Chapter 18 Sin
After our unplanned meeting with Sunny announcing his undying love and devotion toward Thorn. Gag!
I waited until everybody was finally asleep to sneak out of the house hopefully unnoticed. Grabbing an extra set of clothing. I exited my room almost silently.
Quietly creeping through the house like a damn professional ninja, I made it out into the side yard without anyone being the non the wiser thankfully.
Making sure that my current surroundings are clear I hurriedly jolted over to the forest in a mad dash hoping that the shadows of the forest would hide me amongst them, stripping off all of my clothing I swiftly shifted into my wolf, Malice.
Picking up my extra set of clothing off of the forest floor I place them in between my jaws and started running haphazardly in between the trees, jumping over fallen branches and logs until I was able to reach my final destination in record time.
I drop my extra set of clothing on the ground then abruptly transformed back into my human form.
Throwing each article of my clothing on rapidly, I walk over to the cabin. Under my bare feet the dried autumn leaves crunch out loudly with each step that I manage to take onward.
Still panting heavily, I hesitantly knock on the cabin door. When the door finally squeaks open I flash Barrik a genuine huge smile.
"Just on time." He says opening the door wider allowing me to enter into his cabin.
Walking into the cabin I notice Singa sitting down on the couch immediately.
Rushing over to her she spreads her arms up open wide for me to enter them with a tremendous smile that's just for me appearing suddenly on her beautiful face.
"My love." Her husky voice vibrates gently on the side of my neck as I wrap her up into my wanting arms.
"I missed you." I tell her, nuzzling my head deeper into her supple neck. Her scent of nutmeg and spices envelope me as I rub my face deeper into her long neck.
"Ah, my love I missed you too." She claims as I sit down beside her grasping her tiny hand into my own.
Singa and I have been somewhat dating for close to two weeks now. Although I can't recall exactly how she and I met. My mind is kind of foggy on that. She has been a constant force in my life that I have come to truly rely on and respect immensely.
Barrik strolls over to us, sitting down in a small blue and yellow floral chair across from us, eyeing us both with genuine curiosity as he always seems to do whenever I secretly meet up with Singa here at his cabin.
"Now love, just as before, I need you to lean your head back on the couch and close your eyes." Singa sweetly suggests. "Can you do that for me?"
I nod my head gleefully at her. Leaning my head on the back of the couch I close my eyes just as she asked me to do.
Singa starts to speak with her voice being very confidant and thorough. Her words that she quietly speaks are some that I cannot seem to comprehend but I allow her to continue on with whatever she is doing anyway. I completely trust her and I'm basically putty in her pliable hands.
I just can't seem to fight it even if I wanted to, no matter how hard I try to withstand. She has this certain strangled hold on me.
"Amica mea non confidebat.
Nec ego confido mea.
Ego non videbo lucem.
Nisi tenebras licet.
Insidiae manserunt.
Cum veros amores tenere." I scream out in pain as soon her last words are spilled from her lips.
Doubling over on the couch I begin to whimper, laying my head down on Singas lap. Sweat starts forming on my upper lip with my entire body beginning to tremble uncontrollably.
"Is he gonna be okay?" I hear Barrik ask but his voice seems like it's million damn miles away from me.
"He will be fine. Just give him a few minutes baby it will soon wear off. He will probably need some water but other than that he will be perfectly okay. But I'm really sorry baby I need to rush off, the Alpha is expecting me and you know he is whenever I'm late." I barely hear Singa tell Barrik. I feel her rise up from the couch, as she rises my head falls down onto the couch cushion with me still writhing out in unbearable pain as I ball myself into up on it.
"Ya know how I hate sharin ya with him." Barrik exclaims.
"I know baby but it's what must be done, for now anyway. Once he has his daughter back he will no longer need my help. You know this baby." Singa tries to placate him.
"I know I just hate it and I feel so guilty bout it. She's a real nice girl and all." Barrik informs her with bitterness laced in his voice.
I try my hardest to listen in closely to their conversation but I start to become very dizzy and nauseous, which makes it hard to continue to pay attention to them but I try my damnest anyway I keep fighting through whatever this is.
