Three for Thorn

Un-fucking-believable!

The secret that I've been sheltering so closely in my heart for years is now coming home to roost and all because of my damn shithead ex best fucking friend.

Curtis has been a damn pain in my ass for years now. I fucking hate him.

I hardly ever talk to ass anymore only when a rash problem arises do I ever utter a single fucking word to him and you would have to force me at gunpoint to even do that.

This has been plaguing me for some time now. Sin and Sun definitely don't know what Cur is actually to them. Only Lila and I do. She only knows because she caught me one night at Sins bar crying tears in my beer over it all.

I hesitantly confessed it all to her that night. I have regretted it ever since. I made her vow to me that she would never tell our brothers then she unloaded her own dirty little secret to me that night also about Cur, making me vow to her not to kill him when she told me, now we both have secrets about his ass that we promised each other that we would never a speak a word about it to anyone.

But here I am about to unload my biggest secret to all of them

That's why I'm presently in the living room with my brothers and Thorn now having to explain to each of them my deepest and most daunting secret.

And all thanks to fucking Cur the prick!

"Just tell me Slay!" Thorn keeps repeatedly insisting with me.

Sun and Sin are sitting down on the couch staring up at me with hope filled and curious eyes while Thorn is sitting down in the chair with a very disconcerting look on her face aimed directly up at me.

I keep pacing the floor trying my best to come up with the exact words to explain this shit to all of them.

I hate to do it because I know that what is about to come vomiting out of my mouth will inevitably hurt my brothers to no end. Fuck! This is so messed up! I never wanted to hurt to them.

"Okay look, this is going to sound rather strange but I've been keeping a secret from both of you for a few years now. One that could possibly change your point of views about our own father." I remissly tell Sun and Sin.

"He and mom got into an argument a while back now. A huge one in fact. Dad moved out of the house for a few months over it. It was pretty damn bad. While he was out on his own he managed to hook up with a woman, who was as you might have all guessed by now was Curtis's mother." I stop speaking to let it all sink in.

Both of my brothers stare at me with different expressions written all over their faces. Sun is as usual looking deeply concerned over all of this while Sin is showing slight signs of prominent anger per his usual.

I carry on, "her name was Wilma Devine, she was at one time the Alpha's daughter of the Winter Moon Pack, which is now of course Curtis's pack. Dad reunited with mom a few weeks later but he didn't realize at the time that he got Wilma pregnant by some miracle while he was with her and apparently Wilma never bothered to tell him either." I blow out a pent up breath. Observing my brothers with blatant curiosity.

"I only know all of this myself because I was over at Curs pack one day and I happen to overhear his mom tell another woman about her relationship with our dad. At first I couldn't understand what she was even talking about. I was only eleven so hearing about our dad having another child with someone else kind of threw me for a loop. After I listened in on them for a while discussing dad I went outside to confront Cur over it. That asshole knew the entire time who his dad really was but he promised his mom he would never talk about it with anyone. He was even happy about it." Too damn happy if you fucking ask me.

"So are you trying to tell us that Curtis is our damn half brother?" Sunny ask me with astonishment.

Seriously? Didn't I just explain that?

"Yes that's exactly what I'm trying to tell you Sunny. Curtis is our brother." I tell him definitively.

"So why didn't you just tell us? Why keep it a secret? Mom and dad have been gone for three years now Slay. You didn't think you could of dropped that information on us at any given time?" Sin retorts rather sarcastically.

"Curtis and I had a falling out over this. He wanted to tell all of you but I would not allow him to do it. I was...ashamed of what our father did and I didn't want either you to have to go through that embarrassment or have either of you look at our father any differently than you did." I explain it to them with a touch of annoyance interlacing with my tone.

"Does Lila know?" Sunny ask.

"Yes. I admittedly told her while I was drunk a few years back." I admit.

"Did dad know?" Sin ask.

"No dad never knew because Wilma never told him and I chose not to ever bring it up with him. Mom and dad were finally in a good place and I didn't want to ruin it." I always thought that if I even spoke a word about it dad would probably leave us to be with Cur or Wilma and I couldn't do that to my mother. It would break her heart so I chose to be completely silent about it.

