The Damned Princess

I was ready at eight in the morning because last night I couldn’t get any sleep after my dream, so I went out of the window for a run and came back when it was morning. I went downstairs, Becky was preparing breakfast when I entered the kitchen, she greeted me cheerfully “good morning Enna”, I smiled back at her and replied “morning”.

Five minutes later Liam also entered the kitchen already and both of us greeted him. Becky said, “I’m excited about our first day at the university, what about you guys”. My brother and I shared a bored look and I replied “at least somebody is excited”. “If you’d have done this college shit as many times as we have, you’d be in the same boat” Liam groaned. “For a change, I agree with him Becks” I added. I and Liam both got smacked on our heads, “don’t be so unenthusiastic you guys” she said, while we both just groaned.

At a quarter to nine, we all left the house in my brother’s Mercedes. We can all afford different cars and that too the best one, but since we are trying not to grab too much attention, we chose one. I told Liam we should get some cool sports car but he didn’t want people to think that we are rich brats from some other world. To which I told him “and which poor kid did you see coming in a Mercedes Li”. The house we moved to is also not a grand and luxurious one but it’s still really nice and is huge for three people.

By the time we strolled inside the campus, it was almost the time for our first lecture, so I bid my goodbye to both of them because they enrolled in Astronomy while I enrolled in English literature. Before leaving Liam said “take care and try to enjoy a little, we’ll meet at the lunch break”, “and try not to kill people Enna” Becky added. I laughed at her and waved as they both went their way and I went mine.

I took my time to find the class because I was in no hurry. By the time I was there the room was already filled with a lot of students. I walked to the very end of the class and sat there on a vacant seat next to a girl. As I sat, she looked up at me and smiled, I smiled back but didn’t try to make any sort of communication with her or anybody else. All the other people were interacting with each other, some seemed to be friends already, some were introducing themselves.

Just as everybody was settling down, a female teacher walked in. She greeted all of us “good morning class, I’m Mrs. James your teacher for the subject of Culture and Literature”. She looked like in her mid-40′s, seemed cheerful unlike me. As she started talking about the subject, I tuned her out and started using my phone.

I like literature and I love to read and there was a time when I wanted to pursue my career as an author but at this point in my life, I don’t give a shit about anything. After a very long fifty minutes, the teacher finally realized that her lecture was over and we need to leave for other classes. She finally let us all go.

After attending two more long lectures like that it was lunchtime. I left looking for the cafeteria as Liam told me to meet there. When I finally found it, I saw both of them waiting for me near the doors. I said hi and we went in to eat something, looking around I saw how it was full of students and suggested, “let’s grab lunch and move outside because the weather is nice and it’s less crowded”.

Both of them nodded, we all stood in line to grab ourselves something to eat, I don’t know what they ordered, I straight away went for pizza because I am a sucker for it. I believe pizza is one of the best things the human race has come up with.

As we settled outside, Becky asked “how was your day so far Sienna”? I groaned “really very boring”. Liam smirked, “well who asked you to choose the most boring stream of the world”. “Shut up Li, I love English literature, I just don’t like some of these unnecessary subjects,” I told him.

Becky smacked his hand “she’s right Liam she chose what she likes”, she looked at me and continued “anyways don’t be disheartened I’m sure you’ll develop interest very soon”. Liam whined, “why do you hit me so much, lady”. I smirked “thank you Becky” while my brother just huffed at us both.

I asked, “how was astronomy for both of you”. As Becky exclaimed “amazing”, at the same time Liam said “horrible”. Becky looked at him with narrowed eyes and he said “amazing” while scratching his neck and smiling sheepishly. I laughed at him while making the noise of a whip and did the action with my hand and he just glared at me.

While we were eating Becky kept telling me all she learned today with great fascination. I was happy for her, at least she was getting something she liked because Liam and I were least interested in learning new things. After an hour it was time for our other lectures. This one was free for me while in the next one, I had class and both of them were free. So, they left and I started roaming around the campus and looking around for what all we have here.

Our campus was huge, I came across the library, and straight away went inside. I love libraries, back at our place we have a huge one and I own a lot of books, old, new, classics and everything one can have.

I looked around for what all they have here and to my surprise, the English Lit section has a nice collection. Moon goddess, at least I found something I can live with here, I thought. By the time I was done checking the books and reading the summaries of the ones I want to read later, it was already time for my class, so I had to leave.

I was five minutes late and a teacher was already in the class introducing himself to the students. I knocked in to ask for permission to enter, he nodded towards me and said “don’t be late again” to which I just nodded back. He said, “I want all of you to introduce yourselves so that we all can know a little bit about each other”. Oh goddess, what is this, primary school, I groaned. Everybody started telling their names and a little bit about themselves, I didn’t care to listen.

When it was my turn, I got up and just said “Hi, I’m Sienna”, as I was sitting the teacher stopped me and said, “tell us something more about yourself Sienna”. I wanted to kill him, I straightened up again and said “nothing is interesting about me to share”.

“Okay, tell us where are you from”, he said. “Italy”, I said blankly. “Wow but you don’t have the accent and your English is so good”. He looked at me expectantly for an answer, I took a deep breath because he was annoying me now.

“I’ve traveled and lived in a lot of different countries, so I lost my accent” I answered. He said, “and you were saying nothing was interesting about you”. He was going to say something else but I quickly cut him and said “thank you” and sat down.

When all the students introduced themselves, he started with the introduction of the subject history of literature. This was one of the subjects I was really fascinated about. I loved to know about all the authors and poets in our history, who came up with such great stuff.

I loved to learn about what could have been their source of motivation, or who were they trying to describe using all those beautiful words. I was hoping that this teacher won’t bother me again so that I could enjoy at least one of my subjects.

After our classes ended, I texted Liam to meet me in our car. When I reached there, they were already inside, kissing each other furiously. I knocked loudly on the window which made Becky jump. I puked in my head and told them “can you please not do that when you know I can be around. There’s nothing more disturbing to these very angelic eyes and brain of mine than to see my brother and sister in law make out”.

My brother rolled his eyes “stop overreacting”, while Becky just blushed. Liam said, “you’ll know how it feels when you find your mate”. This just reminded me of the horrible nightmare I had last night, both of them realized that Liam said the wrong thing and he apologized “I’m sorry sister I didn’t mean to upset you” I just smiled back at him. Thankfully Becky changed the topic and we all began talking about our first day at the university.

We were all in the living area watching Netflix after we had our dinner. It was late and we had to get up early so we all said our goodnights and I came to my room while they went to their room to sleep or whatever they both do in there; I don’t even want to think or I’ll puke now.

I told them I was going to sleep but I can’t have the nightmare again so soon, also that would just worry Liam. So, I decided not to sleep and jump out of my window to go for a run in the forest, I didn’t inform them because they’ll just worry about me either way. I spent the whole night outside. One of the perks of being a lycan is that lack of sleep does not affect me like it would do normal people. I can go days without sleeping.

The night sky was really beautiful. It felt so peaceful to just sit there and watch the stars because the run drained me of my energy. I sat there, thinking about how different my life would be if I had found my mate, and if there was no fear of losing him ever.

We could have lived anywhere in the world. I felt so lonely at that moment, I just wanted to know how it feels to have a mate. I wanted to feel the sparks when we touch, I wanted my heart to beat for him. It broke my heart that I don’t have it and I don’t know if I ever will.

I was so lost in my thoughts; I didn’t even realize that the sun has started to come up. After watching the sunrise, I came back to my room, and just lied on my bed for a while. When it was time, I got up and did my morning routine and went downstairs.