"Don't let her fool you baby the Alpha said that she was pure evil. We must rise above her innocent facade and lay our trust in the Alpha." Singa retorts. "I must go now baby. Just keep an eye on him. He is pivotal to our plans." I hear Singa adamantly command him.
"Just be careful ya hear!" Barrik tells her right before my world suddenly goes black as I fade into unconsciousness.
Waking up groggily, I blink a few times to get my eyes to come into focus.
Fuck! My damn head is pounding out mercifully and my mouth is so damn dry you could actually call it a fucking desert.
Unsteadily rising up from a hard surface with my hand laid palm down on said surface I push myself up from it albeit a bit shakily.
"Easy there. Ya were just on one hella fine bender." Barrik?
I swing my head over in Barriks direction instantly when I hear his voice throbbing throughout my head.
Wincing from the pain I let my head fall back on the hard surface shutting my eyes and breathing almost erratically.
"Here ya go." Barrik says. Opening my eyes I see him holding out a glass of water in his hand for me.
I scowl over at him, trying to remember exactly what happened to me as I take the glass of water from his awaiting hand.
The last thing that I can fully remember was going to bed after I left Sunny's office. No that's not right, I also remember running through the forest but for what I haven't the foggiest idea. Damn, why can't I remember?
"How did I get here?" I croak out with my dry ass throat parched as hell. I decidedly take a generous sip of the water. The cool sensation automatically starts to soothe my aching throat instantly.
"We had a lil bit of a bender, ya and I." That doesn't make any damn sense to me. Eyeing him suspiciously I sit the glass of water down on his plywood coffee table.
"I don't remember coming here." I tell him bluntly. He looks on at me curiously then starts to laugh very unceremoniously.
"Magin not. Ya wa sure wasted last night." Last night?
Looking across the room to the big front plated glass window I can see the sunlight creeping in through the off yellow tattered curtains beaming throughout the living room.
"But I remember going to bed." I absentmindedly say, musing mainly to myself.
"Ya might have but ya ended up here late last night wailing bout that spitfire girl ya have in ya home." I was crying to him about Thorn? That makes even less sense that me being at his damn cabin.
Propping my elbows on my legs I place my head in the palm of my hands trying to fucking remember anything. After a few wasteful minutes of trying I still come up with nothing. Not a damn thing.
"Are ya good ta make it on ya own back to ya place?" Barriks ask.
Dropping my hands away from my face I just stare at him for a second contemplating his question.
"How did I get here?" I ask him suspiciously. Something just doesn't seem right about any of this bullshit.
"I guess ya runned. It dudnt take that long fur ya to get here in ya wolf form." He informs me but he seems a little rattled.
"Look I got stuff I need ta tend ta today so if ya are okay to get back ta ya place on ya own I'll be gettin tat it." He states as he rises up from his chair completely dismissing me rudely.
"Alright." I mumble unsteadily stumbling up from his hard ass couch a tad ungracefully.
Making my way to his front door a bout of dizziness hits me suddenly. I steady myself before I open the door and walk out of it, slamming it roughly behind me.
Leaning on Barriks front door the bright sunlight beaming down on my face instantly makes me squint my damn eyes.
Man I feel like utter shit! Whatever I drank last night must of been really fucking hard core.
I don't think I've ever had this type of hangover before. Out of the damn blue I start to feel nasty ass tasting bile rise up in my throat.
Quickly racing to the edge of the porch I unload my diner from last night all over the ground.
Fuck! I don't remember eating that shit last night! Once I'm finished throwing up all over the ground, I dry heave a few times before I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand, spitting out the nasty tasting aftermath unto the ground on top of my gross pile of vomit.
Bracing myself on the porch railing, I try to calm my fucking racing heart when I catch a glimpse at Barrik peeking his head out around his tattered curtains.
Once he spies me on his porch he swiftly closes the curtains but not before I was able to catch his surprised expression.
I feel like there's something that I'm definitely missing but I can't quite put my damn finger on it. He's acting way too strange for this to be just a casual drinking visit from me.
