Chapter 2
"Brigette! We have to go!"
I stumble around my bedroom, grabbing my shoes and throwing on a sweater, shrugging it over my exposed shoulders. The simple, yet elegant dress my mother picked out for me squeezes my waist as I bend over to secure each shoe on my bare feet. I hate it-every second in these clothes.
"Brigette!"
"I'm coming!" I call back and hurry down the hall. My hands hold the tough fabric in place as I rush down the steps.
My mother is standing at the bottom, and she turns to me with careful eyes. She scans over every inch of my being to assure I haven't stepped into the wrong shoes or grabbed the grey cardigan instead of the black one. But once she's sure I've followed her instructions, she says, "Alright, let's go. Come on, before we're late."
My mother and father walk ahead of me as we take a short stroll to the Alpha's house. My shoes are stiff and rub against the back of my poor heels, but I try to ignore the discomfort to instead focus on how miserable the conversation at this dinner will be. Whenever I talk to the Alpha or Luna they treat me like a child, like their fourteen-year-old Amabell. No one here sees you as an adult until you find your mate.
As we near the Alpha's house, I feel a strange feeling deep down in my gut. A tickle, but not like I'm going to be sick-it's something else. My parents continue to walk. They talk about the dinner. My mom rambles about seeing the Luna again. My mind starts to wander and I find it hard to focus on anything at all. I stumble over my own feet and they peer back at me.
"Are you alright?" My mom asks.
I quickly straighten up and mutter, "Yeah. Sorry. It's the shoes."
"If you wore them when I asked you to, they would be broken-in by now."
We carry on and my heart beats heavily. I cross my arms and try to shake it off, assuming I'm just nervous to be in a room of intimidating people. It will be fine, though. Amabell and I will go off somewhere and I'll listen to her drone on and on about teenage problems of the feral kind.
When the alien feelings plaguing my body worsen, I consider telling my mother. What if I'm sick? No, she'll just think I'm looking for a way out. But-but this isn't a kind of illness I've encountered before. The feelings aren't necessarily bad. I-I don't know what they are.
I look up and the Alpha's house stands in front of me, daring me to enter with its grand doors and steep roofs. My father climbs the few steps up the porch, but I grab my mother's arm. She turns back to me, and says, "What is it? We're going in, Brigette. It's just for a few hours, you can make it through."
I shake my head quicker than I would like. Seeming vulnerable-it's not something I like to do in front of her.
"Just go find Amabell. I'll come get you girls when it's time to eat."
"Mom," I say, my voice wavering, "I really don't feel well. I-I not making this up, I promise. Just please, don't make me go in there."
Her eyes fixate on me, revealing hints of worry. My Dad stops and turns back to us. She waves him on saying, "We'll be in in a minute."
"Everything alright?" He asks from the door.
"Yes, just go on in."
Dad disappears behind the door, but in the few seconds it opens, something creeps out and wraps around me. My skin pimples and a shiver climbs up my spine. Something is in there, in that house, and it's alluring tactics are rising a panic within me. My mother asks, "You're sick? What's wrong? Are you going to vomit? Speak, Brigie. Talk to me."
Then it hits me.
There's only one thing that this could possibly be.
"Mom," I say carefully, "I can't go in there. I-I have to go home."
"Would you tell me what's bothering you? Is it your head? Stomach? The shoes? What?"
I stare at her. I don't know what to say; I can't think. Maybe a different version of me would conjure up a smart lie, but whatever he's doing to me has wiped me of all scheming, devious thoughts.
"If you can't tell me, then we're going inside. Come on, before they start to wonder," she says and takes my hand.
I trip up the steps. My throat swells closed. My heart vibrates in my chest. She pushes the door open and a warm light shines out. My mother takes me in with a bright smile on her face as she sees the many people gathered in the front room. I'm sure they are chatting; snacking on hors d'oeuvres. And he's here. Somewhere in the room. Standing or sitting. Existing.
"There they are," my father's voice cuts through the noise.
I can't breathe. The air has never felt so thick. She leads me in the direction of Dad's voice. I'm too much of a coward to look up. What if I see him? What if he sees me? What if he's looking at me right now?
