SWNOVELS Chapter 66: She growled at me!
Kane woke a little while later, to the cutest little sound he has ever heard. Dax was sitting up in between his legs with her back to him.
“Grrrr!” Is she trying to growl? Ky asked, equally amused. I think she might be!
“Grrrr!” That is the cutest thing I ever heard! He was trying not to laugh as he listened to her attempt to growl and then huff, when it didn’t sound right.
“Grrrr!” She sounds like an adorable puppy! Yes she does, but I don’t think that’s what she’s going for. Maybe we should help her! I think we should!
“Grrrr!” He saw her shoulders slump. ….grrRrRrrrRrRrrr…. She ducked her head, when he released a low growl from behind her.
“What are you doing baby?” He asked, sitting up wrapping his arms around her, pulling her back towards his chest.
“Nothing!” She said, pressing her lips together.
“Are you trying to growl?” He asked,
“Maybe!” She replied, covering his hands with hers.
“Let me hear!” He urged,
“Don’t laugh at me!” She said quietly,
“I won’t laugh at you,” he promised,
“Grrrr!” He bit back the chuckle, but couldn’t hide the smile.
“That is the cutest thing I ever heard!” He remarked,
“I don’t want to be cute, I want to be scary” she huffed. He moved his hands to her diaphragm just under her breasts.
“It starts here, then moves up” he slid his hands between the valley allowing his thumbs to graze her. She gasped at the movement sitting straighter against him.
“Then it spreads across your chest, starting as a low rumble but getting louder and stronger as your chords rub together and then you release it” one hand moving across her chest as his fingers of his other hand trailed up her throat. ….grrRrrRrrRrrr…. He released a low sensual growl in her ear, a shiver running up her back.
“It’s easier if you attach it to an emotion or feeling.” His lips brushed past her ear, her breath catching.
“Grrrr!” She felt him smile, running his hands back down her.
“Try again, focus on the sound you want to make, the feeling and pull in air and fill your diaphragm.” Closing her eyes Dax focused on what she was feeling and the sound she wanted to make.
“Now release it as your chords rub together.” She did as she was instructed. His hands trailing back up following the air she brought into her. He felt the small ripple across her chest, and the vibration of her throat. ….grRrRrRrr…. The sound was low, seductive, enticing, his eyes blackened as a shiver ran up his spine. His hands stilled on her body, excitement filling him. He fought to control the heat that sparked the raging inferno inside of him to come to life. She might not have meant to wake his animal side, but that was what she succeeded in doing.
“Hey, I did it,” the smile on her lips fell, when she turned to see the look on his face. “Did I not make the right sound?” She asked. His lips claimed hers, hard, demanding and wanting. He released his own seductive growl with his control out the window, he wanted her…..now. He pulled the ties to her hospital gown pulling it away from her, his hands travelled up and down her body. She felt him hard against her back pressing into her. Slipping his hand beneath the fabric of her panties and sweatpants he felt her wet and ready. She moaned against his mouth when he started moving in slow circles around her. She arched and pressed into his hand as he pleasured her. She found the zipper to his pants and working it down she released him. Matching him speed for speed, she made slow strokes up and down the length of him. Releasing his own moan at her touch, he picked up his speed and she followed, pushing him, driving him. He moaned again, removing his hand he also removed her bottoms and his. He positioned her facing him on his lap as he entered her.
She controlled the speed and the movement, he controlled the depth. Rocking into him as he pushed deeper into her over and over. His hands on her hips, as his lips found hers again. Never wanting to break contact, he felt himself building and building her movements getting faster and faster, harder and harder. Building higher and higher as he pushed deeper and deeper, he pressed his lips harder to hers. Her moans grew louder, the deeper he pushed, his becoming louder the faster and harder she rocked. They began to shake as wave after wave of pleasure hit them, one more push, one more rock and they were swept away by a tidal wave of bliss. Both breathing hard he collapsed back onto the bed pulling her with him.
“I’m not sure what sound you were trying to make, but I don’t think it was waking my animal side” he finally spoke when his breathing calmed down enough to allow it.