"So all of these years you have been keeping this secret from us for our own damn good? What? Did you honestly think they we couldn't handle it? And what about Curtis? How does he feel about all of this? Does he not want to be our brother?" Sunny rapidly runs through the questions faster than I can even answer them all.

"I don't know Sun. I don't exactly know how Curtis feels about any of this and I really don't care either. All I know is that I didn't want this to hurt either of you." I tell them scrubbing my hand down my face feeling utterly depleted.

"Why now? Why are you telling us all of this now?" Sin abruptly ask me. "What changed?"

Why now? Well because of the shocking information that Thorn informed me of just this morning.

I glance over at Thorn who is sitting in the chair with her tiny hands placed delicately into her lap trying her best to avoid my heat filled steaming eyes directed right on her.

"Because of me." She ultimately tells them both very softly.

They look over at her sharply with curiosity and concern streaming off of both of their faces.

"What do you mean Thorn? Why you? What do you have to do with any of this?" Sunny questions her ideally confused.

This is the part that I have been mulling over all damn morning.

I actually don't want to stand here and hear her speak those very heartbreaking words to them.

The same damn words that broke my heart earlier this morning, I'm damn sure they are about to break my brothers hearts also. Fuck I hate this!

But unfortunately I have to withstand hearing them all over again. For my brothers sake and mainly for hers regrettably.

"Curtis is..uhm, well he's..." she's understandably having trouble telling them.

Fuck!

This is so damn messed up!

"He's her mate too!" I grumble fiercely filling in the damn blanks for Thorn so I don't have to hear those heart wrenching words inevitably slip out from her lips yet again.

Hearing the gasp and distorted cussing from Sin and Sunny as I keep staring over at Thorn I can't suppress my own damn fucked up feelings over this situation either.

"Yea, I don't fucking like it either but unfortunately it's something that we're just going to have to deal with because Thorn here refuses to reject his damn ass." I growl.

We have already had this argument earlier this morning between Thorn and I.

I wanted her to reject him immediately but Thorn being Thorn shot that idea down very quickly.

"Why won't you? Reject him that is?" Sin quickly ask her.

Thorn scoffs out deliberately at Sin.

"I didn't reject your ass when you treated me like shit when we first met or even when you slept with Storm and I didn't reject your ass Sunny when you chose Nina over me or when you slept with Shari! I didn't even reject your ass Slay when you flirted with that girl Jessica or when you kept this big ass secret from me! So give me one good damn reason why I should reject Curtis. He is actually the only one that hasn't done anything wrong to me!" Thorn argues with very valid points for all of us.

But if she only knew the true Cur not this affront he's putting up just for her then she wouldn't be defending his ass so easily.

"Actually Curtis has been the most honest out of all you. So tell me why I should reject him? I may be carrying your pup but I will not put you three above him and that's final!" Thorn carries on getting even more fevered by the second.

"Thorn." I drawl out her name completely exasperated.

"No Slay! You three need to work through all of these damn issues and stop with all of these stupid ass secrets and lies. I'm calling Queen Miracle right now and explaining everything to her, then I'm going to remove Curtis from his cell and if any of you have a problem with it, well then you can just kiss my big fat ass!" Thorn heatedly tells us all quickly rising from her chair as she storms off from us angrily.

Well fuck me!

"Thorn." I call out for her but she just keeps walking away ignoring me completely.

"Well that went well. And I guess we have no other chose but to accept Curtis as our brother and her mate now." Sunny informs us.

Not if I have anything to say about it! Dammit all to hell!

She wants to go stay with him for a few days at his pack now to get to more acquainted with him.

What a crock of shit.

She can get to know his ass just fine while staying here at her own damn pack.

But she keeps on persisting that after the formal ceremony announcement of her being our Luna that she is going to his pack no matter if we agree or disagree with the shit.

And what's really getting my ass right now is that she is up there in our guest room with him completely alone. Behind a fucking closed door.

