The Day The Internet Died

Sonya sat in Dr. Harper’s office, still in her work scrubs. It was the day after Alex’s routine therapy appointment, and Dr. Harper had phoned Sonya to come in for a discussion.

He began, “It has taken some time, but I believe I’ve finally gotten Alex to open up to me. Yesterday was quite successful.”

Sonya shifted slightly in her seat. “That’s great.”

Dr. Harper stared at Sonya, but it was a gentle stare. A stare of understanding.

“I know the sudden death of your parents has taken a heavy toll on the both of you. And at such a pivotal stage in Alex’s development,” he gently brought together his hands, “it has caused her to retreat into herself.”

“Yes,” Sonya responded. “She spends almost all her time in her room. I can hardly ever get her to come out. At first, I thought it was best to give her some space. We all grieve our own ways. But it’s been months, and I’m worried about her. She won’t talk to me about anything. We used to be so close…”

Dr. Harper gave a gentle nod and took some time before he next spoke. “She is worried about you too.”

“Really?” Sonya was genuinely shocked.

“Yes,” Dr. Harper continued. “She blames herself for you having to abandon med school to come take care of her.”

Sonya didn’t know what she expected Dr. Harper to say, but it definitely wasn’t this. “But… but it’s not her fault. And I didn’t abandon med school. I just took some time off. It’s not… that… big of a deal…” Sonya mumbled the last bit.

“Yes, but for Alex it has been another major stressor in her life. She blames herself, and as a result struggles to be able to come to you for help.”

“But,” Sonya leaned forward as if to say more, but ultimately lowered her gaze to the floor. “I don’t know what to do…”

Dr. Harper closed his eyes and gave a series of gentle nods. “And because Alex cannot find solace in you, she has been looking for it online. Spending more and more time online, searching for understanding.”

Sonya continued to make eye contact with the floor tiles. “Yes, she spends a lot of time on her computer…”

“Sonya,” Dr. Harper said in a calm but affirming tone, forcing Sonya to meet his gaze. “I know you are trying your best. I know all of this takes as much a toll on you as it does her.” He gently closed and opened his eyes. “It will just take time. When she is ready, she will come to you.”