“Nope, not what I was going for, but I’ll have to remember that one.” She replied, still breathing heavily.
“Please do!” He chuckled “What were you going for?”
“Scary!” She confessed,
“Oh! Promise me, until you get the hang of it no growling around the others” He said,
“Why?” She lifted her head to look at him.
“If you make that sound around the others, you’ll wake their animal side as well.” He gave her a look, her eyes widened.
“Oh! Ok, I won’t growl around anyone but you” she promised,
“Good! That growl is only for my ears.” Dax giggled at the satisfied smile on his face.
“Why were you trying to growl?” He asked,
“Maybe there’s another way to wake her up, that doesn’t involve you having to bite me. If I can help her remember what she is, or help her figure out what she is then it’s worth a try….right?” He nodded his head.
“Is that something you want?” He asked,
“She deserves to know and to exist beyond a voice in my head.” That didn’t answer his question, but she was who she was and others always seemed to matter more to her, than she did to herself.
“If I’m your mate, then wouldn’t she be Ky’s mate?” He again nodded his head. “Ky deserves to have his mate as well.”
“That being said, if the only way to wake her up is to bite me, I’m not sure I can go through with that. If something happens and it doesn’t work, I would die and that would destroy you both, I don’t want that to happen.” He pressed his lips to hers for a passionate kiss.
“I love you! You are truly one of the most beautiful people I have ever met. You have no idea how special you really are. I will do whatever I can to help.” Pressing his lips to hers again.
“Even if that means being turned on by every growl I attempt to make.” She smiled against his lips.
“That is a sacrifice I will happily make,” he smiled back, nipping her bottom lip. He threaded his fingers in her hair pulling her in for a deeper kiss
A knock at the door interrupted them from proceeding beyond what they were doing.
“BUSY! GO AWAY!” Kane yelled at the door, he had no intentions of getting out of the bed with his naked mate.
“Did you forget?” Johnny called through the door.
“WHAT?” He yelled back.
“The storage locker and Bob called, said he wanted to have an emergency town meeting,” Johnny reminded him.
“FUCK!” Kane yelled at no one in particular, he did forget. He ran his hands through his hair. He didn’t want to get out of the bed, he didn’t want to leave her.
“Sounds important,” she said,
“Just visiting the storage locker, the town meeting is probably just to discuss the Art Festival again” He replied, he begrudgingly dragged himself from the bed. Fuck, he really didn’t want to go.
“Oh god, that dreadful art show is coming back. No offence but it fucking sucks and should just be cancelled.” A slight grimace crossed her face.
“Tell me how you really feel about it.” He started getting dressed, chuckling amused by her response.
“I’m sorry, is it important to you.” She looked at him slightly shocked as she too started getting dressed. Maybe she shouldn’t have said anything.
“No, it was supposed to be cancelled, but the council had an idea, that I should ask you if you were interested in heading it up this year.” He watched her trying to gauge what her reaction would be.
“Are they fucking crazy?” Dax asked, her movements stilling as she scrunched her face up.
“That’s what I asked, they are apparently quite serious. They are curious to see what would happen if an artist tried their hand at it, before they put it to bed permanently.” Putting on a clean hospital gown so he could tie the back closed. Dax looked around the room, then back at him. As much as she hated being in the medical ward, she was safe here.
“I don’t think that’s a very good idea.” She said, shaking her head. The thought of being caught in the open scared her, though she knew Kane would have an army of protection around her, she wouldn’t feel comfortable.
“I don’t either, that was last Wednesday, too much has happened since then and it would put you too out in the open. I’m not willing to risk any more happening to you. Alpha Thomas is going to coordinate it this year, and he was wondering if you’d be willing to donate a few pieces.” He pulled her into his arms, reassuring her that she was safe here.
“Tell him he can use whatever he wants in the warehouse,’ She said, snuggling into his arms.
He opened the door to her room to find Johnny leaning against the wall, an amused look on his face.
