Chapter 72 "Guilty"
Elijah P.O.V.
I had Avery between my legs and her ass on the desk, and I was grabbing onto her waist and pushing her body between my thighs, and I could feel her hot center on my cock, and she kept rubbing her pussy on my crotch, and I could feel how wet she was.
Damn, she felt so good in my arms. But having Avery in my arms felt fucking fantastic, if you must know, and having her lips on mine and I was kissing her like feeling how soft her lips were and her body so slighter and tiny in my arms.
I was kissing her lips like my life was dependent on it. I didn't want to let her go, but I knew we had to come up with air sometime, and we couldn't be kissing the whole time, or she will pass out, and I didn't want that to happen, so I let her go and took my lips off hers.
"Oh, wow, what was that for?" she asked me in her confused and breathless voice. After standing in front of her with my arms still wrapped around her waist, staring into her eyes, I could see the want and the fire she had for Jake and me. I needed her, and I needed her fucking now. Damn, I needed to stop before I threw her down on the desk and stripped her naked and fuck her good. But I knew I must be gentle with her because she was the most important person in my life, and I didn't want to lose her. I could never live with myself if I had lost her. I still didn't know what I was thinking about making that stupid bet about me getting the beautiful Avery Williams. I should have listened to my heart and not my head. Who am I kidding? I should have told them dumbasses to fuck off and told them she is my mate and no one else is allowed to talk about her except for me! But no, I didn't want the guys to know about her and that she was my mate. I am such a nimrod sometimes. Jake is right, and I should never listen to fucking dumbasses. Now there is a chance I could lose her of my stupidities.
"Look, sweetheart, I need to know something, and please let me finish before she starts talking, okay?" So, I told her when I stared into her eyes and licked my lips because I was nervous. I wanted to know if I could tell the truth. I hoped I could.
She was staring at me with curious eyes and worried eyes simultaneously. Then she nodded her head at me to keep going. I started rubbing up and down her back and trying to keep her calm and relaxed because right now, she was in heat, and I could feel her pain. Because I can feel what she feels, and right now, I am feeling fire inside my chest and stomach. I didn't want her to be in any pain anymore.
So, I did something to help her stop hurting is that Jake and I started being close to her and touching her back and rubbing her Jake was rubbing her shoulders, and we tried to keep her relaxed, and I started staring into her beautiful face. But when I saw something that broke my heart, I saw tears running down Avery's face.
"Hey, sweetheart, please don't cry," I told her, pulling her chin up with my fingers and having her stare into my eyes.
"I am sorry." I heard her say in her broken voice. I wanted to punch myself in the head for being so stupid thinking about hurting this beautiful angel.
"Hey, now don't say that." I heard Jake say behind her. I saw his finger going through her hair, and she calmed down. I saw her eyes, and they were red and swollen, and she started to rub her eyes, so she won't have blurry visions.
I looked over and saw Avery give Jake a shy smile; she had no tears running down her face anymore but a relaxed expression.
"That's it, baby; keep breathing in and out." Jake had his finger going through her head and rubbing her face. He was trying to keep her calm and not run over the place. I saw her close her eyes and her chest moving up and down. Then, I heard her wimp and sniffle, trying not to cry anymore.
"Shh, it's okay, princess, we got you. We won't let anyone hurt our mate." I told her with so much want and love in my voice. I kept rubbing her back in circles and going up and down on her soft back.
"Thank you both." I heard her say with her eyes wide open, staring into mine, and I saw sadness and hurt in her eyes.
I heard her sigh, and she was trying to bend her head down, but I would not let you because she needed to know I would not let her feel bad about herself. After all, there was nothing wrong with her. She is perfect just the way she is.
When I heard her sigh and left up to her head, I saw her love and support for Jake and me.
"Why are you helping me?" I heard her ask in a confused voice, and she gave me a weird expression.
"Why did you ask, sweetheart?" I told her. Guilty was the thought I had in my head. But, if I told her the real reason why we are helping her, she would know what is going on, and I am not ready, to tell the truth yet. So, when I am prepared to tell her the truth, I hope she still loves me and accepts me once my secret is out about the bet and everything, I lied about to her.
I kept hearing in my mind over and over again her voice asking me why I was helping her?