Chapter 44
Blaine’s POV
I stared down at Anna as I watched her curl into a ball in the corner of the room, instantly feeling bad for the hateful words I had just spat at her. She had risked a lot for me, without her not only would I most likely be dead by the hands of her own mate, but I also never would have found my family and gotten my mother and sister back. Not to mention the fact that I never would have managed to get to know Xavier on the level that I did without her forcing us together.
A tear slipped down my cheek but for once it wasn’t for Xavier, it was for the person I called a friend who I’d just hurt with my cruel words. I released Xavier’s hand and walked over to where Anna was, slightly nervous that she would push me away but knowing I needed to at least try to apologise to her and show her that I regretted my actions.
Hannah looked up from where she sat on the floor, hugging Anna as best she could to try and console her the only way she knew how. Upon seeing me there she scowled up at me, clearly showing that she wasn’t happy with what I had just said. Once she saw the look of regret and guilt in my eyes I guess she could tell I was trying to make amends because she got up and sat in the armchair I had previously been sitting in without a word.
With my back against the wall to use as a support, I slowly slid down the wall until I was sitting next to a still sobbing Anna, taking Hannah’s place as I awkwardly wrapped my arm around her.
“Anna I’m sorry” I muttered as I stared ahead at the wheels attached to Xavier’s bed. “I didn’t mean what I said, I just have a lot of emotions running through my head right now and I took them out on you. It was wrong of me and I apologise” I whispered as I continued my stairing contest with the wheel.
“I will forever be in your dealt for what you have done for me and for what you’ve put on the line for me. You’ve saved my family, saved me and introduced me to the most amazing mate a person can ask for and all I did was yell at you for not doing more” I sighed as I finally broke my stare with the wheel and looked down at her.
She had calmed down significantly by now, only releasing the odd sniff or hiccup here and there as I continued my apology.
“It’s just that with finding out my dad and Daniel may not have survived, feeling an overwhelming amount of guilt because I couldn’t save them, as well as knowing Xavier’s wolf is there but unable to connect with him or the bond because he’s to weak I’m on edge and confused” I sighed.
“You what?” Anna whispered as she lifted her head up from her knees. Her cheeks were streaked with tears and her eyes were all puffy from crying but her eyebrows were drawn into a V, staring confused up at me.
“I’m trying to say I’m sorry Anna” I frowned back at her, had she only now just started listening?
“No I got that, you’re forgiven by the way, what did you just say about feeling his wolf but are unable to connect with him?” She asked, a spark of hope back in her eyes.
“Oh umm...” I muttered, confused why she was suddenly so focused on that piece of information when only five seconds ago she was crying her eyes out. I looked up at Hannah for help but she just shrugged and rolled her eyes mouthing the word hormones to me.
I lifted an eyebrow up at that and looked back down at Anna who was still staring up at me with a small smile on her face. Did hormones really make someone this mood swingy, especially this early on in the pregnancy? I always thought the mood swings came on later.
“I just mean that when I tried to communicate with him through the link earlier, I could feel him trying to respond back but his wolf was just to weak” I shrugged.
I flinched when Anna shot up from her place on the floor and walked over to Xavier, taking his hand in hers as she closed her eyes.
I struggled to get up with her, confused as to why this piece of information has her so excited. In the end I needed Hannah to help me up before we both walked over to Xavier on the other side of the bed from where Anna stood, her head bowed down in concentration.
“Anna what are you doing?” I muttered but got no answer from her as she remained frozen in her position.
Eventually though she finally looked up at us, her eyes glowing a bright pearlescent white as she stared at us through her wolfs eyes.
“I can feel him” she muttered, looking almost bewildered at the fact that she could feel Xavier’s wolf. “I mean I have to really concentrate and use a bit of the Goddesses touch but I can just about feel him” she whispered as she smiled over the bed at me. “I have an idea Blaine, it won’t be easy and it may not work, but it may just save him” she whispered as she stared into my eyes, her facial expression showing the smallest sign of relief.
My heart rate skipped slightly, happiness and adrenaline filling my veins at the prospect that I could get my Xavier back. “What do we need to do” I said with conviction as I stared into her eyes, showing her that I was willing to do whatever it takes to save him from this slow and painful death as the wolfsbane continued to eat away at his flesh.
A few hours later we were all gathered around a table in the hospital waiting room. Seeing as I wasn’t technically discharged yet the doctors stated I had to remain nearby just in case I passed out again or suffered from some form of unseen side effect from the wolfsbane poisoning. Ridiculous if you asked me, apart from feeling a little weak I felt fine. I humoured them though and agreed to stay here for now.
We all sat in silence as we waited for Anna to start explaining her plan. I was sitting with my legs curled up, hooked back up to the IV drip that I’d ripped out earlier, as my eyes kept wandering to the door to Xavier’s room, feeling uneasy at having to leave his side. Jax was also here sitting next to Anna with a protective hand resting over her shoulder.