“Shut up!” He muttered. Johnny just shook his head, trying to contain his laughter.
“I’ll be back in a bit. I will stop by the warehouse if you want. Just send me a list of what you need,” he offered.
“Ok!” She nodded her head, trying not to let her fear get the best of her, she put on a brave face.
“I love you!” He whispered.
“I love you too!” She whispered back, he kissed her then and moved towards the door.
“I’ll be back soon!” He promised, giving her one last look.
“Enjoy your meeting!” She said nodding her head, hoping her voice won’t show what she’s feeling inside. Dax didn’t want him to go, but he had obligations.
Stepping into the hall he closed the door behind him.
“You two are fucking adorable!” Johnny couldn’t help himself, Kane could hear the note of sarcasm in his voice though.
“Remind me again why I haven’t broken your neck!” Kane said to him, his cheeks darkening slightly. Johnny just laughed.
“Cause I’m one of the few crazy enough to put up with your shit and I fix everything you break. Without me this house would be falling down around you.” Johnny replied. Kane had to give that to him, he does break a lot of shit, especially when he’s in a bad mood.
“You two are getting quite the reputation down here.” Johnny remarked after a bit.
“What? Why?” Kane asked, looking at him. Johnny looked him up and down taking in his rumpled shirt and tousled hair.
“You’re not….quiet!” Johnny smirked, when he saw the look cross his friend’s face. The blush in Kane’s cheeks darkened.
“She growled at me!” He said,
“She growled at you? Like Grrrr, growl” this was getting funnier.
“No, like growled, growled” Kane responded, though a hint of pride filled his voice.
“She growled?!” Both a question and a statement, Johnny looked at him.
“Damon must have told you he unintentionally let it slip that she wasn’t entirely human, but it was Lydia who ended up telling her.” Johnny nodded a grin sneaking onto his face, but he waited for Kane to continue.
“I woke up to her practising” Kane was saying,
“Practising?” Johnny asked,
“She sounded like an adorable puppy, so I instructed her how to do it properly and she released one….that woke up my more….primal side. Not what she was going for.” Johnny’s eyes went wide, before he broke out laughing.
“What was she going for?” He choked out,
“Scary!” Kane replied, his own smile pulling at his lips.
“I think she missed” Johnny howled,
“Just slightly!” He was shaking his head.
As they walked past the nurses station Kane saw two quivering she-wolves on the ground.
“Nurses were talking as I walked in and overheard them say you two were like bunnies and they were shocked that she wasn’t pregnant with how often you two go at it. Then there was a sterile or infertile comment I don’t know, I didn’t quite hear it.” Johnny explained as he caught the questioning look from Kane.
“I oh so gently reminded them it was not their place to be making such comments of their Alpha or Luna” He added.
“What has you in a bad mood?” Kane asked, looking over at Johnny, judging by the scowl on his face this wasn’t just any bad mood.
“What did Lacey do this time?” He added, the mere mention of her name caused Johnny’s shoulders to visibly tense up and a low growl to be released.
“Because I won’t get involved in what’s going on between you two, she says I am siding with you. And because I’m siding with you then I really don’t love her and I can’t sleep in my own fucking bed, in my own fucking room. She physically kicked me out of the fucking bed.” The more Johnny spoke the madder he got.
“You’re kidding?” The look on Johnny’s face told him he wasn’t. He was really hoping Lacey would take what he said to heart and grow the fuck up already, clearly she has not.
“She packed a bag and dropped it outside the bedroom door. I am losing my shit, I don’t know how much more I can fucking take, before I snap. Do you want to know how bad it is? I am looking forward to this town meeting, so I can get the fuck out of here and away from her for a few hours. I don’t think this is the pregnancy anymore, I don’t know what this is but it’s not that.” Johnny’s body radiated anger. Kane couldn’t believe this, what his sister was doing was insane.
“Kick her out!” Kane declared,
“Yeah I should….Wait! What?” Johnny looked at him, shock abolished his anger.
