The Unwanted Luna

Over the months I got used to Xavier's hate and cruel words but I never thought he would be so angry he would want to kill me.

I saw the intent in his eyes and it fucking scared me. I push those thoughts away.

I had things to do, but before I could go on with my plan I had to make sure that both Tristan and Bianca were okay. So I went to my room.

I cleaned the blood from my thighs, changed my bloodied clothes and went in search of my son.

As I passed the rooms, I noticed the damage that the creatures had caused. So many wounded and some dead.

You could hear the cries and howls of those that had lost their loved ones and even though I hated this pack, it was still saddening having to witness it.

On my way to the panic rooms that were under the pack house, where children, pregnant she-wolves, the elderly and those who couldn't fight were taken during an attack or ambush, I saw the apologetic stares of the people I passed, especially the former luna.

I knew it was because they had seen the creatures, the same one they had said I had made up to cover my involvement in killing my parents, and now the truth was in the open and they realized I never lied, it took them getting attacked by them to realize that, but it didn't matter I had things to do, plans to put in motion and so I ignored them just like they had always ignored me.Many paragraphs are missing. Read the complete book on J o=b n-1 b. c (o) m. Once I was in the panic rooms, I located my son with ease. He was with one of the doctors and they were both surrounded by guards and I understood why, he was the alpha's child after all. Without wasting any time I took him from the doctor's hands and hugged him close to me, inhaling his sweet scent, which calmed me.

Luckily the guards didn't prevent me from leaving with him and so I took him to my room, where I breast fed him and then we went to sleep. Both of us were exhausted.

Sophie and Jayden came back the next day after word got out about what had happened and I was happy for that, since I didn't want to leave without telling her goodbye.

I mostly stayed in my room bonding with Tristan as much as I could because even though he wouldn't remember me when he gets older, I still wanted him to feel that connection.

I also pumped as much milk as I could, storing them in the mini fridge that was in my room. I know it wouldn't sustain him for long but it would tide him over until he was comfortable drinking formula.

I was also waiting for Bianca to wake up, I had to make sure that she was alright. Xavier hadn't left her side since that night and even though it hurt, I was still happy that she had a person who had such devotion towards her.

Of course I hadn't been able to see her, because one, Xavier banned me from their room where she was and two I knew she wouldn't even want me there in any case.

I had just finished bathing Tristan when Sophie walked into my room carrying food. She didn't know what I was planning and I didn't want to tell her because she would only try to stop me.

"Your food is here my lady" she said in an awful attempt at trying to mimic a British accent, making me laugh a little.

"Thanks Soph, I really appreciate it" I tell her truthfully. I was really going to miss her.

I was grateful that we got the chance to patch things up. I finish toweling Tristan clothe him and after feeding he falls asleep quickly.

Tristan really is an easy baby, he doesn't cry a lot at night, nor fuss too much, making me think that maybe all I heard about having a newborn and it being hectic was exaggerated. I loved him so much that it hurt.

Every time he gave me a toothless smile or made a cute sound or even did something small made my heart melt. Like I said I may be biased but he was simply the best and I was proud to be his mother.

"Soooo...most of the elders and the former Alpha are beating themselves up" Sophie interrupts my thoughts.

"Why?" I ask while coming to sit near her on my bed, placing Tristan next to us.

"Because, they never believed you and now more than ten pack members are dead and around a hundred wounded" she says while taking a sip of water.

"I didn't know that there were so many wounded members"

"How could you? You stay in this room all day Lia" her look is disapproving but I don't care.

"And where would I go? Plus I prefer the comfort of my room" which is the absolute truth.

"You know, now that the pack knows you didn't lie, maybe you can try integrating with them...I hear there are talks of compensating you for what you were put through and also giving you back the rank that was stripped from you."

I almost tell her that there is no need but I clump my mouth shut. It was already too late and my former ranking can't reverse the damage done by the bond.