That has me scared out of my wits. I keep listening intently in case I hear anything out of the norm.

She called Miracle just like she said she was going to do and got his stupid ass released from our dungeon. Man I wish I could tell her just what a disastrous mistake that fucking is.

This is undoubtedly fucked up.

While us three are down here watching over our warriors train, she is up there doing things with his dumb ass that neither of us actually wanting or approve of.

Especially fucking me.

I don't know how to tell her that he's actually way too dangerous for her to be around him but I just fucking don't know how?

I keep grinding down on my damn teeth in pure aggravation while I'm standing here just imagining what them two may be doing up there with each other all alone or what he just might be attempting to do.

This so fucked up!

"Slay you need to relax. If you keep grinding your teeth like that you're just going to end up chipping a damn molar." Sin huffs at me while shaking his damn head.

How can he be taking this shit so damn casually?

"Why aren't you upset? There's no damn telling what them two may be doing up there." I question Sin completely perplexed by his calm emotions about all of this. I actually thought that he above anyone else would be more upset over this.

"Because he is her mate. What am I suppose to do Slay? The Moon Goddess chose him for her just like she chose us for her and since we are brothers it kind of makes absolutely perfect sense to me." He shrugs his shoulder continuing to watch our warriors as they practice on the field.

"It's not right. I refuse to accept this. She's ours Sin and nobody else's. Why should we have to share what's ours? Especially with him." I grumble.

I need to desperately get ahold of Lila and soon before something untoward happens with Thorn. She is the only one that can help me now. I tried to call her earlier but unfortunately I received no answer. It seems like that's always just my damn luck lately.

"Come on Slay. You're only saying all of this because you don't like Curtis for some odd reason. I don't know what you have against him besides him not telling you that he is our brother but you need to work whatever it is between you two out if you ever want Thorn to forgive you or if you ever want have her back in your bed again." Sin exclaims while letting out a deep annoying chuckle.

"I dislike his ass because I don't want to truly accept him as our brother. He just doesn't fit. He's really not a nice guy Sin. I wish I could tell you what I know about him and have you not once just stopped and thought about what we are all going to do now? If Thorn does decide to keep him as her mate, where exactly is she going live? He has his own damn pack just as we do. Do you even realize just how complicated this all is now? She can't divide her time between all of us. That wouldn't make any damn sense. So exactly what do you think she is going to ultimately do?" I ask him snidely. I'm just keep thinking up ridiculous excuses to try and get his ass away from Thorn as quickly as I possibly can. Hoping that my brothers will latch on to one of them and help me out without me having to tell them both the complete truth just yet.

Sins facial expression's fluctuates between morbid curiosity to outright baffled confusion. Come on Sin please realize what I'm so desperately trying to do!

"I don't exactly know how we would all actually manage it but unfortunately we are all going to have to find a way for us to all work it out, regardless of how you may feel about Curtis he is undoubtedly sticking around according to Thorn so I think it would be best for all of us if you and him would just sit down and try to talk this all out. Because I'm telling you right now Slay. I will not lose Thorn over both of your guys bullshit. So get your act together and work it the hell out." Sin inexplicably tells me before he turns on his heels and walks the hell away from me. I just wish that he could understand. Damn why couldn't he just catch on to what I was trying to do?

I fight down the urge to to tell him within myself.

But fuck I have to do something.

"He has a point Slay. I don't want you to be upset with me either but I don't mind the fact that Curtis is our brother or that he's Thorns mate. I actually like him. He reminds me a lot of dad. He looks like him honestly. I think the reason that you dislike him so much is because with him being around you are no longer actually our eldest brother any more. He is about what? A year? Well a year and a half older than you are? I just think that you are uncomfortable with the thought that you will no longer have the highest rank above us all. Am I wrong?" Sunny challenges.

I would love to tell him that he couldn't be further from the actual truth of it all.

I don't offer him a reply back I just turn away from him and stare out over the field of warriors grumbling out my dismay.

Why is it that Sunny is always the one who can see right straight through any of our bullshit but he can't see through this? He has damn good insight that much I know for sure. It's rather uncanny at times but unfortunately this time he couldn't be further off from the mark.

