Two Alphas, One Mate

Diana

I don’t know how long I slept. It felt like an eternity. My eyes were heavy, like rocks sinking down into the water. I didn’t want to open them. I wanted to stay in my dream world where he was.

Where Damian was.

He was always there, and I wondered if he too was having the same dream I was.

I felt him touching me, not physically, but it was like our souls were connecting through this strange other world. I wanted to reach out and touch him back.

“Damian.” I whispered.

He was quiet, but he was there. His body was close to mine. I went to kiss him, but it didn’t feel like the way it usually felt. It felt cold, it felt empty, it felt like he was a mere ghost.

“Damian.” I went to kiss him again, but he was gone. Evaporated through thin air.

I looked up into the bright golden sky. There were fireflies buzzing in the air above my head. The nearby lake turned different colours, changing every few seconds. It was a magical place that I used to share with Damian, but now it was just emptiness.

Just like my soul.

Empty without Damian. When I was home with him, our dreams would last for hours, but now, he always evaporated before I got the chance to tell him I loved him.

Why couldn't I be with him in my dream? Was it because I was with Holden? Was it because our connection was severed?

Tears started to poke through my eyes. I was in the middle of my dream forest, alone, with my baby. I could feel its heart beating strong. I was weakened, but the baby was healthy.

That was all that mattered.

I started to fall back to reality. I didn’t want to go, but I had to. I had to wake up eventually. I couldn’t stay here long, not while I was trapped in this prison.

I had to get to Damian.

I had to save my baby.

I had to be strong.

“Bye Damian.” I whispered to the empty forest. Maybe I was hoping to hear his response, but there was nothing.

My dreams were empty, but at least I could remember his smell in this place. I remembered every inch of his body when I came here. No one could ever pull me out of this place, not Holden, not Red, not Aria, NO ONE.

“Bye.” I collapsed and fell back into the black hole that I called reality.

This was my new reality.

I opened my eyes. The sun was poking through the window. The darkness was gone and I was back in the same bedroom I never thought I would find myself in again. It reeked of Holden.

I sat up and looked around. I sighed heavily.

This was the last place I wanted to be.

“Sleep well?” A familiar voice came from the corner of the room.

“How long have you been standing there?” I furrowed my eyebrows to Aria, casually leaning against the wall, watching me like an insane lunatic as she sipped her coffee.

I wondered how long she was standing there for?

“You say his name a lot in your dreams.” She smirked as she took another sip from her mug. She wore her black warrior gear, and her hair was in a tightly woven bun. She looked more sinister since I last saw her, maybe what I did to her was taking a toll on her mind.

“If I offered you a coffee, would it be bad for the baby?” She held the cup up and smiled.

I kept quiet as I stood up, narrowing my eyes on her.

“Wish it was yours?” I smiled back.

“Motherhood, can you really imagine me being a mother?”

“You wouldn’t suit motherhood now that you mention it.”

“I’m sure he’ll like seeing you wearing his shirt.” Her eyes trailed me up and down. It was true, I was wearing Holden’s shirt, but it was either this, or naked.

“Have fun yesterday?” I crept in, walking closer towards her. I wasn’t afraid of her. Technically I was her Luna. Holden would kill her if she touched me. Her obsessive personality was out in the open to exploit and I was going to take advantage of it.

“You’re a freak if you ask me.” She snapped back.

Already touched a nerve with her by the looks of her face.

“Isn’t that the reason Holden loves me? Loves me enough to make ME his Luna? Loves me enough to make you, MY Gamma? It’s a pity you can’t be anything more then that…You'll never be anything, and your obsessed with someone you will never be able to have.”

I could see her face drop when I spoke the words. I struck a chord. My plan was working and she was being exposed for who she truly was.

A crazed, obsessed, jealous, narcissistic maniac.

“Holden is right, you have grown quite the dirty mouth since coming back here.” She stepped towards me and set her cup on a nearby dresser.

“And what is the famous Aria going to do about it? Are you going to go fuck Holden?” I chuckled.

I felt the same waves of insanity flowing through me, but at this point, I didn’t care. She was going to hear it from me everyday. “Go a head, see if I care, cause I don’t. No matter how hard you try, no matter how many times you get on your knees, you will always be second to him, or maybe third?” I laughed again.

We were only a couple feet away. I could see her arms shaking and her nostrils flare up. She was playing into my insults and I was enjoying every minute of it.

“You’re just like his mother, a Fenrir whore that is pregnant with a bastard child.” She barked back.

