Chapter 92"I am Enough."
Avery P.O.V.
The Next Day
I wake up with a pounding headache. Oh, God, I can feel my head split in two with so much thumping and pounding. Also, why do I feel like a dump truck hit me repeatedly?
My legs are sore, and something else is sore and aching. So, I avoid thinking about how Jake pounded into me with hard thrust and hearing him breathing on me.
I licked my lips, thinking about him inside again. But they were right; I needed a breather and a couple of days to heal up, and then they told me they would fuck me hard or with soft, smooth emotions with our bodies.
I was in my thoughts that I didn't know. I felt a body behind me and the other side. I didn't wake up yet or open my eyes either. Because my head is hurting, my eyes are closed now; they won't open. I keep blinking and pull my eyes open, but nothing.
Hey! What gives? I asked my mind waiting for Angelstar to speak to me. Maybe she will figure out why I can't open my eyes.
I waited for her to speak but nothing.
Okay, I thought she and Angelica were with the wolves right now.
When I thought of that, I heard her say to leave her and Angelica alone because they were too busy making love to Ax, Axel, Dark, and Fire. I find that out with Angelstar and Angelica moaning their names the other night in my head.
I wanted to join them, but I was also sore and tired. I know the girls can take care of them be their selves.
I was not thinking about the girls and forgot I was still in bed. That was when I heard groans, and I didn't want to move around too much and wake them up. So, I slowly very slowly started sliding off the bed. Just an each by each. I am almost off the bed.
Once I set my feet on the floor and started standing up. I started walking towards the bathroom. Before I got out of the door, I heard a voice behind me. I didn't know they were up and standing right beside me.
I gasp and stop in my tracks. I didn't have to turn around because I knew they were all there staring at me naked what's the point of dressing anymore, and why bother?
They just stripped me naked and threw me on the bed again, I thought with an eye roll.
'Where you think you are going, sweetheart?" I heard one of them say in a curious voice.
I didn't want them to know I was trying to leave and run back to my house. I need to think and see what I want. I am confused about my feelings.
So, then I heard footsteps approach behind me. Now I can feel someone's breathing on the back of my neck. I felt someone let out of their mouth. I felt his breath and the air when he blew out.
Then I thought it was on my sensitive neck, and someone wrapped their arms around my waist.
Why now? Why are they trying to stop me from leaving?
Well, dummy, what do you expect, duh!
I heard my inner voice say not the girls that are my wolf/witch/veela.
I wanted to scream and kick whoever had me in their arms.
I whined, come on! I want to go home. No, I need to go home.
Damn, it! You are an asshole.!
I am getting frustrated and pissed off at them.
"I want to go home!" I replied in a small voice.
"Oh, come on." You don't want to go home, not yet." I heard Elijah whisper in my ear. He was the one who wrapped his arms around my waist.
"I know, but I've been here for three days, and I think my parents are going to freak out if I am not home soon," I told them with a grumble and irritation.
Because I am trying not to be rude, but I need them to take the hint. I am tired, and I want to leave. I miss my parents and my friends.
But I can't stay here forever. I know I am their mate, but I am still living with my parents and attending school.
Besides, I am not ready for our relationship is not there. Not yet. I have never been in a relationship; I have never been with a boy. I just had my first kiss this year when I lost my virginity.
Oh, God, just thinking about them pranking me and telling them telling me they never had feelings for a loser like me.
I didn't want to go to school, and one day they started changing back when they were bullied and tormented and made me feel I was not enough. I can't handle that again.
What if they already won the bet? What if they record me? I had a thought. I can feel my stomach moving around in there. It feels like butterflies in there flopping around.
No, Avery, don't think that! You're enough. You are not anything. You are enough. I kept telling myself in my mind.
I didn't want to return there a year ago when they were so mean and cruel. I thought I was going to die that day. I remember it.
No, No! I wanted to hit my head to get whatever that day out of my head.
I licked my lips, and I felt Elijah, Andrew, Matthew, and Jake quiet, and then I felt someone's hand turn me around slowly to face them.
What I saw shocked me. I look up with tears streaming down my cheeks. I was crying when I was in my thoughts. I didn't realize I was crying.
"Shh, sweetheart, I felt Jake grab my chin and lift it.
I didn't know what happened, but I started crying in his arms and felt the others surround me in a big circle, and I cried and cried in my mate's arms.
I don't want to think about what I did last year after they threw me on the floor. I remember I wanted to die when I saw in their eyes.
Hatred.
Anger.
Mad.
Empty.
Avery, you nothing to us." I heard Andrew say, and I saw the other three smirking's and walking away last year.
I went home and started cutting a line on my arm.
Ugly.
Whore.
Slut.
Loser.
Nothing.
I'm cute for every name.
I wanted not to go back there.
"Avery! Come back to us." I heard them say.
I just let my body fall and let go, and I cried and cried, cried in their arms right in the middle of the bedroom door. So, that's where anyone could walk in and see it. I didn't care. I didn't want them to see me like this.
A wreck.
Weak.
Nothing.
Like I'm an empty shell.
"I am enough." I kept repeating in a whisper.
"I am enough."