SWNOVELS Chapter 181
181 Sex is Sex is not love … Lyla It was meant as a joke , honestly but in the next instant , Nannys countenance changed .
Her face which had been lit with a smile a moment ago , went dull .
She lowered her gaze and refused to meet my eyes .
You should go now ! she murmured And you could tell him that youre tired .
Im sure he wont force you , she added again , before walking away .
I stood there for a few minutes , watching her leave , wondering if I had gone too far with the joke .
It was harmless and honestly , I didnt think shed react to it like that .
I meant nothing more .
Shrugging , I started towards the pack house .
Veering off to the quarters where Nathan was lodged .
Before I entered his room , I slipped the tablet into my back pocket before knocking .
The door flew open immediately .
Nathan didnt look , please .
I was beginning to think you wont come .
Im sorry , my love , I said brightly , walking past him inside the room .
There was a low table in the middle of the room decorated with coloured candles and some lover centrepieces .
There was a small wine bucket too , and two glasses on the table .
There was a food tray by the corner that was still covered up .
On a special night like this , we should be together , he complained again , pouting .
In a bid to broker peace , I went up to him , wounding my hands around his neck .
Im sorry , babe .
We got carried away girl talk .
His hands rested on my waist as he pulled me closer .
If I kiss you , Ill feel better .
My heart dropped .
The position I was with him currently , was giving the kind of vibes he wanted , coupled with the ambience of the room .
Everything screamed I WANT YOU .
I nodded .
He didnt need to be told twice , he gathered me into his arms as his lips pressed into mine .
His hands roamed my body with such urgency , that made me wonder if I would leave his room with my clothes still intact .
His hands found the side zipper of the ceremonial gown I had on and he unzipped it without breaking contact .
I could feel him losing control .
The dress was too long or maybe intricated for him to thug down , so he let it go .
Instead , he lifted me into his arms , kissing my neck , and undoing his buttons .
He dropped me gently on the bed before shrugging This shirt .
My heart was pounding wildly in my chest as I tried to think of a way to solve this problem .
He tugged at his trousers until they joined the small heap of clothes he had started .
I took in a shaky breath , as I drank the sight of him .
Toned muscles rippled and gleamed in the glow of the candlelight but that wasnt all , his erection stood tall and proud , feeling like a long and thick extension of his body .
Ive not been with a man since Ramsey That aside , I had zero idea of what to do with a man .
Maybe , if I tried to give him pleasure first , hed get tired and let me go .
As soon as the thought just crossed my mind , he was already next to me .
His fingers found my bra hook and he was already undoing it .
Wait ! I rested my hand on his arms .
His gaze had darkened with desire but he managed to turn and look at me .
The wine … my throat is parched He didnt say anything .
He crossed the room in quick strides and came back with the bottle of wine and two glasses .
He had a sheepish grin on his face as he sat next to me and broke the seal .
So sorry about that , we need to toast to us .
He finished working the seal and poured a moderate amount into the glasses before we clinked it together , congratulating ourselves .
Just as I finished the last drop of my wine , he came to me again .
Nathan ! I said quietly .
Can we not do ? He was working the side zipper and was already huffing in .
frustration but he paused .
Not this again , Lyla … he sighed and cupped my face .
Darling , please … Ill burst if I dont have you .
please … I want you so badly … I nodded .
I know and I … w want you just as much I stuttered .
That was a lie .
Its just that , Im tired and can you just wait a bit … please … He stared at me for a few seconds and then rose to his feet , picking up his discarded pants and slipping them on .
Are you angry with me ? I asked in a tiny voice .
Im not angry at you , Lyla ; he glanced at me before picking his shirt and slipping it on .
Neither am I happy with you .
I also will not force you to do what you dont want to .
Its fine .
He started walking to the door .
But youre leaving ? I was still on his bed .
And youre not happy , Nathan Im leaving because I dont trust myself to be in the same room as you .
Second , I am not happy .
Lyla .
I have desires and wants plus Im crazy about you .
Its normal for me to want to pour out these emotions physically Sex is not love ! The words slipped out of my mouth unintentionally .
When I looked up , he was staring at me with disbelief on his face .
Dont make this about , Ramsey , please , though his voice was still a whisper , I could feel the hardness behind it .
Can we just go for a day without him being invisible in our relationship ? You cannot use your experience from him and conclude that … Thats not what I meant , Nathan .
Cmon , I was just making a statement and youre bringing Sex is not love Ramsey into our conversation and not me .
I told you ; I have nothing to do with him again .
Were history ! Okay ! he said quietly .
Ill take your word for it .
Im going for a run .
Without waiting for a reply from me , he slipped out of his room .