"Thought so." Okay jackass! I'll just let him assume that he's right but it's eating me alive not being able to tell his damn ass the rightful truth.

"It's mainly because I know him better than either of you do Sunny. He's an asshole who only thinks of himself. He has Thorn fooled and now he is working his way up to fooling you two also. I don't trust him and you shouldn't either. There are things that's happened in our past with him and I and others that neither of you know about. I'm just saying Sunny that you should watch your back when it comes to him. He's the damn devil in disguise and now unfortunately he has our mate falling for his bullshit. Just help me keep an eye on Thorn. By the time this is all over I'm pretty sure that Cur is going to end up hurting her more than either of us will ever know." Sunny nor Sin could possibly understand how viscously evil Cur can actually be.

"Have you told Thorn any of this?" Sunny ask.

"I fucking tried to this morning but Thorn is just too damn headstrong and stubborn sometimes to even listen to reason. She's got it in her head that Curtis is more reliable than we are to her. Since you know you and Sin both have done the unimaginable to her to hurt her, she may just be thinking that he is the one that will be true to her and never hurt her like we did. Sort of like her savior in a way." I desperately try to reason for Sunny to understand.

"Can you please for once just stop bringing up me fucking Shari and how much I hurt Thorn? I already feel guilty enough over it. Okay? I can not change the past even if I fucking wanted to Slay. You know maybe you should just admit to her everything that Curtis has done in the past. I don't know what happened but maybe you should let us all know what did actually happened so we can keep Thorn out of any type of danger. That way we can all be prepared incase he does try to do something with Thorn." He makes it sounds so easy but unfortunately nothing is ever that easy.

"Maybe? But if I try to tell Thorn anything right now she probably wouldn't believe my ass anyway. Not after the way I acted this morning when she told me that he was her mate. I love her Sunny and I don't want her to get hurt but I also know how vindictive Cur is and trust me when I tell you that Cur is an egotistical asshole who is only out for himself. That's another reason I didn't want to tell you and Sin about him being our brother. I knew that once you two found about Cur that he would use you two to his advantage in someway. Cur always has a trick or two up his damn sleeve. He's just that malicious." If I could actually tell both of brothers and Thorn everything that Cur has done in our past I would in a damn heartbeat but unfortunately I just fucking can't.

I'm locked down and kept a prisoner by own promises.

If I tell them then it will bring to light things from our past that I truly don't think they will be able to handle and Lila would never forgive me neither.

"Slay if he's this bad then we need to do everything in our power that we possibly can to remove him from not only Thorns life but our lives as well. Why can't you just tell me what he has actually done?" Fuck I so wish I actually could.

"I just can't. I made a promise to someone to never speak of it Sunny. If I break that promise then what kind of a man would that make me?" Or what kind of brother?

It is dangling right there on the tip of my damn tongue to tell them all another damn secret that I have been harboring from them. If not for my promise I would spill the beans right now just to get the asshole Cur out of our lives and for good this time but I just fucking can't. No mater how much I truly want too.

"Would he hurt her?" Sunny questions would uncertainty. I consciously suck in a deep a breath still listening intently to both Thorn and Cur upstairs. Thankfully all that I am able to hear is both of them still talking amongst themselves.

"I don't know but if he even comes close to trying I will end him. Look Sunny I wish that I could tell you all of it to you but if I do I will lose someone close to me that I dearly love and I just can't take that chance." I plead for his understanding yet again.

"Fine Slay but in my opinion you're putting a lot of things at risk here by keeping your damn secrets so close to your vest once again. One being our relationship with Thorn and the main one being her and our pups life. Is that really worth the risk of keeping your damn secret? You may love this person that you're keeping a secret with but as long as you keep to yourself you are going to hurt other people you love also. Is it really fucking worth it? I just hope that you will be able to live with yourself if it is. Because honestly Slay if I was you I just couldn't." Sunny deflated right there in front of me before my own very eyes. His face takes on a very sodden expression instantly and his shoulders droop down low in pure defeat.

