Chapter 38
Shayan's POV
I woke up the next morning, looking around I realized I was still sitting on the floor with Kel's arm around me. I sighed remembering yesterday's event but smiled a little when I saw Kel. I remembered how he came back last night and cleaned my injury up also apologizing. I wasn't expecting him to and the fact that he did meant a lot plus he said he doesn't hate me. Maybe there's still a chance of us building a family together. I just had to get Evie to forgive us. I made a mental note to call my mom and give her updates since I had asked for her opinion on how to tell them.
"Hey," Kel said and I turned to see he was already awake.
"Good morning." I greeted him, I wanted to ask if he slept well but decided against it knowing we all didn't.
"What are we going to do?" He asked gesturing at the door
"I don't know," I answered sadly.
He got up and pulled me along. He knocked on the door calling Evie but she didn't reply. I did too and still got no answer and just concluded she was still sleeping.
"Let's go freshen up, we'd come back later." He suggested and I nodded.
After bathing I wore a long black shirt, I stopped by Evie's room knocking on the door and trying to open it but got no answer. I decided to make breakfast first before going to meet her. I got to the kitchen to see Kel making waffles, his mind seemed to be somewhere else since he hadn't noticed my presence.
"Hey." I started standing beside him.
"Hey. I didn't see you walk in." He said and I nodded.
"You seemed lost, what were you thinking of?"I asked turning to face him
"A lot of things, how to work things out with you both, how to be a father, family issues and then there's work." He finished sighing.
I felt bad for him, he doesn't know how to be a father as he never grew up with how father around, he probably has no idea what to do and i I was all my fault, he was also ditching work to be here.
"I'm sorry," I sadly started. "I should have tried harder to tell you, I shouldn't have...I know you're mad at me, you have every right to. I never meant for this to happen even though I wanted you to suffer the consequences of pushing me out, I'm sorry, I know it was selfish of me to. I'm really sorry." I was about to start crying again.
Kel took my hands and looked me straight in the eye.
"It's not your fault, I shouldn't have treated you like that and for that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you and our child. Yes, I'm a little mad at you but I'm pissed at myself because it was all my fault. I don't hate you Shayan, I told you I can never hate you and I'm not going to leave you, why would you even think that?"
"I don't know......." It didn't even take long for me to break down again.
"Don't cry Shayan. I wouldn't be able to control myself if you do." He said pulling me to a hug stroking my hair.
I couldn't help but feel guilty, I was the one who had caused him all this pain and now he was stressing himself over me. I didn't want him crying again, I don't think I'd be able to handle it. Kel wasn't one to show his emotions much or tell them and seeing him cry made me know that he had hurt past his breaking point. I liked that he admitted he was wrong, was sorry and is willing to make things work.
We finished making the waffles, I plated Evie's with whipped cream, strawberry and chocolate with a glass of milkshake. I just hope she'd accept the apology.
"Let's go give it to her," I said taking the plates.
"I'm here." She announced her presence
"Evie." We both said at the same time.
"Evie I'm sorry. I know I should have told you, I'm sorry."
"Why didn't you tell me, mommy?" She sounded so sad.
"I was scared to. I didn't want you to hate him or me. Our relationship was complicated and I didn't want you to think he didn't want you in his life."
"Why didn't you tell him?" The question was simple but I couldn't bring myself to tell her all the things that happened between us. I didn't want her to hate him.
"I tried to but I never got the chance to. We broke up and separated, we didn't see until recently." I answered.
"And you got married. Why didn't you tell him then?"
"We didn't talk then and we weren't close. I was going to tell you both before so this happened."
"Why did you get married to him, did you even love him?" She asked and I felt like I was being interrogated.
I turned to look at Kel, I couldn't possibly tell her the reason why we got married and for the other question, I wasn't quite sure.
"Evie," Kel called and she turned to look at him.
"Why did you break up, I was a mistake wasn't I?" she asked teary-eyed.
I hate that she thought she was unwanted.
"You weren't a mistake Evie." Kel clarified.
"You didn't plan on having me right?" She asked crying.
"I'm not going to say I wanted a child at eighteen but Evie I don't regret having you. You are the best thing that happened to me. You're not a mistake Evie and even if you are you're one beautiful mistake that I don't regret having. I love you, Evie." I told her crying "I love you too mummy, I'm sorry for hurting you last night."
She said and we hugged. I was crying tears of joy now. I never thought that I'd hear her say that again. We broke the hug and she went to meet Kel.
"I love you too Daddy." She said and I smiled as they hugged, a little tear slipped from Kel's eyes as he heard her call him that. Thank God it went well in the end, I was so happy. There was nothing between us now, we were complete and he kept his promise of not leaving or hating me. I think it was time I opened my heart to him, he deserved it. We deserved to be happy as one family.
"Come here." They said pulling me and we did a family hug, there was nothing else I could ask for, my happiness was right here.00000000