SWNOVELS Chapter 21: Hired
"Raze I love you so much! I love you before everything was planned! Please! I know you love me, please say you love me!"
"I DON'T! I can't force myself loving you! I love her!" he calmly replied again.
I turn my back, I can't afford seeing them that way.
If he'll choose her, it's fine. I can unlove him right? I felt guilt, she's hurt and I feel like it's my fault.
"Lorence!" mother Sharn call me.
"Mother Sharn what should I do?" I ask sadly.
Do I have to give him up? We're not even start fully yet.
"Let them solve their own problem. Let her fix her broken heart. You'll be fine and everything will be alright. okay?" I just nod and
continue walking.
I take a warm half bath, I was sleepy as I soak myself in the bathtub but I was thinking about us, I feel like a lot was against to
our relationship. I was just a maid, her maid and he was on a highest level that only lucky person can reach his position easily.
I'm still insecure about that? I feel now the gap between us too, I still feel like Sabrina was the right person for him yet social
status doesn't matter right? It doesn't matter if I'm just like this?
Argh! I was fixing my bed when I hear a knock.
"That's open!" I respond.
"Love!"
"Oh, Raze, Hey! What?"
"I'll go, I'll send Sabrina home. She won't go back if I'm not the one who'll drive for her.!" he explain.
"Yeah! keep safe!" I said and continue fixing my bed sheets.
"Hey!"
"Hmm!" I responded
"Are you okay?" he ask and held both my shoulders.
"I said yeah! Go now Raze, she's waiting!" I respond and face him, smiling.
"Thanks love, I love you!" he hug me.
"I'll be back!" I just nod before he go.
I sigh, he care for her. If I didn't came in the picture maybe he fall for her already. Is it my fault? Shit!
At the dinner time everyone was shut in silence. They're looking at me like they're hiding something.
"Guys, what's wrong?" I ask
"Lorence--"
"Stop it Erika!" mother sharn stop her.
She catch my attention now.
"Mother Sharn, why?" I ask, they're driving me crazy.
"I think we don't have a right to tell you that!" she answer sadly.
"There's no clue?" I try to convince her. She sigh and look at everyone like they're communicating through that.
What's wrong? They're hurting me..
? I wanna hold you 'til I die, 'til we breakdown and cry.?
My new ringtone rangs.
"Excuse me everyone!" I said awkwardly. It's unknown number.
Should I take this call?
Well,there's nothing wrong, right?
"Hello?" I pick up the call.
"Your end will come sooner!" it's a womans voice.
"Who are you?" I softly ask.
"No one, just no one!" she answer and laugh like evil before she hang up.
Who's that? I know that's not Sabrina! I'm sure of that.
I'm about to go back when I receive another call.
It's Raze.
"Hey!" I said instantly.
"Love?" his voice were sad.
"What's wrong? Where are you know?" I ask.
"I love you, Love. I want you to stay still and trust me. Okay? let's talk later when I get home, wait for me. Okay?"
Why? His voice were cracked and it breaks my heart.
"Are you okay? Raze?"
"Nothing's wrong love, I miss you!" he whisper on phone or I don't know.
"Are you crying or what?" I'm really curious why he's acting more weird.
"I'm not love, see you later. I love you." he said and hang up the call.
Haysss! He made me more curious and sad.
I go back and continue eating. This is the first time that we eat silently, I don't know what happened earlier but it seems like
they're really affected.
I don't bother myself thinking about the issue. I walk beside the pool, he surprise me here. The memories with him that I don't
want to forget. I love him, so much! but until when? Until when I can handle this? Until when that I'll choose my own happiness?
I soak my feet at the fool, after that I lay at the nest swing.
I play a music while scrolling on my phone, checking some new updates on Instagram.
Oh? R-raze did this?
Raze had an interview earlier.
"Yeah! I'm heartedly owned by Lorence Catherine Celo!" that was the end of his video. He didn't answer some more questions
and didn't give much information about me.
He made me cry, I cried actually.
I'm heartedly owned by my ungentleman billionaire.
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"Lorence! Lorence wake up!"
"Lorence!" I'm shivering, it's cold.
I hug myself.
"M-mother Sharn!" I said and look around.
The skies were dark and the stars shines brightly.
"Why you sleep here?" she worriedly ask.
I'm waiting, I'm waiting for the half of my heart.
"A-ah? ahm! did he--"
"He didn't come home! Go! Get inside" she guide me so I stand. H-he didn't come home? I waited.
I fall asleep waiting.
"Your phone!" Mother Sharn handed me my phone.
Where did he sleep? He's with Sabrina? Is he comforting Sabrina?
We walk inside while my thoughts was totally confused and messed up plus I have my heavy feelings.
I check the time on my phone, it's already 3:40am. Gush! Raze you broke a word.
"Sleep tight Lorence!" I came to my sense because of that.
"M-mother Sharn! I don't know what to do!" I can't stop myself, I cry again.
I'm hugging myself, I'm cold, my heart felt cold.
"I want you to fight! We never saw him happy the way he did with you!" she said and hug me.
"I don't know if I'm able to fight for more, fate loves to play!" I cried, I can't stop it.
I'm mentally affected with emotionally tormented.
"Shh! I know he loves you and I want you to fight for him. Okay?" I end up believing, I end up nodding.
I'll fight if he'll fight with me.
"Good morning!" she said.
So, the new day starts and new experience is waiting.
Is it a heartbreak?
Is it a lasting love?
I don't care, I only want to be happy with him.