SWNOVELS Chapter The Talk
After Kam went to bed, I went back to my room trying to think of some way to get him to tell me about what happened between he and his first mate. I knew this subject was touchy but I needed answers that only he could and should tell me. I could easily ask anyone, hell Chase may know something, but I needed to hear it from him. Now to only figure out how to get it out of him.
I tossed and turned all night long and when the sun began to come up I groaned as the light entered my room lighting it up like an air strip. I hadn't gotten a minute of sleep thinking about all the possible scenarios that could have caused a wolf to reject another. Was she a lower ranking wolf? Was she not pretty enough or was she tainted in some way?
There were so many justifiable reasons to deny what the moon goddess joined and she sometimes corrected her actions but other times she damned them to a life of sorrow and pain and turned their hearts to stone, making it impossible to ever love again. What if that happened to Bishop? What if he was incapable of loving someone? That couldn't be possible because he wouldn't have felt the spark between us and freaked out like he did if it was something like that.
I finally rolled out of my bed and made my way to the bathroom hoping a shower would wake me up. Instead it only made my mood worse as the warm water streamed down my body, igniting every nerve inside me on fire. I frantically washed myself trying to get out as fast as I could cursing under my breath. I wasn't prepared for this and I didn't know what was going to happen so I needed to talk with my Aunt.
I ran to my closet and grabbed some shorts and a shirt and rushed straight down the hall to her office. She was always up early helping to keep the future Luna's duties to a minimum until she came to live at the pack.
"Aunt Penelope." I screamed as I burst through her door.
She was sitting behind her desk and jumped up rushing towards me when I came in.
"Ember, what's wrong?" She said as she wrapped me into a hug.
"I think..."
My body felt like it was crawling with fire ants and every touch intensified it immensely, and not in a good way. I cried out when she squeezed me and she pulled away touching the back of her hand to my forehead and gasped.
"You're burning up. Oh my goddess, Ember you're heat is starting!" She rushed us out the door, careful not to touch me, and straight into her bedroom.
She walked straight past her bed and stopped in front of a tall wooden bookcase, pulling a book off the shelf slightly when a secret door opened illuminating a secret passageway with a soft glow. She motioned for me to follow her down the stairs. We walked all the way down until we reached a metal door with a lock on it. She pulled out a key and placed it in the hole, setting the tumblers inside into motion and the lock popped open. Pushing the door open with her hands, she let it swing into the room and up against the wall.
Inside was a humungous room equipped with a bed, silver walls, and dim lighting. There was a small bathroom with a shower and a toilet. Soft music played from the speakers mounted in the ceiling and the calming scent of lavender and chamomile invaded my nostrils.
"What is this place?" I said as my body began to relax and the stinging feeling faded away.
"This is a room that was made for she-wolves who were going through their heat without their mate. We had a shaman bless it and place hormone subduing sounds, smells and materials all throughout the room. It is the safest place for a female to be if she cannot be with her mate for whatever reason."
"I don't want to be away from my mate."
"I didn't say you had to, but I wanted you to have the option. Sometimes we can't always be with them during our heat like when they are off training or doing pack business, tracking enemies or even when they are trying not to conceive. There are many good reasons for this room but safety is always our top priority in these instances."
"Aunt Penelope, how bad is your first heat?"
She looked at me with confusion then said "Didn't your mother ever explain this to you?"
"No. She always told me that when I met my mate she would explain it to me and I never questioned her because I figured she wouldn't lie to me but as the years went by and every other girl in the pack went through theirs I never seemed to notice a difference. It's like it was masked or something."
"Sit down."
I walked to the edge of the bed and crawled onto it, sitting Indian style up against the headboard and waited for her to begin talking.
"I'm sure you know what it is and why you have one and I don't think I need to explain how it happens so I will just tell you what to expect. During your first heat, you will become one with your wolf and she will use your body as her host. It is the time for your animal side to experience your human emotions through their eyes. You become predatorial, wild, feral like an untamed wolf and your mate is usually the victim of those attacks." She laughed at her last words.
"Why wouldn't I noticed any of that at our old pack?"
"Alpha females are a whole different breed, Em. You probably never realized anything because it is an extremely private thing and most couples tend to be very modest about their love life and we are wolves and no one really questions our choices but with that being said, that doesn't mean we should be taking our bedroom antics into the streets."
We both laughed and continued talking for a few more hours until I felt comfortable enough to leave but she told me that I could come back at any moment, no questions asked if I wanted to. We went back upstairs and the delicious smells of lunch were wafting through the air and the voices of hungry wolves filled the dining room.
After we all found our places and sat down the food was served and we all dug in. I devoured my plate instantly and was looking for seconds when I noticed Mik and Kam staring at me like I had grown three heads but I continued shoveling food into my mouth like I was afraid it would walk off my plate. Once everything was gone I got up and went back to my room for a nap hoping to see Bishop tonight and make him tell me what happened.
So the heat has begun! This can't be good or can it?
Who wouldn't want a few days to themselves in a tranquil room while they were going through their cycle, I mean it kind of sounds like a vacation to me, but then again I'm not a horny she-wolf. Soooooooo.
Do you think she will find Bishop and if she does, how willing is he going to be to tell her what happened in his past?