Chapter 23: Heartbreak
He won't loosen the hug if I won't let him explain so he did, he explain while hugging me and honestly I always like him that close
to me.
He's like the best blanket at the rainy day, I'm comfortable with him.
"Okay! I don't care if what she do to you! I'm not mad anymore but still we're not really in good vibes." I said, I want to test his
patience on the other side.
I know and I understand now. Sabrina was just very aggressive maybe and in fact that just a little hickey but still it's a hickey and
my blood boil every time I remember it. Arghhh! That woman.
"What do you want for dinner?" he ask
"Hmm, tuna nuggets, chicken nuggets, sweet and sour tuna or any available rush, hmm. Gordon bleu and I don't know!" I'm just
being honest, I'm craving for those plus I'll punish his budget. Is he budgeting? He's a billionaire and maybe it cost just a little for
him.
"For appetizers?"
"Are you a waiter?" I ask, laughing.
"I can be your anything but I want to be your everything!"
"Dramatic! Well, I want some Cannelline bruschetta with baguette slices and I don't like it for crackers." I smile, chef Kyle and
chef Markus are dead in the kitchen later.
"Is that it?"
"I guess!"
"Ok, how about salads?"
"Hmm, we have a party?" I ask
"No! what now?"
"I'm craving for a fruit salad ANDDDD tuna salad with cinnamon YUUMMMM~ That's simple but delightful recipe. I miss mom!"
"Dramatic!" he really take effort to sound like me so I snap his shoulders.
"Okay! enjoy here with our babies!"
"Eh? Go Mr. Ungentleman!"
"I love you!" his response and turn his back.
I can't blame Sabrina to fall in love for him.
He is like every girls dream.
He had everything. Am I able to have him until the last breathe?
I help doing some chores after playing with the huskies and I didn't even notice that the time moves so quick.
I get inside my room and lay a bit, I feel like everything turns out and work the way they should. I want to take a nap so I close
my eyes.
? I see your monster,
I see your pain.
Tell me your problems,
I'll chase them away.
I'll be your lighthouse,
I'll make it okay.?
"Love! Love wake up! Your request are all ready!" as I open my eyes, I saw him. I saw him staring at me.
"What?"
"let's eat"
"Go first, I'll follow in a minute!" I said and stretch my body.
"Okay!" he pat my head.
"I'm not a dog!" I complain and yawn.
"but you're cute!" he still answer though he's walking out.
I just comb my hair and wear PJ's because I felt cold.
I arrived at the dinning area but I didn't saw Raze.
"Where's Raze?" I ask them, I already saw chef Markus and Kyle at their seat.
"Love! Present!" I look back and it's Raze, his smile was perfect like he saw a rainbow and sunny day.
He is holding a tray and he is wearing a gray apron. Looks cool.
"Take your seat!" he said smiling and out the tray fast and even hurry to pull a chair for me.
"Thanks!" I whisper
Everyone was looking at us with a smile in their faces.
I look at the table, the foods that I mentioned earlier was perfectly placed and serve.
"Here's your Cannelline bruschetta madam with baguette slices" he serve that infront of me.
I look at Erika and she mouth 'You're so lucky' so, I just smile.
"Thanks Raze"
"Sure, if you want something just tell me."
"Just eat Raze" I said and he remove his apron an eat too. Did he really cook all of this? Let me know, I have a bite of cannelline
and it's very delicious.
"Chef Markus, I love this!" I said.
"the boss was really good after all!" he said and wink.
I see, so he really cook all of this! He's really great.
Craving satisfied, thanks Love I eat a lot of Gordon bleu and nuggets, I'm really 100% satisfied.
After the dinner I take a walk outside, the fountain was awesome so I took it a picture.
"love!" it's Raze, I know though I won't look back.
I pretend that I didn't hear him.
"Love, I want to walk with you, it's not fun being alone." he said and hold my hand. Fuckin' electricity flow from his body. Gush!
He's really driving me crazy.
"Raze you said walk, not to hold my hand" Why I'm being this hard to him? Well, as I said I just want to test him, his patience but
actually... argh! I'm still sad and curious about a lot of things.
Around 8pm the girls went inside my room, we places blanket at the floor and sat there, the foods was placed between all of us.
Only few came, there's only 8 of us because others were already tired and they need to rest early so they can gain much energy
for tomorrow.
We play some games, the first one was the two truths and one lie, Spin the bottle and colortelling. COLORtelling is a game
where you have to tell a story of what's inside the for paper you got from the box. For example, you pick red and in the game
label the color red means about love life then you have to tell about your love life, simple as that.
Between the color telling we hear a knock and Rowie open the door.
"Kyaaah! Señorito" she greeted, so, it's Raze.
