The Damned Princess

“Amore, open the door! Sienna are you okay” I heard a faint voice from outside. When I woke up, the loud thumping on the door felt like it was going on inside my head. I saw I was on the floor; my whole body was aching because of sleeping on the floor. “Amore can you hear me” I heard Jayson’s voice. I tried to speak but my throat was so dry I could not say anything.

“I’m opening the door”, he said and I heard the jingling of the keys, I tried to get up but I could not move. He opened the door and rushed in, “what happened, why are you on the floor” he asked worriedly. He helped me up and made me sit on the bed. I pointed towards the water bottle, he quickly opened it and gave me some.

When I felt I could speak, I answered in a croaked voice “I’m fine, I overslept I guess”. “How did you end up on the floor, Liam has been calling you since last night when you didn’t answer even now then he finally called me to ask”, he said.

I looked around the bed but could not find my phone, Jay also looked around and he found it on the floor near the foot of the bed. He gave it to me and I saw twenty missed calls from Liam. I groaned internally because I’ll have to explain it to him why I did not answer.

Jay was looking at me expecting answers for what happened but I could not think of anything right now. My head was hurting too much. I told him “I’ll take a shower and then meet you downstairs”, he looked upset but he left silently. When he was gone, I went to the bathroom. I took a long hot water shower, to relax my muscles. My head was still hurting when I went downstairs.

Mrs. Hunter was sitting on the dining table, when she saw me, she got up and worriedly asked “are you okay honey” and started checking my forehead for fever. I smiled at her warmly, “I’m fine Mrs. Hunter just a slight headache, I’m sorry for worrying you”. “Don’t be silly, come on eat your breakfast and I’ll give you something for headache” she said.

I did as she asked and I was feeling slightly better now that I had some food in my system. She left, leaving me alone on the table with Jay. I did not know how to face him; I was avoiding his gaze. “Amore”, he said softly, I pretended like I did not hear, he called out my name again, more loudly this time.

I looked up at him and faked a smile “yes Jay”. “What happened last night”, he asked, there were so many emotions in his eyes, he was worried and confused. I tried to keep up the charade “nothing happened, I was just tired and I overslept”.

I knew he did not believe a word I said but before he could say anything, I excused myself saying I had to call my brother. I quickly went to my room and took in deep breaths. I felt horrible staying there, I was fooling these very nice people.

I called Liam, he answered in a beat “Enna, where have you been, I was so worried, why didn’t you answer my calls”. My throat felt so heavy, I wanted to cry but I did not want to tell him so I said “I’m sorry, I overslept. I’m fine please don’t worry”. My voice cracked, “Enna, tell me the truth” he said.

I could not control my emotion and tears started flowing, I sobbed “I’ll tell you when I get home Li”. “Did anything happen, did Jayson say anything”, he asked. “No, it’s not that, my flight’s in a few hours so I’ll pack and I’ll tell you everything when I’m there”, I said. He did not push it any further and we hung up.

I stayed in the room so that I don’t have to face Jay. I packed everything I brought, I heard Mrs. Hunter calling me downstairs. I took in a deep breath and went. “Sienna, honey your flight has been canceled, it’s raining really bad”, she told me.

My heartbeat fastened, I cannot stay here, “when will it leave then” I asked her. She replied, “early morning tomorrow, come on eat lunch you’ve been in your room for so long”.

Jayson was not there, his mom told me that he already ate and went to his room. I was glad, it’s really hard to face him and lie to him. I quickly ate and went to the backyard. I really like it when it rains, the sound of thunder is weirdly calming to me. Before going I quickly texted Liam about the changes in the flight plan.

I stepped out bare feet, the raindrops started touching me and I was soaked within a few minutes. I looked around, this house has a beautiful backyard, to the left there is the huge dining table which is sheltered and to the right, there is a pool house completely made of glass. I really liked it. I sat down on the grass and pulled my legs close to my chest. I looked at the sky, it was dark and there was lightning followed by the roaring sound of the thunder.

I was so lost I did not hear Jay coming out. He sat next to me; I did not look at him. “You’ll catch a cold if you stay out here too long”, he said. I smiled “I have a great immune system”. He chuckled, “you’re not afraid of the thunder”, he asked, I looked at him and he was also staring at the sky. “No, I like it”, I said.

The raindrops were hitting his beautiful face. Rolling down on his skin. His hair was sagging down on his forehead, I raised my hand to set them back but I retrieved it back. I am so close to him yet so far away, it makes my heartache. I want to love him and him to love me back, I want to feel his lips on mine, and the tingles from his touch. A few hot tears rolled down on my cold face.

