SWNOVELS Chapter 34
*Ryder's POV
"What you forgive me?" I asked her again not believing what she just said.
She holds my face in both her hands. I close my eyes and lean into her hands relishing in the feeling that her touch gave me.
"Yes. I. Forgive. You." She said with kisses on my eyelids after each word.
I didn't open my eyes instead I closed them more tightly to hold my tears back. I was happy, overjoyed and relieved that she forgave me. So relieved that made me want to cry. She sensing my need to cry hugs me and I keep my head on her chest to which she didn't have any complains and she pulled both of us back so that she was sitting with her back to the headboard and held me tightly with her face on my hair.
"I love you. So much. That it hurts to not forgive you. What you did was stupid but I can't hold your past against you instead I can help you to overcome the guilt you have for what you have done." She said without breaking the way we were sitting.
"I am sorry." I said and felt tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Hey hey shhhh." She said by rubbing my arms. God I am such a cry baby but I just couldn't hold back my tears.
I haven't even cried for my parents' funeral which I never attended nor did I visit their graves. I think all that cold mask I have put up for 3 years is finally broken and that is taking a toll on me that all the sadness, anger for what I did is mixed together and coming out as tears.
She held me like that for a few minutes and when my back started to hurt and I started to shift she pulled us both down to lay on the bed with my face on her chest and I don't know when we fell asleep but I was pretty exhausted after 'the talk' that I woke up at morning. I think she too must have been exhausted that when I woke up the roles were changed and she was on my chest while I had both my arms wrapped around her. I must admit that the talk was mentally exhausting.
And since it was a Saturday, it meant we can lay down little more as we didn't have to go to office. I laid down without moving so that I wont wake her up. By now the fever I had was gone. I am only scared if she got my fever but was relieved when I touched her forehead to check the temperature and it was warm not hot.
After checking her temperature, I kept my arm back to its place that is around her waist, and looked at her sleeping peacefully. She was so beautiful. I am such one lucky man. I thank my stars for meeting her. The first time I met her was at playground when she was 3 and I was 5. She was on ground crying and a boy was standing there laughing at her. From looking at the scene I understood that he pushed her off the slide and was mocking her. I had this sudden urge to protect her and defend her so I went and pushed the boy back with such a force that he fell on the ground and went to her to pick her up from the floor. While I was dusting off her dress the bully pushed me down and I felt very angry because the boy dared to pick a fight with me. I got off the ground to push him down and me on top of him and before I could punch him, I was pulled off by a pair of big arms. I turned my head to see that it was Mr. Marshal and he said the boy was not worth my anger which made me cool down. And I went to the crying Kat while Mr. Marshal went to the boy and advised him.
I tried to stop her crying because it made me want to cry which was odd as I was one such bad naughty boy. And suddenly I noticed her looking at a particular direction and when I looked at that direction, I found a girl with a cupcake in her hands which made me smile because I found her weakness and said I will get the cupcake for her but she ran off before I could say anything else. Long gone was the crying Kat the next thing I saw was Kat fighting with the girl, the latter holding her cupcake behind her back. I too ran off in that direction to take Kat from there and get her a cupcake from my house before she could do something to that poor girl. My Kat was such a strong girl even at such an age.
I was smiling to that memory that I didn't notice Kat woke up.
"What made you smile so big in the morning. Dream?" She asked to which I nodded.
"A beautiful dream that did happen." I said to which she furrowed her eyebrows. I explained further saying, "I was remembering the time when we met for the first time.
She too smiled at that. "mm. Bully, me crying, you came as my knight in the shining armour, me fighting with that poor girl for cupcake." She chuckled at the memory. "Good morning." She said pecking my lips.
"That was hardly a morning kiss. This is a morning kiss." I closed our distance with my lips on hers.
*Warning: there is a small kissing scene
Her lips, like I had remembered it to be, was soft which made me want to kiss her all the time. The moment I had my lips on hers I had a beautiful sensation making me turned on. I swiped her bottom lips with my tongue in silent question to open her mouth to which she gladly opened.
Soon we were kissing passionately compensating for all the time we have lost together. To my unfortunate that made me harden more which was painful as I wanted nothing but to be inside her at that moment but I knew I got to stop this before I take this to next level, which I am pretty sure she might not be ready for it as it was just few hours before we found our way back to each other after everything we have been through. Or the things I have made us both go through in our relationship but pushing her away.
*End of kissing scene
"Now that is what I call a morning kiss." I said after we pulled apart to breathe.
She chuckled and tightened her hold on me with her face on my chest. "That is the way you want your morning kiss to be." She corrected to which I nodded my head and held her even tightly with my nose in her hair inhaling her addicting scent.