"Good eve! What's up everyone?" he is all in smile.
Does he know that he capture every girls heart more through his smile? We all love his smile, he looks innocent. Innocent my
ass.
"Señorito come and join us!" Erika invited him.
Raze came in, why I felt awkward now with his presence and my heartbeat beats like this is the first time I saw him and fall in
love with him.
He's talking now with the girls while I'm here, I'm just staring at them.
"Handsome? We all know!"
"Ah?" Lavender caught me looking at him who's enjoying to talk with them.
"There's something wrong between the both of you?"
"Just a small pain in the ass." I said and sip my Chuckie.
"Okay, we already had fun girls, can I borrow my woman now?" I turn my gaze at him, wondering why because I didn't expect it.
I don't know what to say when we'll talk.
"Sure señorito, we're just fine here!" Erika responded
"Thanks ladies, let's go? Love?" he said then walk towards me and extend his arms.
"Hold my hand, baby don't be scared♪♪" he sang and laugh after.
"yieee! The spirit of love!" Erika commented and break the awkwardness.
"Guys, I'll be back in a moment!" I said and stand as I held his hand.
He bring me at the nest swing, it's round, huge and very comfortable so we're perfectly fitted.
He lay and suddenly held my hand and put it right at his chest.
"Love I don't know that I don't have a right to say this but I want you to fight with me until the end!" He has a right anyway, he is
my boyfriend but the matter is that maybe he feel that I'm in distance right now.
I just keep on silence, I just don't know what to say.
"Can you feel my heartbeat? Thanks for making it work beautifully again!" the light from the lamppost hit his face and I saw how
meaningful his smile was and that makes my heartbeat more fast and celebrating.
I want to tell him that I feel the same way too but I guess this isn't the right time for that.
I lay beside him, just a few inches away from him.
"The stars looks great tonight!" he said and intertwined our hands. It warms my heart, that made me happy but I couldn't tell him.
"Love you know why dad hates me? Why he is making me live in someones life?"
"I'm listening!" I whisper
"One time, at the past, I was in grade school. Ahm, I was grade 6 I guess. I force my brother Rance Trivian to let me drive the car
and escape at the house for a bit. I was just sad that time because dad always choose him, he is always the best though I'm
good too. I'm always the top at the class, I'm good at sports, I'm good at instruments and won some competitions but I'm still not
enough." I hear him sniff but I didn't bother to look at him.
"That day we have a trouble at the road, that day was unforgettable and until now the memory is hunting me. I lose one of my
favorite person. Someone who's always there for me when no one was." I can't help it. Why his words stabs my heart.
Mother Sharn always telling like I have to know something important and this day come and I feel like we're connected in a way
that I feel his pain.
"I was just 12 back then and he was 16, minors, I drive and at first everything was fine not until when we notice someones car
following us so I got panicked. I lost control and we bump into another car then out of a sudden we hear a gunshot and my
brother covers me. That's the last time the he hugged me and after that I was unconscious and wake up at the hospital bed. I
had a shot at my left shoulder and have some minor injuries but h-he died. I cant accept it until now." he's crying right now. He
sat and wipe his tears.
I don't know how to comfort him.
"That day my dad hates me even more and even mom ignore me that time and leave me under the guide of Masha, luckily I still
have her. Dad blame me and yeah! If I didn't force him to go with me maybe he is still alive right now and living his dreams,
maybe he is doing business too right now, maybe the ambush didn't happen and maybe we can have a long conversation,
maybe I hear more from him than his last words. 'Bro! I will always protect you. Protect mom for me from this day onwards' he
said and he didn't even finish saying I love you!" his voice were cracked and his shoulders were trembling, he's crying hard while
sharing those and I cried too. Who's not. That's very painful.
*Sniff *sniff
"Hey! That's loud!" I don't know but I was really hurt.
"WAAAHHH~ I don't know that you had a terrible life behind everything, that's why you're so cold and grumpy sometimes. I know
now. WAAAHHH~" I said between my sobs.
He's groping my hair now to abide from crying.
"I'm fine now! I finally let it out" he said and make me lean at his shoulder.
"Your dad loves you, I feel that!"
"He did but I don't know if in what way. He maybe love me because I live in Rance dream." he is calm now and laughing.
"Why you're laughing?" I snort.
"Because I didn't expect that you'll cry that loud!" he responded and mess my hair. He always do that, I'm not a dog.
I know now and I understand why he's cold and scary sometimes because something is really stopping him to be happy.
We end the night dramatically but at least I understand him now and I have to be strong for him too.
"I love you and with you I eventually change myself" he said that made me sleep with girls tight and with a smile.
I love him so much.
I woke up with a warm hug, it's Erika's arms around me while she's asleep. I slowly move away her hand and stand.