“Kick her out, if she doesn’t want to share your fucking bed, in your fucking room, then tell her she can fucking leave. Pack her a fucking bag, drop it outside the fucking door, and kick her the fuck out!” Kane stated it as clearly as he could. “Now lets get the fuck out of here for a few hours, where’s Kenneth?”
“Uh….in the kitchen with Damon” Johnny was still trying to process what was just said to him.
“You boys look like hell!” Damon commented as he looked from Marco to Carter who were sitting at the island in the kitchen. Marco’s head was down resting on his arms, while Carter was wearing sunglasses trying his best to hold his head up.
“How much did we drink?” Carter slurred.
“Il fottuto bar! (The fucking bar)” came Marco’s muffled reply. “Mai più! Probabilmente Jackie è fottutamente incazzata, non le ho seppellito di nuovo le scarpe, vero? È ancora incazzata dall’ultima volta che l’ho fatto. (Jackie’s probably fucking pissed, I didn’t bury her shoes again did I? She’s still pissed from the last time I did that.)” Damon looked at Kenneth; he wasn’t even trying to cover his grin.
“I’ll explain that one later” Kenneth said laughing,
“Actually, you boys didn’t have a drop, that’s the side effects of being shot with a tranq dart. Next time we’ll just put you down.” Marco lifted his head, squinting as he looked back and forth between Damon and Kenneth.
“Perché cazzo ci hai sparato? (Why the fuck you shoot us?)” He asked,
“Assholes!” Carter stated unapologetically,
“Someone’s fucking cranky when their hungover.” Kenneth remarked, laughing harder. Carter just made a face at him.
“What do you boys remember?” It was becoming clear, they didn’t remember much about the last few days.
“Ring” Marco groaned, putting his head back down.
“Waking up and seeing Lydia,” Carter answered.
“Well Lydia accidentally shot you after you startled her, and I intentionally shot Marco before he lost his shit in the office, because the ringing in his ears was driving him crazy.” Damon explained.
“I didn’t say or do anything embarrassing did I?” Carter asked, looking at Damon. He looked at Kenneth who’s grin got bigger.
“Actually you were pretty chatty” Damon responded,
“Really?” Carter questioned,
“Oh yeah! Told me repeatedly that Kane scares the fuck out you, including while we were standing in the room with him.” Damon answered him,
“I said that!” Carter’s mouth dropped open.
“Also told me that man servant replaced the man whore tattoo on my forehead” Damon nodded,
“I did, I’m so sorry!” Carter apologized,
“That’s what you said yesterday as well. Let’s see what else oh yeah, laid the doctor out, because he told you too, at least he did in your fucked up little head when he told you to put him out of his misery. Said Brandon locks you guys out of the house a lot and you go through a lot of doors, you put him through one once, but that was for a completely different reason. Feisty pants stopped you there before you could give away too much information. Speaking of her you lost her, then panicked cause you weren’t certain how you lost a whole person.” Damon continued explaining.
“Did I find her?” Carter asked, growing a little concerned.
“Yeah she was under the desk. You also knocked out two guards Kane sent to watch her door, because he needed you to do something, so he had to send two more and tell you not to hit them. Lost your shit because you were used as show and tell in the morgue. And fought with this one like you were 4 year old boys, including hitting him with a book because he pushed you. Anything else?” Damon looked at Kenneth.
“I think that covers it,” Kenneth replied. Carter could hear Marco snickering beside him.
“Why are you laughing? You lost your shit over a box of ears, you jumped over the back of the couch. Then proceeded to go on about how they were people’s ears from people in the box and not on their heads or in the ground. Made us all well aware that they were people’s ears. Then took the first opportunity you could to run the fuck out of the room. You didn’t stop going on about them till I gave the box to you to bury somewhere on the property. Johnny is having a fit because you killed something and buried that somewhere as well. On top of that pestered the fuck out of me to make sure Carter didn’t touch your stuff.” Kenneth said,
“Una scatola di orecchie? (A box of ears?)” Marco asked, looking at him. Kenneth nodded, then motioned to his ears so Damon understood.