He hadn’t been to happy to find out that Anna had hidden the pregnancy from him just so that she could come with us on the rescue mission. In fact saying that he ‘wasn’t happy’ was putting it lightly, but he’d quickly got over his anger at her after it had sunken in that he was going to be a dad again. He’d brought her in for a massive hug and refused to let her go ever since the news broke.
Other than Jax, Anna and me sitting here Hannah had also joined us along with Jax’s dad Jackson and Xavier’s doctor Dr Walters. His mum, Emily, was still at their house looking after JJ but was insistant on being kept in the loop through the link between her and Jackson.
“So what’s this amazing plan you have Anna?” Hannah asked as she, like the rest of us, stared over at her expectantly.
“Well I thought of it when Blaine said that she could feel Xavier’s wolf but he was too weak to respond to any form of communication we tried to have with him. I was thinking that maybe if we bring his wolf out using the connection Blaine has to him then maybe his wolf could heal Xavier quicker and stop the effects of the poisoning from progressing before it’s to late” she explained as she looked over all of us.
I frowned along with everyone else as we thought over her plan. “But Anna” Jackson muttered as he looked over at her “we have no way of being able to reach out to him with you being unable to host the Goddess. Not to mention if we try and force his wolf to do something faster than he is able to then it could kill not only Xavier’s wolf but him as well” he explained.
“But every second we leave him the wolfsbane is doing further damage, we need to do this now before it’s to late and he’s to far gone for us to help” Anna said as she looked over at Xavier’s doctor, hoping that he would back her up in some way.
“We aren’t disagreeing with the facts Anna, we all know what happens to a wolf who continues to suffer from long term exposure, but we just don’t have the knowledge or resources to achieve it” the doctor explained with a sigh. “Not to mention we have no idea what kind of strain that would put on Blaine”.
Everyone looked over at me but I ignored them as I looked over at Anna, assessing just how sure she was of her plan. “What would I need to do?” I asked her, ignoring the faces around me as they tried to silently protest.
“With your mate bond, a blood bond at that, you have a stronger connection to him than any of us. I’m suggesting that I feed the energy from the Goddess from me and into you so that you have the power to penetrate his mind and re-energise his wolf” she explained as she leaned forward. “That way my body is safe from feeling the full effects of Her touch but Xavier can still get the help he deserves”.
“But Blaine is still healing from her own encounter from the wolfsbane, is there someone else that could possibly do it, your mum maybe? Someone stronger? I mean I’m his Alpha and his best friend, that type of connection must count for something right?” Jax asked as he looked down at his mate.
She sighed before shaking her head, “the connection’s not strong enough” she explained. “The blood bond is the strongest bond two wolves can share and I don’t even know if that would be enough” she shrugs as she looks over at me. “I don’t know if this will work, but it’s the only thing I can think of to try and help save Xavier” she muttered.
“It’s worth a shot” I shrugged as I looked over everyone who had gathered in the small waiting room. “You’ve all done so much for me, let me do this one thing for you, for all of us” I said with a nod. “Besides this may not even work in the first place so there really is no point in stressing over the what ifs just yet” I muttered as I stood up with the help of the arm rest.
“Blaine are you sure about this?” Anna asked as we all walked back over to Xavier’s room. “Something like this has never been attempted before and we have no idea how this could affect you in the short or long run” she explained as she took my hand in hers.
“I want him back just as much as you do Anna” I smiled as I squeezed her hand in mine “and I’m going to do everything in my power to get him back to me, to all of us” I stated as we walked into his room.
“What first Anna?” I asked as I stood next to Xavier who was still lying flat on his bed, unmoved from when I last saw him.
“Okay so get up on the bed with Xavier and take his hand in yours” she explained as she pointed to the small space that was available next to him.
With some wiggling and maneuvering I was finally up on the bed next to him, holding back tears as I noticed the lack of tingles I felt when I took his hand in mine.
“Okay so Blaine I am going to take your other hand and use it as a channel to feed a small amount of the Goddesses touch through me and into you. It’s more than likely you’ll pass out from the strength of it, just don’t fight it and focus on your link with Xavier and his wolf.” She explained as she looked down at me. “We will all be hear monitoring everything so just focus on the task at hand alright?” She asked as she took me free hand in hers.
“Well it’s now or never” I muttered as I closed my eyes and waited.
“Good luck Blaine” someone muttered to my right but I didn’t have time to respond because before I could even think of forming a syllable a blinding pain shot through my arm and began to weave its way through my body.
I screamed in pain as my wolf came through, causing my eyes to shift colour and my claws and teeth to extend. This pain was so much worse than anything I could possibly imagine, worse than the wolfsbane and definitely worse than the first shift.
“Fight the shift Blaine” I heard someone yell at me, but it sounded so in the distance it was almost a whisper. “Fight the shift” they screamed again but before I could respond blackness consumed me and I was pulled into sleep.
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So I’m really wanting to write the next chapter in maybe Anna’s point of view? Would anyone oppose to that or would you be okay with it?
Much love to all and hope you’re all doing okay in this trying time ❤️