I'm thirsty so I head the kitchen.
oh? Raze was already up and cooking. I silently get a glass and pour a water.
*Click
I hear a sound of a camera, so I look at his direction, he is smiling while holding his phone.
"Hey! Stop that! Stop taking some pictures!" I complain then drink my water.
"I said stop that, Raze!" I repeat and draw near him.
"Stop it! Raze!"
"I'm not taking some pictures!" his smile was irritating me yet it's lovely.
I'm trying to reach his phone but he's so tall, I couldn't reach it though I tiptoed.
Suddenly, he pull me close and kiss my forehead.
"Good morning chump! I love this new day, new day to express my love for you!" he said and wink.
"G-good morning!" I responded and look away to hide my face because I'm blushing.
"I'm going back now!" I said and excuse myself out.
"Hey, love!" he call me.
"What?" I shout without looking at him.
"Is that really you?"
"Are you questioning my existence?"I glare at him
"I'm just wondering love!"
"Wondering?"
"Yeah! if who are you if Lorence Catherine Celo was here inside my heart! You're an impostor?"
"Nice joke Raze! Nice try but that's corny!" I said and hurriedly rush inside my room.
He made me smile, I pick up the plastics in the floor and clean my room then do my morning rituals.
I'm all set when I go out from the comfort room and the girls already leave.
My morning was just like normal but Raze just make it extraordinary.
On the way I was shut in silence but Raze didn't stop until I respond and he make me laugh. He'll work at his investment
company today so he'll just drop me at Texno.
"See you later love, at lunchtime!" he said.
"Take care love!" I whisper. I'm not used calling him that tho.
"L? What?" he heard that but he just love teasing me.
"I said you're LATE for your work if you don't hurry!" I reason out and unbuckle my seatbelt.
"Hey! unbuckle your seatbelt too!" I commanded.
"Why?
"Just do it!"
"okay!" he unbuckle his seatbelt and look at me.
"Then what?" he asked again.
"I have something to tell you, come on!" I said and lean towards him.
*mwaah!
I kiss his cheeks.
"Bye!" I hurriedly go outside after that but I saw him smiling.
I hope that can made his day.
*Bzzzt!
My phone vibrated.
He sent a video.
"Good morning everyone, a special person is coming. Good morning love!" he is talking to his phone.
I was walking towards the refrigerator when he take the video.
"Hey! Stop that! Stop taking some pictures!" I just hear my voice and at the end...I was myself walking back and he said.
"I saw you blushing love, anyway, I still love you though your hair was messed!" The outro was the animated me and him with a
moving heart's above our head.
I love it.
"Enjoy you day love."he message me again.
He really didn't fail to make me happy but things didn't end there.
I saw a bouquet of flowers at my table, my smile became wide as I read the small note.
From: Your future husband.
~Raze
I have a lot of energy for work now, he gave me so much.
At lunch time he called through video call, telling me that he ant go here because they had an urgent meeting. It's fine for me tho.
I eat with Ranz and Cassy because the other girls had their early lunch with the reason that they didn't eat breakfast.
I had fun working and I'm done with my character design.
Exactly 4pm, Raze call that he is already waiting at the parking space.
I was excited to see him so I quickly arrange my things and go down.
"You're okay?" I ask him as I get inside his car.
"I'm fine love!" he respond and start the cars engine.
On the way, we're just talking about some stuffs about what happened at the investment company.
He just send me home and leave again, he said he still have a meeting so, that's it.
I help doing some chores again and have a conversation with the girls.
Around 7, Raze arrived and after he change his clothes we all eat together.
After the dinner I help washing the dishes and have a walk with Raze beside the pool.
I noticed how many times he take a deep breath and he is silent.
"Raze let's sit here! I wanna soak my feet at the water!" I said and held his hand to stop.
I sat first and soak my feet at the pool and he follow me.
"Are you okay?" I asked, I'm a bit worried.
"I just have a little problem at the company!" he sadly said and force himself to smile.
"It's natural, I know that you can handle it!" I said and clamped down around his forearm.
"Love! I realized that no matter what you do, even you hurt me, I can't force myself to unlove you! My mind says I have to push
you but my heart can afford seeing you turning back and go away. I'm sorry for giving you a hard time love. Now, I only want to
do is to fight for you and with you. I love you!" I said seriously.
"I love you too, with you, I can do anything. I promise, I'll fight for you, for us." he whisper and kiss my forehead.
I, Lorence Catherine Celo.
Having a word that I'll fight with him and enjoy every bit with him no matter what.
Dear fate,
You can separate us but our heart will remain as one.
Krrrngg!
His phone rangs.
"It's dad love, what he needs this time?" he said that make me feel nervous.