The Reborn

Am I forgetting something?

For the past hour I had this feeling like I’m forgetting something, but I shrugged it of by shoving more cips in my mouth. I don’t care what I forgot because I’m not leaving this room. Right now, I’m safe secured in my blanket, munching cips and watchin a documentary about penguins on Discovery. I’m so happy that I can finally eat some junk food. Last time when I ate junks was 2 weeks ago, before I came here. Apparently, this place isn’t serving any kind of junk food because ‘Some of us are growing men and women, and they have to eat healthy, not genetically modified food or unhealthy things’. To put it short no chocolate, cips, waffles, JELLIES, NUTELLA, Lion, Snickers or any kind of sweets. Nothing. Nada. And it sucks. They only give us a single junky thing at the end of the month and even then they fucking write you on a list to know that you took your junky. But of course that I fooled the system. Well, stole the system. I may or may not sneak into the stocking room and ‘borrow without the intention of giving back’ some junkies. Now I have cips, lots of packs of jellies, a jar of Nutella and some calories bars, safely hide under my bed.

I must say that their security system completely sucks. I sneak past 5 guards and picked 2 locks, but that’s all. I was expecting a high security with the last security system, but I’ve got 5 guards and 2 locks. Or maybe they concentrated all those super smart system for more important and vital parts of the building. That would make more sense.

Suddenly, I’m curious what security systems they have. Maybe I can beat them? Hmm. Maybe I really can now that I discovered a new thing that I can do. I can become somehow invisible, but only if I stay in a dark place or where the light isn’t directly hitting me. It’s a pretty funny story about how I discovered it.

Everything started in the same they I found out that I’m half dark. I still can’t believe it. At first I thought that Doc was doing a very bad joke, but I was wrong. The voice inside my head was, well it still is, the Dark side of me and it’s trying to take over my elementar side. It’s like inside my head a little war is held. Doc said that I have to get inside my mind again, like I did when I found my element, and make the voice stop. This means that I need to make peace with it, but I don’t have any idea about how I can do that. I can’t kill that voice or side or whatever it is, because it’s a part of me and if one side of me dies, I die too. I may have a shitty life, but I still want to keep it. When I heard Doc saying that I’m not ready to go up there and kick some asses because ‘I’m still emotional instable and if I go there with so many dark emotions, I’ll die’, I wanted to shoot myself. But how I said, I cherish my life so I’m still here.

Do you remember back then in the good old days when I said that I hate needles and sharp objects? God must hate me since I have to go 2 times a day in the lab so Doc could pinch me with his infernal and evil needles. He said that in that vial is a mixture that numbs the Dark side in me. For 2 weeks I received 2 holes in my arms 2 times a day and he sticks his needle in the same fucking place every damn time. I’m wondering how the fuck I’m still healing.

To say that I was pissed when I hear everything would be an underestimate. After I left the lab with my head still hurting, I tried to sleep my problems away but I’m not that lucky. I thought that some fresh air would help me, so the ninja plan was on. Here, the lights are out at 10 and no one is allowed outside his room after 10. If they catch you there will be consequences.

Ha. Like a simply hour would stop me from doing whatever the fuck I want. The room I’m staying is located at the opposite side of the main entrance, at floor 4. It’s dark on the halls, the only light I see is the one from the guards lantern. Thank God that I’m an Elementar and I can see pretty well in the dark. Only one guy was guarding my floor and I run when he had his back turned at me. The only problem was that the whole floor was separated from the stairs by a stupid door which was locked. For the first time in my life I was happy that I hide some boby pins in my hair. Nobody was on the stairs and my only problem was how I sneak past 5 guards which were only on this hall and I have to take 2 corners and just then I’m in the main hall. I prayed to God that my plan will work and I flied over their heads. This worked until I arrived in the main hall where the ceiling is lower and it was to risky. Six bulky guys and 3 bulky girls because they looked like fucking Hulk. As I was stuck inside my mind trying to come up with a plan, I hadn’t observed that one of those girl where walking in my direction. I was hide behind the corner with no where to hide because all that is on that hall are fucking doors and they were fucking locked. I pressed myself into the wall, shut my eyes and stopped breathing. I opened my eyes when I heard her passing me and my blood ran cold when I saw her looking at me. But she just scanned past me and kept walking. I kept walking pressed by the walls and I was outside in no time.

“I want to be a penguin.”

Penguins have such an easy life. They just eat, go fishing, slide on their tummies and produce little penguins. And they have a partner for their entire life. That’s fucking gold.

I jumped in surprise when someone knocked at my door. More likely punched the door but whatever.

I hide the bag of cips under the bed. “Who’s there?!”

“I’ll come in.”

Iron walked in and stopped in front of my bed glaring at me. Now, he is like my personal guard walking with me everywhere I go to ‘Keep an eye on me’ and to ‘Make sure that I don’t do a stupid thing’.

“Yes?” I asked with my innocent face on.

“Don’t yes me! What the fuck are you doing here??”

