The Deadly Alpha

When I made sure Alpha went to training finally after looking so defeated, I was alone in the room with baby Kaden beside me because I was protective like that.

Crystal went off to her mate as they had a house across from our mansion, I was happy for both of them and a bit envious because our fate was different from theirs.

I chuckled as I closed my eyes and imagined Kaden and Alpha playing football outside as I cooked with a light pink apron on my big belly, I also imagined that we were having a girl called Evanna because it was special in my heart. I opened my eyes and accepted the reality, another mate was meant for him, the Moon Goddess could give him a chance when I die, he was going to be happy with his new eleven pups, a tear slipped from my eyes when the realization hit me again that the Luna wouldn't be me anymore, it would be another mate.

All our memories were in my heart and that was enough because I cared so much about them that I was willing to let go for the sake their happiness, I was going to heal my son, he would have a better proud mom, a chance of a lifetime and he would have a mate to love endlessly and a fate so bright. I wanted all of that for him.

My fingers touched the pen as I wrote the heart shattering letters, I took a deep breath and started. We have to go, there is no solution. Lace grieved and I nodded.

Thank you for being the best wolf ever. I said and I could feel her howling in sorrow.

Thank you for showing me what it's like to be loved and cherished. Lace agonizingly said.

Letter to Alpha

Dear best mate ever,

By the time you read this, your heart will be broken because of what I am about to do, I'm sorry for making you angry so many times and frustrated when you couldn't find anything to heal me. I get it, it's my fate and I would rather see you happy with someone else than to live without a mate in pain, you will have Kaden and a nice family, I could guarantee it, our baby boy is special and he will help you get through as I am confident and so proud of what you had to go through to be yourself.

I know. I am selfish to let myself die and for you to handle seeing me gone like your first mate, but trust me, that this will be the best for you as my curse is permanent and it was too late for me. I chose this path because I would lose you if I continued to live and I would destroy your pack. It's ironic how I am the Luna yet I am the source who kills, I don't want to damage the fearless pack, I want to continue to live on as a legacy, but you will forget me yet in my heart, you will stay. Remember, the first time we met, you were so arrogant and tortured me, how can you, my torturer, be my sweet remedy? I love you endlessly and once you finish reading this, you will have a bright life, I assure you. I love you so much, your dented dimple when you smile, your beautiful mesmerizing hurricane eyes that I love seeing every morning with my drizzle rain ones, your quirkiness and ego, I shall miss all of that and the sweet memories, thank you for everything, my love. I will see you in every moment, I will look down on you and see you with our son. I love you, I still don't know your name but that's okay, I know your heart.

With immense love,

Your lucky mate.

My tears stained the inked paper a little bit and my hand trembled, I was shattered at the thought of my mate finding love again without me. It had to be for the best.

Letter to Kaden

Don't break her heart. I know when you read this when you grow up, you will get confused and forget about me. Your beautiful mate would be so lucky to have a special and a powerful Alpha, I know that much, just don't break her heart baby. I love you so much, you will always be my little miracle, blessing, and everything to me, you will kick ass in college and high school, I know it! You will play football and win championships and I will be looking down on you with pride that you had grown up out of my arms. I will miss you baby boy, I love you so much, I can only hope that life will bring you the wishes you needed and that I loved your father a lot and still will in heavens above. P.S don't forget to wear your warm sweater in the wintery days so you don't catch a cold.

P.S.S don't worry about anything, I am always here with you.

My sobs went out of my mouth as my soul was weakening, the curse would get me up there with my family, I wiped my tears and stared at the only way I could die because asking Alpha to kill would be terrifying for him. I kissed Kaden a million times and placed Alpha's letter on the bed, the other one for Kaden in our drawer, hoping that one day he would open it.

"I'm sorry baby boy." Kaden's symbol turned yellow as he cried and his little fingers flailing to reach mine.

I grabbed the knife and cried hysterically as Crystal opened the door and shrieked.