I kept my face calm as I narrowed my gaze to her. I wasn’t going to falter from her insults. Her words meant nothing to me. I actually let out a smirk as we locked eyes.

“Maybe I should visit Red’s room, I hear he’s having some fun with the Fenrir bitch of his.” Aria eyes wondered the room then came back to me.

Her smile grew as my face dropped.

Was Hippolyta here the entire time and I failed to notice? How could Red bring her here? Was he insane?

“I’ll fucking kill you if you lay a finger on her.” I gritted between my teeth.

She laughed cynically. She knew exactly how to get under my skin. I wouldn’t think Red would allow anything to happen to Hippolyta, but now I was going to question everything that man did. He betrayed me, took Hippolyta, and caused all of this shit. This was all his doing.

“WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN HERE?” A low, deep growl came from the doorway. It actually brought goosebumps to my skin hearing his voice.

It was Holden.

He was topless, with just a pair of jeans on. I was used to Damian being the casual one, and it was unsettling to watch Holden dress like him. Was he trying to mess with my mind? Did he purposely dress like this?

“Just seeing if she is alright this morning Alpha.” She muttered as she looked to him. Her face, her smirk, her demeanor completely changed when he entered the room. It was like she turned into a different person when he was around.

His eyes darkened as he narrowed his gaze to her. I’ve never seen him so pissed. His hands balled into fists as he approached her.

Was there a crack starting to form under their strange relationship?

Aria looked down in submission.

“You’re a pathetic liar.” He stood over her like she was a tiny insect at his feet.

He breathed in heavily, “I’ll kill you if I catch you here again.”

“I'm - I'm Sorry Alpha.”

“Get out of my sight, NOW.” Holden growled.

She quickly scurried out of the room. I’ve never seen her so scared, and I’ve never seen Holden so upset at her. Was he finally seeing what a horrible person Aria was? Mind you, Holden was a worse person, but it was gratifying to see him finally tell her off. I wasn’t sure if he was serious about killing her, but hearing the words come from his mouth gave me a slight sense of relief that he was at least seeing her through my eyes.

Maybe it was because I was pregnant now, or maybe he was changing in a good way. He was still a manipulative evil bastard, but I couldn’t help the thought.

“You look good in that.” Holden refocused his attention on me.

I kept quiet. I wasn’t in the mood to fight now. I was feeling queasy again from morning sickness. Everyday I was feeling weaker and weaker. Should I be worried or was this normal? I wish my mother were alive to explain things to me, but here I was, alone, in Holden’s room, with no one to help me through this.

He walked in a little closer, and my dizziness was only getting worse. I had to sit on the bed to regain my composure.

He pulled up my chin with his finger to look at me, “How are you feeling today? You don’t look too good.”

“I’m fine.” I held my hand on my stomach and pulled my face back down. I was praying I wouldn’t vomit, but then again, maybe I could vomit on Holden. Wouldn’t that be a scene to watch.

“I’m taking you to the doctor today to get assessed.”

“Excuse me?” I looked back up to him.

“Yes, I’m taking you to the doctor. Then I’ll see how far along you are.”

“You don’t deserve any of this.”

“Any of what Diana? Seeing my heir inside my Luna’s belly?”

I deepened my look to him. Was he insane? Did he really think this was going to be his heir? Did he think I wanted any of this? He was acting as if nothing happened.

“What if its Damian’s then? What will you do? ” I knew deep down it was his, but now I was beginning to worry about what Holden would actually do. Werewolves were particular with blood lines, but maybe since they were brothers, he was more open to the idea of keeping it.

The idea still made me sick.

I had to keep my hope that I was going to get out of here soon. I just had to be patient.

Holden smiled as he stood over me. Watching me closely with his dark menacing eyes.

I swallowed hard, trying to hide my deteriorating mind. He still scared me at the end of the day, and it was getting hard to hide it with my growing weakness.

He bent down to my eye level, “Don’t worry, I won’t kill it, like I said. It’s MINE no matter what. And you…” He placed his hand on my bare leg and squeezed tightly. “Will bear me another. NO MATTER WHAT.” He kissed the side of my cheek and I immediately pulled away. I wanted to slap his face, but I didn’t want a repeat of last night. I was hoping he would just go away and leave me in peace to my sickness.

“You must really not be feeling well, you’re burning up, or is that me you’re burning up for?” He pushed me down onto the bed as he crawled overtop of me. I didn’t move, I wasn’t going to struggle because it's what he wanted.