“Found it in one of the locked boxes you guys brought back from Magnus’s warehouse.” Damon responded,
“That’s gross!” Carter remarked,
“That’s what you said when they spilled all over the floor after feisty pants opened the box.” Damon said, turning to Carter,
“I….bury?” Marco asked,
“You were pretty upset they weren’t in the ground. Because Apparently when you sever body parts you bury them like a normal person. When I asked how many limbs you’ve buried you just looked at me. New York must be crawling with buried body parts.” Damon answered laughing,
“What….I uccidere….kill?” Marco looked from Damon to Kenneth.
“We didn’t ask!” Kenneth replied,
“Johnny’s….pazzo….mad?” Marco focused on Kenneth,
“Well he ain’t happy!” Damon answered.
Kane and Johnny walked into the kitchen at that point. Both Carter and Marco shrank back on the bar stools they were sitting on.
“What’s going on here?” Kane asked,
“Just filling the boys in on what they did over the last few days” Damon replied with a grin,
“You boys look like hell!” Johnny stated looking back and forth between the two.
“Oh I think they feel like hell!” Kenneth said laughing,
“Not much is going to get accomplished today, you should go be with Lydia” Kane told Damon,
“I was with Lydia, then Lacey called upset, something about Johnny being an asshole and not taking her side and she needed to come right away” Damon replied,
“She called Seraphine and Jackie as well, said pretty much the same thing.” Kenneth commented. Johnny released a low growl.
“I’ll be in the fucking truck!” He stormed out of the kitchen into the garage breaking the door behind him when he slammed it.
“Whoa! What the fuck?” Damon looked concerned after he watched Johnny walk out. Kenneth raised his eyebrow as they both turned back to Kane.
“Princess up to her fucking shit again?” Damon asked, Kane only nodded.
“What the fuck happened?” Damon inquired,
“Johnny refuses to get involved with what’s going on between Lacey and myself. I don’t blame him, I wouldn’t get involved if it was Johnny and Lacey. Because he won’t get involved and choose a side she says he doesn’t love her and he’s on my side. Not only did she kick him out of the bed but she kicked him out of the room.” Kane explained,
“No shit!” Damon gapped,
“Packed his bag and threw it out the door. He’s looking forward to the town meeting today so he can get the fuck out of here and away from her for a few hours, his words not mine.” Kane replied,
“What did you say?” Kenneth asked,
“I told him to kick her out, why should he have to leave? If she doesn’t want to share a room or a bed with him then pack her bag and she can leave. I was really hoping she would grow the fuck up.” Kane answered.
“What’s he going to do?” Kenneth asked,
“I don’t know, we are getting him the fuck out of the house for a few hours though. He’ll hopefully cool off.” Kenneth nodded and started walking towards the garage.
“I’ll fix the door,” Damon offered. “If she turns Lydia against me, I’ll be fucking pissed” Damon added Kane nodded.
“Do what you have to do. Keep an eye on Dax, she’s vulnerable right now and alone in the medical ward. If Lacey went after Lydia and Seraphine, she might go after her as well.” Kane wouldn’t be mad if Damon said anything to Lacey again, better Damon then him. Ky is already angry with her, if she turned Dax against him Ky would lose it and there is no telling what he would do then.
“Sure I can watch feisty pants, do some sibling bonding.” Damon said, shrugging,
“Her reaction didn’t upset you?” Kane asked, a little amused,
“Nah! She got hit with a shit storm of information earlier, coupled with everything that’s going on it’s a lot to process.” Damon replied,
“Maybe you can answer some of her questions then” Kane said,
“What questions?” Damon asked, curious.
“I answered what I could, but she wants to know why she was dropped on the steps of the church and not with Bruno.” Kane replied,
“I asked Lydia that question as well.” Damon confessed,
“If she was, she would have ended up being raised by my dad and Edward.” Kane remarked,
“Don’t be so sure. I wrecked his life, but he would have accepted her, he wanted kids, just not me.” Upon seeing the confusion on Kane’s face, Damon felt obligated to explain.