"I will think about it Sophie, I am not promising you anything though" It is the only thing I can say to her.

"That's all I want" she says with a smile, then looks at her watch. "Well I have to go, there are still things I need to do, and we'll talk when I bring you dinner".

I give her a nod and she leaves, taking the dishes with her.

Hours later, Tristan had just fallen asleep again and I had come from disposing Tristan's dirty diapers when I came across two omegas talking.

I would have left because it was none of my business but that was before I heard them mention Bianca's name. Bianca had recovered and was expected to wake up by morning the next day.

I knew that this was the time to take action, I was waiting for news on her and now that I knew she would be okay it was time for the execution of my plan.

I went to my room and took Tristan, he was still sound asleep and I just looked at him memorizing his face. Tears were falling down my face but I needed to do this, it was also for his own good so I wiped them and went to Sophie's room.

I knocked and it didn't take long for it to be opened but a shirtless Jayden was the one who opened it.

"Amelia? Is everything alright? How can I help you?" This was a very different Jayden from the one I had encountered but I didn't have time to dwell on his sudden change of behavior.

"Hello Jayden, is Soph around? I need to talk to her." I tell him.

He looks at me for some time then tells me that she was in the bathroom and goes to get her.

He asks me to enter and wait for her but I refuse since I can smell the scent of sex coming from their room and that is not something I want to be engulfed in.

Within a few minutes, Sophie is at the door, dressed but her hair still wet.

"Hey, didn't expect you, I was just getting ready to come to you" she does look surprised that's for sure, since I have never sought her out since we reconciled.

"I know, I have been called to the clinic for some test and I don't want to take Tristan with me, would you mind taking care of him for maybe an hour or so?" I try my best not to give anything up.

"No, of course not...you know I will always baby sit if you need me to...in any case who can say no to this handsome boy?" she says as she carefully takes him from my hand.

"What are the tests for?" she then asks me.

"To check how bad the damage is as a result of the mate bond and if they can somehow reverse it" I easily lie to her, I feel bad for doing it but it must be done.

"OH, okay then...don't worry you'll be okay and we will all help you to figure it out"

"Yeah, in case I haven't told you yet, you are Tristan's godmother, and thank you for everything you have done for me. I love you Soph and make sure that Tristan will always know that I love him more than anything in the world" I try fighting the tears that threaten to fall "Why are you talking as if you aren't coming back, what's going on?" I know if I don't pull myself together then she will be suspicious so I take a deep breath then calm myself down.

"Nothing is going on, I am just a little bit emotional" I tell her trying to act as best as I can. Then I give both of them a hug and kiss Tristan on the forehead making him fuss a little.

I tell Sophie I will be back in an hour then turn around and leave while tears flow down my face.

I pass by Xavier's room and it's slightly open. Bianca is still asleep and I can see him holding her hand while stroking her face gently and lovingly.

I don't have to be told he truly loves her, I can clearly see it, and it's clear as day. I say goodbye to them in my heart and leave.

Given the attack that happened the pack guards are on full alert and the pack is in lockdown. I manage to sneak past them and soon I am at the cliff.

I cried the entire way here, fighting myself and wanting to turn around and go back to my son but I knew I couldn't.

I had to do this, it was the only way.

I go to take a step towards the cliff but I hesitate, I can see the jagged rocks and stream below, which only intensifies my fear.

I can hear the malicious voices urging me to do it, to end it, I think of Xavier and every cruel word and action he has done towards me, I think of all the mistreatment I went through in this pack and finally I think of Ace, Sophie and my parents.

I think of Tristan and all the love I have for him. I see their smiling faces and feel their love for me and I jump.

The first hit is excruciating but the ones that follow next are way worse. I can feel every tear and slice of my skin, every broken bone.

It is agonizing and feels like it lasted far more than the actual time and I couldn't help but think that I chose a very painful way to die, I eventually reach the end of my roller coaster ride and finally after such a long ride, I find peace, my son's face still clear in my mind.