He was taunting me to put up a fight.

“I thought you preferred red heads?” I muttered under my breath.

He growled, then grabbed both of my arms, pinning them above my head.

“So, is this how it happened with my brother? Tell me, I’m dying to know.”

“You will never know.” I was trying to limit my words, but I wasn’t going to stay silent for long.

“Did you open your legs to him like a whore? Did he fuck you knowing that you belonged to me?”

“Is this what this is about? I’m no object, I get a choice.”

“Ah, ah, ah, little Diana, my little angel, you are mine. You don’t get a choice anymore. You committed yourself to me, remember?” His hand trailed onto my chest, but I remained focused on him, trying my best to keep a straight face. I didn’t cower, I didn’t cry, I just locked eyes with him.

I wasn’t going to flinch from his touch.

“Damian is a hundred times the Alpha that you will ever be.” I replied.

Suddenly, his hand latched onto my mouth, squeezing tightly.

“Damian is just like the rest. He is nothing, and he will never be anything. You will see that in time my love.”

“I don’t love you.”

“You do, you will, and you will show me in time.”

“What the hell is that suppose to mean?”

“In time.” He leaned in, squeezing my mouth so hard that I couldn’t pull away. He planted his hard lips on mine. I didn’t move, I didn’t flinch, I didn’t receive his kiss. It was only him pushing his lips onto mine, nothing more.

“I forgot how sweet you tasted.” He whispered softly as he kept his hand on my face. “Nothing can beat your taste, not even that red headed bitch.”

I arched my eyes at him.

His other hand came onto my thigh. It felt foreign, it felt wrong, but again, I wasn’t going to struggle. It was exactly how he wanted me to act. I couldn’t risk him getting rough with me, I couldn’t risk my unborn child to get hurt from my impulsive behavior.

“Your skin is so soft. I missed it so much while you were away.” His fingers grazed my inner thigh ,slowly working towards my core. I tightened my legs up so he couldn’t put his hand there, but I was immediately met with a strong forceful push, prying them open as his body wedged in more.

“That’s it, struggle all you want.” His hand finally touched between my legs.

I gasped.

It was not the same, it wasn’t Damian, and internally I was panicking. My instinct was to kick him away and run.

His fingers touched me hard, and there was nothing pleasurable about it.

“Is this what you like then? Do you want me to be rough with you?”

I tightened my jaw and closed my eyes. I was trying to think of something else other then Holden’s hand between my legs.

I gasped again as his fingers pierced into my entrance.

“You moan like a whore. Did you moan for him like you do for me?”

My jaw tightened more, and I kept my eyes shut. “Give me your worst. I can take it.”

His body tensed up and he removed his hand. His face hovered over mine, mere inches away. I opened my eyes to face him.

Obviously, my comment was unexpected.

“You surprise me every day little angel.”

My hands were free now, but what was the point to struggling. I was afraid he was going to hurt my baby. I had to protect my abdomen from his weight as much as possible. He said he wouldn’t kill it, but I was scared he could loose control if I fought back too much.

“Alpha!” A booming voice came from the doorway.

I sighed in relief. It was the interruption I was praying for, but would he send him away and continue where he left off?

Holden looked up but kept me pinned to the bed.

“What the hell is so important Red that you had to interrupt me!?” He roared.

“Diana, I’m going to get you out of here.” Red quickly mind linked to me and I looked up. I was shocked he was doing this right in front of Holden. How could I believe this bastard? He was the one who got me captured, why was he telling me he was going to get me out of here?

“Its Damian, he’s attacked three of our allied packs last night…”

“AND?!” Holden stood up from the bed and his eyes blackened. Obviously this was news to him. Maybe Damian was closer to me then I thought. The idea gave me more hope.

I had to keep strong. He will come for me.

“Three Alpha’s are dead, along with most of their warriors. He’s getting closer, Iris is worried we won’t be ready when he comes.”

“Fetch Iris, go to Red Blood pack, and tell Alpha Cyrus. I don’t want word getting out. No phones, no computers, no emails, just tell him the news, he will know what to do.”

“Yes Alpha.” Just as Red turned around, Holden spoke up again.

“Oh Red, before you go, how is she?”

Red froze, and his eyes widened. He knew exactly who Holden was referring to.

“How’s who?” Red was playing dumb, but Holden was smarter than that.

“That Fenrir whore you have sleeping in your room?”

Red paused. His face dropped, his eyes blackened as he looked to Holden. I’ve never seen Red so angry.