Making me suddenly regret even saying a damn word about any of this to him.

"All I can do Sunny is call this person up and ask for their permission to tell you both or just kill him outright and if I do that Thorn would never forgive my ass. Until then both of my hands are fucking tied behind my back. There's nothing else I can do. I'm so damn sorry." I plan on calling Lila immediately. I can't stand the thought of keeping another gut wrenching secret from any of them and hopefully this time she will fucking answer me.

"Fine but do it quickly Slay, now that you told me all of this information about Cur. I'm more worried about Thorn than I have ever have been before. Especially now that she's carrying our pup. I will not let you or anyone else put either of them in danger over a stupid ass fucking secret that you are too damn cowardly to share. I'm also telling Sin everything that you have just told me so he and I can both be prepared for the shitstorm that you and Cur are so desperately willing to cause!" Sunny states rather aggressively before he turns away from me leaving me standing there all alone with my damn mouth fully agape.

If I don't do something about all of this now he and Sin would both end up blaming me over it and I couldn't blame either of them if they did and just like Sunny so ineptly reminded me I'm also jeopardizing Thorn and our unborn pups lives.

With that thought in mind I grab my cellphone out of my pocket and hurriedly call my sister up determined to put an end to all of this bullshit once and for fucking all.

"Hello," Lila answers my call on the third ring. Thank fuck!

"Lila we need to talk." I stress urgently.

"What's wrong Slay?" I swallow down a big ass gulp, I hate that I have to do this to her.

"I had to tell them that Curs our brother Lila. Cur...he is...he's..Thorns mate." I tell her. The line goes virtually quiet, my anxiety starts to peek.

"What? No Slay. I'm so sorry." She finally speaks with so much concern in her voice that it nearly breaks me. I fucking hate this.

"Lila, I have to tell them...what he did to you." I aguishly tell her while threading my fingers through my tangled hair.

"What? Why Slay? They don't have to know. Please don't tell them." She pleads desperately with me. I flinch when I hear the tormenting pain in her voice.

"Lila I have to. He's Thorns mate. She doesn't realize just how damn evil he truly is. If I don't tell her then I'm putting her and our pups life in danger. She actually likes the fucker." It's something that I just simply can't come to bring myself to understand.

"But Slay they will kill him if they find out, are you willing to take that chance?" Fuck I hate this, especially for her.

"And if I don't tell them he will do the exact same thing he did to you to Thorn. Are you willing to take that chance because I'm fucking not? This is my pregnant mate we are talking about here Lila and I love her immensely. I would die for her Lila. Either you tell them or I fucking will." I threaten her trying to temper down my own rage.

"Alright. I'm sorry Slay I should have realized that earlier. But I don't think I can face them and tell them both the horrid details about what happened. I just can't Slay." Lila is now crying through the phone. I can hear her softly whimpering along with her erratic breathing.

"Do you want me to tell them for you?" I suggest.

"Please. Honestly big brother I don't think I would be able to even face them or be able to get the words out to even tell them. I haven't even told Marc about it all yet. So yes if you don't mind can you please tell them and I will tell Marc." Her whimpers continue to echo through the phone. They remissly overshadow the sounds of the warriors still practicing ruthlessly in the background behind me.

"I'm sorry you have to do this Lila. I can only imagine how hard this must be for you. If you need me please don't hesitate to call or come over here. I will always be there for you baby sister, no matter what." And I always will be.

"Thank you Slay. I'll tell Marc tonight. I love you. Please take care of Thorn before it's too late. She doesn't deserve what I went through. No one does." Exactly. Fuck I'm so glad that she's finally seeing things my way. I release a calming breath finally.

"Love you too and I will. Be safe." I exclaim to her wholeheartedly.

"You too. Bye." She sadly sniffle.

"Bye."

I hang up the phone then my eyes automatically go searching the practice field for any sign of Sun and Sin.

My aggravation spikes when I see them across the field standing right beside Thorn and that asshole Cur happily laughing with each other.

Stomping across the backyard with determined steps I try to brace myself for what's about to come.

An all out fucking war!