SWNOVELS Chapter 36 - Mia
I let Nikolaos lead me to the bedroom where we're to spend our last night together. He told me he was leaving to get Maxim back since he got proof Mikhail took him, but I didn't expect it to be so soon.
I should have known, though.
“You're angry,” he says as I stand with my back to him. I feel him walking closer to me, but he doesn't try to touch me.
“No, not angry,” I sigh, wrapping my arms around my waist. “Just...scared.”
He moves closer to me and puts his hands on my hips before placing a kiss on the nape of my neck. “Nothing will happen to me, Mia-"
I spin around to face him. “You don’t know that! You have no idea how Mikhail...how dirty he plays when there's something he wants!”
Nikolaos looks at me with a taut expression, then he raises a hand to cup my cheek. “Nothing will happen to me, I promise on my life. I have something to fight for now, something to come home to. Why would I throw it away?” he says, then his hand lowers and goes to the back of my neck. “Please trust me when I say I won't die, kardia mou.”
I slip my hands around his waist and stifle a sob. Nothing seems certain in my new life; there's always a fight to keep something with me. It's like I've been cursed with uncertain happiness, never knowing if it'll stay or not.
“I trust you, but that doesn’t mean I won't be scared for you, Nikolaos,” I say.
His heart is beating wildly in his chest, but I will not say anything to appease him. He knows how I feel about this, and even though I understand why he's leaving, it doesn’t mean I have to like it.
I suck in a breath at the heat behind his gaze and answer his question by dropping the towel from around my body. His chest thrums with an appreciative growl, then he lowers his mouth to mine and kisses me so hard that I stumble backward.
But he grabs me by my waist and pulls me closer, his hands making a mess of my hair while I grip his broad biceps. I don’t even remember how we got on the bed, all I know is that I love the weight of Nikolaos over me.
“Is this okay?" I ask when I notice we're naked against each other. “You're not-"
He shuts me up with a kiss and I moan into his mouth. Okay, he wants this as much as me; then again by the way his cock is straining against me, I should have known
Suddenly, he breaks off the kiss and peers down at me with fierce possession in his crimson eyes, then he moves next to me and props himself up on one arm while his other hand slips down my waist.
“Gods, I love your body,” he murmurs, lowering his head and kissing my neck. “I want to drown in you and not come up for air.”
My body shudders at his light touches and kisses; the way he nips at my skin the lower he gets sends all sorts of yummy shivers all over. He gets to my breasts and draws a sensitive nipple into his warm mouth, teasing me with his tongue while he lightly squeezes the other between his fingers
I moan loudly, feeling his touch, licks, and kisses everywhere; I'm sure he could bring me to orgasm with this alone. The fingers on my nipple move lower and he cups my mound before leisurely running a finger between my wet heat.
The restrained growl in his chest makes my body shiver and my back arches from the bed. “Fuck, I want to take it slow and make it special since it's our first time, but you're driving me crazy, Mia,” he says in a strained voice, his mouth still on my nipple while his fingers slowly torture my clit.
"Please, Niko...” I beg, uncertain of what I am asking for exactly. But Nikolaos knows what I need and he positions himself in between my legs.
Pushing my legs further apart, he groans when he looks at my slick core, biting his bottom lip and grinning. “I've wanted this pussy since I first felt it squeeze my fingers,” he says, taking his cock in his hand and running the tip over my slick heat.
I gasp at the feel and thrust my hips up, but he holds me in place. “Greedy little rabbit,” he says, shaking his head. Then he leans over me, and through my lust, I see something else in his eyes. “Nikolaos,” I say when I see the uncertainty clear as day and finally hear the way his heart is pounding. How could I have missed this?! Of course he'll be a mess!
His lips are a tight line and even as his cock remains rock hard, the lust creeps out of his eyes.
“We don't have to do this now, okay? As much as we both want this, I can see the pain in your eyes,” I say, but then he shakes his head
“I want to do this; I've wanted this for as long as I can remember,” he says in a low voice. “But as I looked down and realized...just how close we were to actually-"
“Nikolaos,” I say again and sit up, moving my face closer to his. “I know this can't be easy after what you were forced to do. We don't have to go all the way; you have my heart, you can claim my body when you're ready.”
He sits back on his haunches and looks up, breathing out a sigh...that's when I notice the tear slipping down the side of his face.
“I'm fucked up, Mia. I can rip out someone's heart easily, tear them in two as if they were made out of nothing,” he scoffs, shaking his head before he peers down at me. “But this...I can't even make love to the one person who means the world to me without feeling their hands all over my body.” My heart breaks for this Alpha everyone fears, the one who's still a scared little boy deep down. The one tortured most of his childhood...the one who cannot stand the touch of another.
I have to do something; those women cannot be the reason we don’t claim each other tonight. I refuse to have them ruin his happiness further. Their hold on him gets severed right now.