“I didn’t know you had a mate Red, why didn’t you tell me? Are you ashamed she is Fenrir? Are you scared something may happen to her?” Holden let out a malicious smile.

Red remained still, looking around the room like he was ready to fight.

“Don’t worry, I won’t tell.” Holden winked.

It was unsettling. Red was about the leave the house, and Hippolyta was potentially in danger now. He was a fool to think she would be safe here. I was surprised he hadn’t already left this pack. I had to intervene to protect her. I wasn’t sure how, but I couldn’t leave her alone. I was surprised I hadn’t heard her voice or mind link.

“I’m just yanking your tail Red, RELAX. Just make it snappy, now go.”

Red stood there, then looked to me.

“We are leaving tonight.” Red mind linked as he looked to Holden. Trying to play it off like we weren’t communicating in front of his face.

“Are you deaf?! GO!” Holden roared.

“Stay strong Diana.” Red look back once more before exiting the room.

“How can I trust you? You screwed me over too many times before. This is all your fault!” I screamed back.

“Trust Hippolyta, she is the one with the plan.”

My mind link was interrupted by Holden who stood over me, holding his hand out for me to grab. “Time for your appointment.”

…

I laid on the examination table. I was wearing the hospital gown, but we weren’t in any hospital or doctor’s office. We were still in the house, in a makeshift room that was converted into a doctor’s office. I suppose Holden had the resources to do whatever the hell he wanted, including bringing an entire doctor team at his disposal.

“Now, how far along are you? When was your last period?” The doctor sat on the stool adjacent to me as he read from a clipboard in his hand.

He was an older man, short in height, grey thinning hair, thick rimmed glasses, and a look that creeped me out. There was something about him I didn’t like, and now his blonde-haired nurse was getting the intervaginal scope ready to enter me.

This was the last place I wanted to be. I didn’t want to do it, but at the same time, I had to. I had no choice. I couldn’t resist in fear of what could happen.

“I don’t remember.” I replied blankly as I looked up to the ceiling.

“So could there be a chance its mine?” Holden’s voice came over me.

“Actually, yes there is a chance.” The doctor said.

I perched up from the bed. “Wait, what? There is no way, too much time has passed.”

“But you said you don’t remember when your last period was.” The doctor replied.

“Yea, so?”

“Well, you just answered your own question then my dear, now lay down and keep still.” The doctor held the ultrasound head at the end of the bed. My legs were positioned on the gurney straps, allowing myself to open up for the doctor.

All of the strangers were looking at me. I wanted to cry, I wanted to shrivel up and disappear. My heart was racing as I heard the doctor slip on gloves.

There was no way it was Holden’s. I knew in my heart it was Damian’s.

There was no way.

I kept repeating the same words in my head to calm my raging nerves, but now that the doctor put it into perspective, he was right. It could be Holden’s, but I only started to feel the side effects recently.

I turned my head to the screen and held my breath. The ultrasound wand felt cold as it entered me. I cringed and looked away the further it went inside.

"Just a little more Diana." The doctor continued to push until it couldn't go any further.

I understood this was the way to do an ultrasound in early pregnancy, but the people standing in this room were the last ones I wanted to see me in this position.

Wide open for the world to see.

All the while the father, my mate, was out there somewhere, trying to get me back. He is the one that was supposed to see this, not Holden.

He didn’t deserve any of this.

“So, do you want to good news or the bad news first?” The doctor looked to the ultrasound screen as he wiggled the wand around inside me. My hands gripped the bed tightly as I kept my focus on the screen, trying to distract my mind with the image of my growing child.

“What do you mean BAD news?” Holden stood from the chair he was sitting on and looked to the same screen we all had our eyes on.

“Well, I’ll start with the bad news then,” The doctor pointed to the small spec on the screen, it was tiny, and I wasn’t sure what I was looking at. It looked distorted as the screen was black and white. I was trying my best to figure out what it was, but this was my first time seeing an ultrasound in person.

I was nervous.

Was there something wrong with the baby?

Holden leaned over the doctor, hovering him, analyzing the very screen we all had our eyes glued to.

“It’s not yours Alpha.” The doctor peered over his shoulder to look at Holden, and surprisingly, his face remained calm.

I sighed with relief, but I was still scared.

“What is the good news?” Holden said in a cold, dark tone.

“Well, you see this?” He pointed to a small dot on the screen, “It’s the heart, but if I look the other way,” He moved the wand again at a different angle.

“It’s a second heartbeat.”