Regardless of my conflicting thoughts on the matter I remembered suddenly that we are suppose to leave out for the Invivus Realm today.
Fuck!
Hurriedly I run to the edge of the forest, once I'm there I strip out of my clothing shifting into my wolf immediately. I grab my clothing in my jaws then head off zigzagging into the forest making my way as fast as I can back home.
I don't know exactly what happened at Barriks cabin last night but I do intend to find out.
One way or the fucking other.
Arriving back home, after I redressed myself, I edge my way into the house. Trying to be as quiet as I can.
But unfortunately I get busted as soon as I entered the living area.
Every fucking body was all ready there apparently waiting on my slow ass to appear.
Along with my brothers and Thorn there is also all three of our Betas and one of our she wolf cooks Betty Pollard for some fucking unknown reason.
Unless it's to see Slay off that is. She had always had a crush on Slay every since he became an Alpha, Betty has been drooling all over him ever since then.
A flash of a derisive evil plan suddenly crashes through my mind, I try to fight it off, knowing that the plan will hurt my brother if I even speak a word of it.
But something inside of me just pushes me onward, it feels like an itch on my skin that I just can't seem to be able scratch. It's damn unnerving.
As I walk further into the room everyone looks my way, all of their attention goes directly to me, when I finally make it over to them I stand right in between Slay and Betty eyeing them both with a devious grin playing on my face.
My inner subconscious is screaming out at me loudly not to fucking do this. Struggling with my inner demons I open my fucking mouth before I could even think about it and spew out all of my unplanned hatred.
"Well Betty did you and Slay have fun last night?" I ask her almost coyly.
She looks up at me completely flustered by my abrupt question.
"What are talking about Sin? I didn't see Betty last night!" Slay obviously protests.
I ignore him still struggling to hold my tongue but for some unexplainable reason I just can't.
"Of course not because the entire time you had your eyes closed while you were fucking her brains out!" I announce nonchalantly. Hearing virtually loud gasp from everyone in the room, I start laughing out ridiculously.
Why did I even fucking say that shit?
Before I know what was happening I feel Slay punch me fucking hard directly on my nose.
My body hits the floor instantly. Pain is now designated right at the center of my fucking face.
Slay suddenly jumps on me, straddling me as he lays into me with punch after heated punch right into my damn face. My head hits against the floor painfully nearly knocking my ass completely unconscious.
Then a rush of air hits me as I watch through scrunched up eyes as Sunny and Trace pull a fighting Slay off of me.
Grunting out in immense pain I drop my head to the floor again groaning out miserably, closing my ever growing swollen aching eyes. Fuck! That dude can pack a damn punch!
"Why the fuck would you even say something like that Sin?" I hear Slay yelling.
How the hell should I know?
Something in me wanted me to do it for some fucked reason that I not even I can explain.
"I need...help....Slay. Something...is going...on with me." I stammer out between grunts trying to raise myself up off of the floor unsuccessfully.
Falling back down on the floor I just lay there moaning awkwardly.
"You damn sure need help! What the fuck is wrong with you?" I hear Sunny ask me astonishingly.
"No...some...one did...something...to me." I plead harshly breathing. I realized suddenly that someone is actually fucking with me. It's the only way that I can explain it. I'm just not my fucking self any more.
Ending up at Barriks cabin on drinking binge is something that I never have done before. Hell, I don't even know Barrik well enough to even fucking drink with him.
Climbing up from the floor with Traces help, I finally get to my feet, leaning on Traces body for support.
Squinting through my eyes I try to focus them on my brothers who are both understandably glaring daggers over at me. I noticed that Betty is no longer in the living area with us. I must of ran her off.
"Someone," I clear my damn dry throat, "someone has done something to me." I finally admit through gritted teeth.
They still look at me with hate filled glares.
Fuck! How do I exactly explain this to all of them when I don't even know what the hell is actually happening to me?
I eye Thorn and the others that are standing behind my brothers peering over at me like I'm fucking crazy. Hell I just may be.
Taking a huge breath I start to explain to them as best that I can what happened to me this morning at Barriks cabin or at least what I think happened to me.
During my telling they all listen in intently to my description of my precarious morning.