He turned towards me and cupped my cheek, I closed my eyes and leaned into his touch. “I really like you Amore” he whispered so softly, if I were not a lycan I wouldn’t have heard it. I opened my eyes and looked into his, I could see the sincerity in his eyes. I did not know what to say so I let him continue.

“I know this isn’t how things should go, I’ve seen in the movies mom forced me to see with her” I chuckled lightly. “I know I should take you out on dates and then proceed with things but I’ve never done this before. I don’t know what happened to me when you came into my life. You’re the only girl I couldn’t ignore”.

Tears were falling from my eyes uncontrollably now, “you’re so different, so beautiful, nothing like what I’ve seen before. When people look at you, I want to kill them, I have this feeling like you should only be with me. I know this isn’t how I should ask you, but be my girlfriend Amore, be mine” he whispered.

I took his hand in mine and pressed my lips on his knuckles. “You mean to me more than you can ever imagine Jay. But you know nothing about me, everything you see is not true. I can’t be with you because I feel like I’m deceiving you into believing me as someone who I’m not”. He pulled me into his laps, he held me so close to him and whispered “then tell me what I don’t know”.

I smiled at him; he was so close I could not stop myself. I traced his feature with my finger, when I touched his lips, they were so soft I wanted to crash mine into his. “Tell me” he whispered again. I could feel the pain in his voice, I felt it a thousand times more.

I laid my head on his shoulder and whispered in his ear, “I’m a despicable being Jayson, I’ve done things you can’t imagine. You deserve an angel and I’m anything but that. I’ll break down if I ever see hate in your eyes for me, so it’s better for us both that I stay away from you”.

When I looked into his eyes, I could see the pain, the hurt, the anger but it’s better than hate. I pressed my lips on his forehead and stayed like that for a moment. It was so hard to tear myself apart from him. I finally pulled myself up, looked one last time at him, and then left. I straight away went to my bathroom and collapsed the moment I locked the door.

It was hurting so badly; it was like I rejected my mate. I waited for so long to find him and now that I have, I pushed him away. I cried; I don’t know for how long but I cried till there were no tears left to shed.

I was lying on my bed for I don’t know how long. I was not hungry but I still went down for dinner because I did not want Mrs. Hunter to think I was being rude. I ate in five minutes and came back quickly. I looked at the clock, it was one in the morning, I focused and the house so I went downstairs to get some water for myself.

I tiptoed my way down trying not to wake anybody up. Everything was dark, when I entered the kitchen, I saw a silhouette of someone, when I went closer, I sensed my mate’s beautiful scent. I cleared my throat “Jayson, what are you doing”.

“I’m making hot chocolate for myself, so I don’t catch a cold”, he said and then asked “you want some” before I could answer he said “well I’m making for you too and don’t worry I make killer hot chocolate” making me smile. I don’t know if I should stay here with him or leave, the pain is still there and I don’t want to hurt him any further.

He walked towards me, took my hand in his, and lead me to the kitchen counter. He picked me up and made me sit on it. He pushed my legs apart and stood in between, my breath hitched. “What are you doing Jayson” I whispered in a shaky voice. “Want some Nutella” he smiled at me.

I am not really a fan of such sweet things but before I could say something, he took some on the spoon and brought it to my lips. He put in my mouth, I licked a small amount off the spoon and he purposely put some on my mouth. He put the spoon aside and pulled me closer making me gasp.

His mouth was so close to mine. His eyes were trained on my lips. I could feel his breath on my face. I closed my eyes because he was so close and my vision was blurring. He kissed the corner of my mouth and licked the chocolate off. This little action ignited my whole body on fire.

I still didn’t open my eyes because my lycan was fighting with me to let go and claim what’s mine right at this moment. He moved a little back but I wrapped my legs around his waist and my hands gripped his shoulders. My heart was racing and my breathing turned so heavy, every cell in my body wants to kiss him right now and I don’t know if I have the strength to stop myself.

I could feel his breath on my skin. I felt a feather-light kiss under my ear and the hot trail all over my neck, “Jayson”, I moaned his name. “Sienna”. “Please stop, before I lose control” I whispered, begging him to stop playing with me like this.

“I don’t know why you’re pushing me away Amore because I can see in your eyes how much you want me” he whispered. “I don’t know your past but I’ll find out everything about you. From today I won’t rest until I know everything you’re hiding and you know the best part, now I know where to start from. I promise you that I won’t come close to you, touch you or even talk to you until I know everything and when I do, I promise I’ll make you mine”.

I took in deep breaths to control myself and moved my legs from around him and I finally opened my eyes. He stared deep into my eyes; I could see the determination in them. I did not know what to say to him. He placed a soft kiss on my cheek and then stepped away. I did not know when he was done with the hot chocolate but he put a mug next to me and left.