Chapter 219
Blair
POV
It was a sleepless night. My anger continued to climb as I stayed in bed, firmly keeping an invisible wall between myself and Braedon. He had overstepped and he knew it, but neither one of us was willing to make the first move to apologize. I couldn't believe what he had accused me of. I cared about our pups and I would never put them willingly in harm's way, but did he not understand that I cared about him too, the father of my unborn pups and my mate? It wasn't easy to switch off the mate bond and think only of myself. Visit Job ni b .co m to read the complete chapters for free. Whenever he was in danger, it was a reflex to think about saving him too. His words had cut deeply and I simmered all night, tossing and turning while he did the same, my eyes resolutely closed so that I didn't have to look at him. My wolf was whining in my mind, upset by our mate's words and by the sadness that engulfed us both.
I was almost grateful when it finally reached morning. Braedon got out of bed and quietly got ready, while I rolled over, waiting for him to leave. Only then did I get up, sitting on the bed, feeling exhausted and drained. My anger started to fade, but the hurt remained. Braedon should have known me better by now, but what he had accused me of, said that he didn't know me at all.
Mate was merely upset and didn't mean to take it out on us. He was worried we would end up hurt and he just wanted to protect us my wolf whined in my head can't you just forgive him this time and back down? It does us no good to continue to be angry. I can't I told my wolf silently What he said to me was unforgivable and he hasn't even had the decency to apologize. We weren't wrong Dusk. He is. I saved his life and instead of thanking me, he went berserk. That's no way for our mate to behave towards us. You might be ready to forgive him I told her but I am not. Not until he apologizes and means it.
But I don't like being angry at Lucian or my mate. I miss them she said sadly.
Well, when he apologizes then we'll forgive him I griped, getting up and staggering to the bathroom, not before.
My wolf sulked in the back of my mind, putting a block up so I couldn't speak to her as I showered and then got changed. I dressed in basic sweatpants and a shirt, opening the door to the nursery and glancing around the room which was quickly taking shape. I ran a hand along the cribs, pausing to glance into them, envisioning a baby lying there, my heart skipping a beat.
"Boo" roared a voice from behind me and I jumped ten feet in the air, shaking and screeching to the sound of laughter as I turned and picked up the offending stuffed animal, while Sierra continued to giggle through the microphone.
She had well and truly got me, scaring the living daylights out of me.
"Not nice Sierra" I scolded before the secret door behind the bookcase slid open and she stepped inside, looking amused. "Scared you, didn't I?" she asked grinning and giggling.
I rolled my eyes and threw the teddy bear at her. She caught it with ease and tenderly put it down on the change table. "Careful with the merchandise" she scolded me.
I just huffed at her. She sighed and then gave me a sympathetic look. "Rough night?" she asked peering at the dark circles under my eyes.
"You can say that again" I sighed, rubbing my stomach "Braedon got mad at me for being in harm's way yesterday." Sierra's eyes began to gleam "You saved his a*s yesterday throwing that blade and he wants to thank you by getting angry," she said indignantly "Is he that concerned about the babies?" she asked frowning.
"Maybe," I said touchily "but he could have talked to me a bit better than he did" I complained.
She put a hand on my shoulder "Perhaps, but you're also hormonal due to the pregnancy" she reminded me "So maybe the two of you ought to have a discussion and bring up how you are both feeling hmmm" she urged with a smile.
"I don't like it when you're more logical than me" I scowled and sulked "I prefer it when you get angry on my behalf" I whined.
She grinned as Josie joined us "You can thank Josie for that. She's really starting to make a difference to my rough exterior and interior" she teased.
Josie just shook her head and laughed. She handed me a mug of coffee that I inhaled greedily. "Decaf," she told me, and my spirits sank.
"I need real coffee" I moaned "Not this fake stuff."
Josie shook her head "Nope. This is better for the babies" she told me firmly.
"Is it though?" Sierra asked skeptically "Have you seen Blair when she hasn't had coffee? I mean, safer for the babies yes" she allowed with a smirk "But for us, no."
Josie scoffed at her and then took me by the arm "Come on darling, I think you could use some company" she said kindly, bypassing an indignant Sierra "Let's go get some breakfast."
I perked up slightly, even as I sipped and made a face at the decaffeinated coffee, subtly leaving it on the changeable as we walked out. It tasted like cardboard and that was putting it politely.
Sarah was seated at the dining table but there was no sign of Braedon or James to be seen. I sniffed her mug appreciatively inhaling the aroma of real coffee. It was tantalizing. My mouth salivated. I practically drooled.
"She's drinking real coffee" I complained to Josie who looked at Sarah in horror.
"What, you're allowed a minimal amount each day" Sarah defended, tightening her hands around the mug in defense, in case Josie tried to take it away from her "And it's let me have this or I murder people in the morning. Which would you prefer?" she asked grumpily, with a raised brow.
Sierra snorted and grabbed me some coffee, handing it to me deliberately as I eagerly sipped and sat down, while Josie looked resigned.
"Told you," she said to Josie smugly.
Josie just sighed and shook her head. I began to drink appreciatively, immediately perking up from the caffeine hit.