"You know Cristina and my daughter Brigette," my father says.
My mother nudges me. I obediently look up. Our Alpha smiles and says, "Of course. It's about time you two came for a visit. Amabell is around here somewhere, Brigette. I'm sure you'll be able to find her. She was very excited when I told her you'd be coming tonight." "Yes," I breathe, "I should go find her. Could she be upstairs? In her room?"
"Last time I saw her she was with the Luna." He turns to face the crowd, scanning for his daughter's blonde head.
I can't help myself. My eyes steal glances at every face they detect. I'll know him when I see him.
"Maybe she's in the kitchen," our Alpha ponders. He turns back to us and says, "But Dale, Cristina, I must introduce you to our guests."
The guests he must be one of them. "I-I'll go find Amabell," I say and break away from my parents, desperate to escape this room. I need a plan. I need to collect myself.
On my way to the kitchen, a tall, thin figure steps in front of me. I halt and quickly replace my annoyance with sweetness. It's the Luna. "Brigette," she says, "it's good to see you again, darling. I was just looking for your mother, and I'm sure you're looking for Amabell, aren't you?"
"Oh, uh, yes. I am. My mother is meeting the the guests."
"The guests, of course. Well, Amabell ran off to the restroom. She should be back any second."
This feels like a game of cat and mouse. I'm trying to find a hole in the wall, but there's nowhere to hide when I'm as sneaky as a flashing red light.
Then I feel it. Behind me.
My body goes stiff.
The Luna peers past me and says, "Alpha Amin, I hope you're finding everything alright. Oh, Brigette, I must introduce you to our guest of honor. It's not every day you get to be in a room with two Alphas, now is it?"
As every known curse word bounces around in my head, I hesitantly turn. And I see Alpha Amin. But what strikes me like a bolt of lightning is the lack of anyone else standing with him. In a single second my face falls, my eyes widen, and I realize that it's him. The Alpha. And the only thing that leaves my lips is, "Oh no."
I look over him. There's no doubt he's of Alpha blood.
"Brigette," he says, riling me as his grey eyes are aimed into mine, "it's nice to meet you."
The sound of his voice calls forth my emotions like a tidal wave. I must be dreaming; this can't be real. It can't be him.
"Brigette is our Beta's daughter," the Luna says, oblivious. "Have you been introduced to the Beta and his mate?"
My eyes gloss over. This is bad. This is the worst-case scenario. He can't look away from me, but I'm under the same spell. "I've been looking for you," he says.
I hate the thoughts that are sprouting in my mind like weeds. No matter how hard I try to yank them out, more and more keep coming through like naughty little whispers, taunting me for thinking such things.
What if he's mean? He looks
controlling, intimidating. He looks
like one of those Alphas who run their packs like a branch of the military But it doesn't really matter who he is or how he is because nothing will change the fact that he is my mate. He could be the cruelest man in the universe, and there is nothing I can do.
My cheeks flush and my neck grows hot. Please look away. Just take your eyes off of me.
"Well, I'm sure Amabell is on her way back. Why don't you go find her, Brigette?" The Luna suggests. Can she really not tell? Maybe we aren't as obvious as we should be. What are we supposed to do?
I press my lips together and clasp my hands just to control the shaking. "O-Okay."
Like ripping off a bandaid, I suddenly turn to her then to the hall. Maybe if I pretend none of that happened, I can still make my escape, still be a mate-less girl. For a moment I think that it worked. He must have been pulled away by his men or my Alpha, but footsteps begin to follow from behind me.
I'll need to face this head-on then.
I push through a door left slightly
open to my right. I step into the
room before realizing it's my Alpha's private office. This is definitely not allowed, but before I can exit, he comes through the door, closing it behind him without hesitation. I would say that my heart is beating relentlessly again, but it never eased up.
His eyes wash over me. Maybe he sees my discomfort. Something about these feelings swirling around in my gut is making me need to vomit. They bump and twist and clench my jaw just to keep myself from moaning in unease. My eyes fixate on the closed door. Now that we're alone, the terrible hurricane inside of me only worsens.