I finish wrapping up my story, almost out of breath and wheezing I accidentally stumble. Almost nearly falling over even with Traces tight grasp on me. Trace luckily catches me before I do. Good man! I think to myself.
He then walks me over to the couch, sitting me down upon it while I try to regain my limitless breaths. My body definitely needs some time to heal from this morning's activities with Barrik to Slay kicking my ass I'm feeling tremendously soar and very haggard.
"So Barrik did something to you?" Thorn ask me unbelievably. I can hear the doubts cascading out of her sweet voice but hell I can't blame her. It is quite unbelievable even to my ass.
"I don't know....if he did but I do know....someone did. I didn't want to say that shit about you and Betty, Slay....knowing it was a....damn lie but for some reason....I said it anyway. It's like something....or some unknown force was driving me to do it. I can't explain....it any better than that but....you have to believe me Slay. Every time I open my....damn mouth it's like it has a....damn mind of its own." Please fucking believe me. I plead inside of my head. I need someone to believe me. Anybody?
"I'm going to talk to Barrik." Slay informs us.
"So am I." Sunny exclaims.
"Not without me." Thorn inserts determinedly.
I feel a sudden emotion inside of me swell up as I listen to them all.
"I'll hold down the fort until you get back Alpha." Flex tells Slay. With Pan and Trace both nodding their heads in agreement.
I think the feeling inside of me is what one would definitely define as relief. Complete and utter fucking relief and maybe just a touch of pride in the people that love me.
Thank fuck!
They actually believe me!
"I'm coming too." I tell them slowly sliding off of the couch grunting.
"You need to stay here and recuperate. It won't take us long, just relax." Slay demands. I huff but crash back down on the couch after he demands me.
Damn that Alpha commanding tone.
I nod my head numbly as I watch all three of them walk out of the front door with determination in each of their steps.
Thank fuck they believe me!
"Malice?" I call out his name a few minutes after my brothers and Thorn left. Apparently not receiving any answers.
"Malice?" I question again calling out his name much louder this time in my head.
Not being able to reach my wolf I start to panic. He was with me just a short while ago. Where the hell could he actually disappear too? Why isn't he answering my calls.
"Malice!" I try again but all I hear in my head is pure daunting silence.
What the fuck is going on?
"Are you alright Alpha?" Trace ask me breaking me away from my panicked thoughts.
"Malice isn't answering me." I mumble almost incoherently.
"That's...strange." Trace replies with uncertainty. Well no shit! No wonder I'm not healing as fast as I should.
Maybe he's just asleep?
"Just try to rest maybe he will talk to again once you're awake." Trace suggested. Nodding my aching head I lay down flat on the couch, nuzzling my head on the plump couch arm.
It doesn't take but mere seconds before I slip into oblivion.
I awaken crankily to horrid muffling noises and mild scuffling echoing out in the living area disrupting my momentary peaceful bliss.
Disgruntled, I rise up from my sleeping position on the couch only to notice that my brothers and Thorn have a very pissed off Barrik within their grasp with a cloth wrapped around his mouth to muffle his screams apparently.
Shuffling off of the couch I gingerly make my over to them. Slay and Sunny have Barrik bound by a pair handcuffs with each one holding a firm grasp on each one of his flailing arms.
Barrik is struggling to fight each of them off of him but it's of no use.
Thorn is standing behind the three of them smiling but there's a slight show of contempt floating in those beautiful blue eyes of hers.
"He told us everything. Well, as much as the asshole says he knows anyway." Slay informs me still maintaining his firm hold on Barrik.
"What did you find out?" I ask with a noticeable crack in my voice, my throat is still dry as fucking hell unfortunately.
"Well as far as we can decipher it looks like that you have unknowingly been put under a damn witches spell. One that is called 'blinding spite'. His so called mate has been blindsiding you with it almost every single night since Thorn has basically came into the picture. Apparently, it's to block out your own heartfelt feelings toward the people you love and like, but mostly love. That's why you have been acting like a fucking mad man here lately." I listen intently to every word that Slay tells me.