“Eliza couldn’t get pregnant, something about a hostile womb and him being two six shooters with only one bullet in the chamber. Didn’t stop them from trying every March though. Don’t ask! They found out a few years after me. He would fuck off near the end of March and show back up the beginning of April” a look of sadness crossed his face for a second then disappeared.
“You didn’t wreck his life Damon, he did that to himself, he could have had a family, you were his blood he chose to deny that not you, don’t forget that. Besides it wasn’t so bad having you at the house all the time, Lacey irritated the fuck out of me, fuck she still does just on a whole other level.” Kane assured him,
“Anyway got me thinking, fate is an obstacle in the way, sometimes people can be obstacles. What if she tried? What if someone stood in her way of dropping feisty pants off in Bruno’s arms? What if that’s what was supposed to happen? Not the abuse she went through, I don’t think fate even saw that coming. But maybe she wasn’t supposed to show up here then.” Damon went on. What he was saying made sense, they repeated history so the outcome would have been the same as well. She would have dropped her off with Bruno.
“That makes sense, if Bruno would have wanted her, then it would have been Eliza who stood in the way.” Kane concluded,
“She could have threatened her.” Damon was guessing, but it sounded like something Eliza would have done.
“Fear is a powerful motivator,” Kane added, that gave him something to think about.
“You might want to catch him!” Kane added pointing at Carter who was about to fall off his chair. Damon had him before he hit the ground.
“How about we get you both to a bed?” Damon said. Marco grunted his head still down.
“Good luck with that!” Kane said. Johnny laid on the horn.
"FUCK! LET’S GO!" He yelled,
“Good luck with that!” Damon replied back.
Kane walked out of the kitchen to a very impatient Johnny sitting in the truck. He just looked at him as he climbed in the truck, he barely had the door closed before Johnny hit the gas and peeled out of the garage.
“The fuck took so long?” Johnny grumbled, Kenneth just sat quietly in the back seat holding on as Johnny swerved onto the driveway heading away from the pack house.
“Listen Johnny….” Kane started to say,
“Sorry! I’m tired. I’m tired and I’m fed up. I can’t take anymore shit. I’ve put up with enough, I didn’t even do anything. Now she’s pulling others into it and you better believe she’s telling them this is all my fault and how much of an asshole I am, all because I won’t choose her fucking side. It’s your fight, yours, not mine, yours. I want to stay out of it. It’s between you and her, not you, me and her. Will she tell them that? No, no, no it would make her look fucking crazy….she is fucking crazy! It’s your fight, your feud with her and yet I’m the fucking bad guy. I’ve done nothing wrong, nothing and I’m the bad guy.” A low growl released from Johnny as he shook his head, then continued before anyone else could speak.
“I’ve stood there and let her yell at me for no fucking reason, I’ve let her break our shit cause she’s got no fucking aim and I’m pretty safe standing in the middle of the fucking room. She’s hit me, kicked me and pissed me off more times than I can even count. I’ve reached my shit limit. Diego doesn’t understand what’s going on but he won’t shut up in my head and he won’t talk to Camilla. He refuses. In fact he’s never wanted to talk to them, he’s never wanted to be present around them. And the one time he was he ignored them and chased a bunny instead. Now he growls every time he sees them. He growls Kane, he fucking growls when he sees Lacey. I don’t think that’s supposed to happen. In fact I’m pretty fucking sure that’s not supposed to happen. I can’t ask him about it, the mere mention of her name and he growls. I ask him about Camilla and he calls her a furry bitch and not worth his time. That’s our mate, and he hates them. Hates them, he fucking hates them. Has that ever happened? No I don’t think it has. We’re supposed to cherish our mates, love them, nope Diego hates his. How did this happen?” The steering wheel was protesting under Johnny’s grip, Kane could see it starting to bend from the stress his brother was putting on it.
“We all have a breaking point!” Kane said.