“Aaa....watching penguins sliding down hills of snow on their tummies?” I said and pointed at the TV.

“Exactly! You should be with Windy in her office!”

*mental facepalm* That’s what I forgot.

Windy is my therapist or psyhologist. Doc said that I need to keep my nerves in check and I have to go at her sessions. She isn’t that bad, but she wants to make me talk and tell her about my past and I don’t want to. Windy is the daughter of Blast and she looks like him a lot. Her hair is as ginger as his and her eyes are the same brown ones. And she is freaking 18 years old and she already has a job and her own office.

And here I am at 17 in bed wrapped in a blanket, watching penguins and hiding cips from the beauty in front of me.

“I forgot about it.... But I’m already late and the session should be over so I see no point in going now.” I shrugged and my fingers were itching to grab some cips.

He sighed and sit down on my bed. “Why you don’t want to go at your appointments? Is she treating you bad? I can talk with Blast and he can-”

I shook my head. “She’s fine. She’s only doing her job and I don’t like her job. She wants me to talk and I’m not really a people person. And she kind of bores me when she keeps talking and talking aaaand talking.”

He gave me a small smile and rubbed my leg. “I understand that you don’t like talking about what happened to you and I’m not waiting for you to just go there and spill everything, but you have to do it at some point. Sometimes you have to let it all out. Try it and you will feel better. And maybe you should start about talking about you and what you like or dislike.”

How can I talk about myself when even I don’t know myself?

“Fine. Let’s say that I’ll try, but I have another problem. I’m bored as fuck and it sucks to be stuck in this stupid room. And she bores me when she keeps talking about how she bought a new dress and how her boyfriend it’s so awesome. I get it, her life is awesome and she is mental stable but still...”

It was silent for 5 minutes until he spoke up.

“Let’s make a deal.”

“What deal?” I like deals. Especially those ones that are in my advantage.

He smirked at my eagerness. “Every time you go at your appointment, I’ll let you use the train grounds. There are the same routes you had at the exam and much more.”

I furrowed my eyebrows. I miss training a lot, I have to confess but I don’t know.

“You can run into the woods too.”

“Deal.” I said almost immediately and raise my pinky finger. “If you pinky promise me. That’s how I like to seal my deals.” It’s childish, but it means a lot to me. More than words.

He smiled a dark wrapped his pinky around mine.

His hands are as big as the stupid smile he has on. His pinky was as big as my ring finger and it was comical. He was so fucking tall while I was so little. It’s like I’m the crow and he is the tree.

“Good. Now what?”

He shrugged. “We can go and eat since it’s lunch time and I reprogrammed your appointment for 6 PM.”

I groaned and dropped my face into the pillow.

His deep chuckled came pass my ears. “Come on. Get up and let’s go. If you are a good girl, after we eat, we will go at the training field.”

I raised my head and sighed again. “Fine.”

I closed the TV and head to the door. I won’t change my clothes just because I’m eating. I’m wearing a pair of black yoga pants that look hella hot on my ass and a black and very big hoodie. I slide in my running Nike’s and I’m ready. This time I’m wearing my clothes, because they were nice enough to bring my suit cases up here.

I stopped walking in front of the stairs. I don’t know where the cafeteria is since I was locked in my room and this crazy asses always came at my room with food.

“Floor 2, on the right.” Iron said walking past me.

So the kitchen is on the same floor with the stocking room.

When we entered the cafeteria, it was already full and everybody turned around to look at us. For the first time I was happy that Iron is a giant and I can hide behind him.

Tables were spread all around the room and ahead of us was lined all the food. Of course only healthy food, so no pizza. As we were walking to the waiting line, I could feel eyes on me, digging right into my skull. I turned my head and glared at the ones that were the closest to me. They looked away immediately.

Iron order for me and him a salad with fries and grilled chicken. Thank God that we have at last fries here.

“Shadow! You see that free table over there? Run and seat down before someone beats us.”

I mocked a military salute and run with my Elementar speed. As I seat down an annoying voice starts talking.

“Excuse me, this is my seat and the staff doesn’t eat here.”

I raised one eyebrow and glared up at her. She was slightly tall and very slim. Her hair was chestnut brown hair and eyes as dark as my soul.

“Are you blind or something? On my back does NOT say STAFF. So fuck off bitch.” I sneered at her and she looked surprised.

But she recovered fast. “So you are new. Listen honey, here I’m the-”

I punched the table with my hand and she flinched. ”No honey, you listen to me. I don’t give a royal fuck about who you are or what you are here. Fuck off or thinks will go pretty wild here and not that kind of wild that you enjoy between your legs.”

“Kristen, go away and stop provoking her. She can kill you with one shoot and she will totally do it.” Iron said with a neutral tone.

She glared and then smirked at me. “Oh yeah. I forgot that everyone here has a mental problem, so I’m guessing that she must be a psychopath.”

Uh-oh. Very damn wrong move bitch.

In less then a second I was up and my right fist was shoved in her face.