So I have been basically spellbound? That's why I have been acting so irrationally? That's why there was always the nagging feeling in the back of my mind whenever I did something that I just knew wasn't exactly right?
And this has been going since we meet Thorn? It doesn't make any damn sense.
I remember my stern convictions about not wanting to have a mate. I have had that certain view for years now. Not just when I meet Thorn.
Maybe that's where the spite part comes in?
I made my decision, about not wanting a fucking mate, when I was just sixteen years old.
The exact same day that Pan laid that memorable kiss on me is the day that will forever be cemented in my mind. The day that I vowed to myself that a mate just wasn't in the cards for me.
The day that I knew that I was not only attracted to females but to males also.
How can a damn mate of mine understand that? When even I don't understand it fully. How can I expect my mate to even comprehend it when I fully don't?
I couldn't do that to my mate so I decided that pushing away or even rejecting my mate would be the better option for everybody in the long run. I didn't want to subject my mate to that.
I didn't realize that I've been pacing the damn floor, I was to damn caught up in my own dysfunctional thoughts to even notice.
"What does that mean exactly? What exactly we're they trying to accomplish?" I question Slay once I stopped my frantic pacing.
"To dissuade you from being with Thorn of course and more than likely trying their best to cause a rift between us all." Sunny inserts scowling down at Barrik.
"If you don't mind would you take him to the dungeon Flex?" Slay ask.
"Of course Alpha." Flex comes over grabbing ahold of a still struggling Barrik. Trace advances to them both to help Flex with them each taking an arm of Barriks they roughly trudge off down into the forsaken dungeon cells.
Good fucking riddance!
"I'll call Queen Miracle before we leave for the Invivus Realm to inform her of the new circumstances with Barrik but we're wasting time here. If Barrik and his mate has gone as far as to this something like this, then Thorns father won't be far behind. Pan, you Flex, and Trace need to look after our pack while we are gone. If anything untoward happens while we are gone don't hesitate to call either of us and if you can't reach us I have left Queen Miracles number on my desk just in case." Slay insist. "Oh and if there are any emergencies take the entire pack to Alpha Gordon's pack. I'll call him and inform him of everything that has happened lately." Slay adds
"Yes Alpha." Pan willingly states, giving Slay, Sunny and I a respectful nod before he heads off.
"Is everyone ready?" Sunny pipes in sparing each of us a glance but I can't help but to notice that he looks on at Thorn with a touch of sadness etched in his eyes.
Another damn issue we will all have to sort out apparently. Just great.
"I need to grab my suitcase. I'll be back in a flash." I reply running off to my bedroom to get my damn suitcase.
I honestly would rather be eating fucking gravel than going to this damn Realm with them.
I stop in my tracks right before I reached my bedroom door, why do these damn awful thoughts keep traveling through my subconscious?
Is it the damn spell? I never use to be so cruel or so damn aggressive. Yea, I vowed I would never want a damn mate but I actually never thought that I would be so damn viscously angry about it either.
What has that damn witch done to me?
Picking my steps back up, I open my bedroom door grabbing my black lined suitcase off of my bed with a resounding scoff. Then I remembered Malice.
"Malice?" I call him out once again. Still no damn answer. Where are you?
"MALICE!" I yell! But all I get in return is pure silence.
What the hell is going on? Where can his stubborn ass be? Is this because of the damn spell?
Shaking my head at the million question roaming around in my mind but finding no damn answers I just resign myself and head off back down to the others I keep wondering how long this spell will actually last? When it wears off will I be able to see things differently or will my views stay the same? Will Malice return to me?
And exactly why me?
Why did her damn father chose me out of all three of us brothers? Was I the perfect victim for his damn scheme? How the hell did he know me so well anyway?
I halt in my tracks again with a new realization suddenly dawning on me that has me seeing red.
Fucking Storm!
She must of been the catalyst to all of this? That damn deceiving trifling....no! I won't stoop down to her fucking level. Now I truly hope that Miracle is giving Storm exactly what she fucking deserves.
Preferably Death!
My love will not be trusted.
Nor do I trust my love.
I will see no light.
Only darkness is permitted.
Trickery will abode.
With my true loves hold.