.

It was around 4.30am by the time the club was getting ready to close, emptying all its customers out on to the town streets, we hailed a cab to take us the ten minute walk home, now that our feet were swollen in our shoes, I couldn’t wait to get home and feel the agonising pleasure of finally taking the damn things off. My house was the last stop, just the walk from the cab to my front door was painful, the moment I stepped in the house I slipped them off, my feet felt like they had been held in a torture contraption, and I now felt a foot shorter on my bare feet.

I hauled my arse up the stairs, stripped off my dress that now stank of sweat and alcohol and pulled on my oversized baggy bed t-shirt, falling into bed my eyes were shut and I was asleep within seconds, the buzzing of music still ringing in my ears and dehydration already setting in my mouth.