“Breaking point! Yeah, a fucking breaking point. My breaking point fucking broke and I can’t do it anymore.” Johnny huffed, this was not what was supposed to happen. He was angry and scared, mates were sacred, something to protect and cherish and his wolf wanted to kill theirs. How is he supposed to tell his Alpha that? How is he supposed to tell his Alpha, his mate’s brother, that the bond between him and his sister broke, that he stopped fighting for it?
“I feel like such a little bitch. Your little feisty pants has put up with ten times the shit I have and she’s still going. Like the energizer fucking bunny.” Johnny vented. “She has so many fucking psychos chasing her and one is cutting off people’s ears and putting them in boxes for fuck sakes and she’s still going. Hell she fucking opened the box of severed ears, and she’s still going” Kane just sat there quietly in the front seat and let him rant. He needed it. Every once in a while he would catch Kenneth’s eyes in the rear view, he was trying to mask the amusement he found in this situation.
“And it just keeps coming at her. She gets hit by a car, she’s Damon’s sister, finds out she’s a werewolf and what’s her first thought, better learn how to growl. And she does aimed for scary but ended up making you horny as fuck.” Kenneth bit back a laugh at that remark. “Maybe she’s not a werewolf, maybe she’s a fucking robot cause she’s still fucking going.” Johnny added, Kane looked down at his fingers in his lap as Johnny continued his rant.
“How fucking strong is she supposed to be? Now I really feel like a bitch boy, the only thing I’m dealing with is a selfish, spoiled as fuck nutjob who not only kicked my ass out of the bed, but out of the room, my room. FUCK THAT! She can get out. It’s my fucking room, it’s my fucking bed. She doesn’t want to share she can sleep on the fucking couch in a different fucking room, on a separate fucking level, in some other fucking house. She spends my money on shit she doesn’t even need, she has more clothes then she could ever wear in this lifetime. She contributes nothing to help anybody and uses being the Alpha’s sister to pretty much get whatever she wants and if she doesn’t she pouts and its my fucking fault. Goddess forbid someone piss her off, she sends you after them. Brother, you have no fucking idea how many battles you fought for her that she fucking started” Kane looked over at Johnny, he had a feeling there were many many battles, but it was his next comment that made his eyes widen.
“Hey, can we send Lacey to sleep at the loft?” Johnny asked, looking at Kane. Kane had to turn away from him to hide the look on his face. He was stuck somewhere between laughing at what Johnny was saying and being concerned over what Johnny was saying. Johnny was saying a lot, but there was something he wasn’t saying.
“Probably not! Too much has happened there and we didn’t clean any of it up, and the fucking psycho might show up while she’s there. She’s pissed me the fuck off, but I don’t want to see anything bad happen to her, she’s carrying my baby. Maybe Damon can scare the fuck out of her again. That I would let happen, not Ky though, he’s too volatile and holy fucking hostile towards her, he’d rip her to pieces. Right now I don’t blame him, I’m feeling a little fucking hostile as well. Maybe Marco had the right idea and just go fucking kill something.” Kane’s eyes widened at that, he looked in the rear view mirror at Kenneth, he wasn’t the only one shocked by Johnny’s latest outburst. Kenneth sat back farther pushing himself into the back seat. Huffing a few more times Johnny finally fell into silence, Kane looked at Kenneth to say something. He just shook his head, after the kill something comment, Kenneth had nothing to say, he didn’t feel like becoming that something.
“Feel better?” Kane asked, choosing his words carefully.
“Actually, yeah I do,” Johnny replied, stretching out his neck. Kane nodded. “I’d feel a lot better if I said this all to her. Damon’s right it would be cathartic.” He added as an afterthought.
“Maybe you should” Kane suggested,
“What?” Johnny looked at him bewildered,
“Maybe you should tell her exactly how you feel, every word of it. Tell her Diego hates them and it’s taking everything in your control to stop him from lashing out. Hell maybe let him growl at them, don’t suppress it. When she asks why, unleash it all. She’ll either smarten the fuck up or she won’t and you’ll have a decision to make and which ever you choose….I’ll back you up! Brothers don’t let brothers face the firing squad alone. You’ve done nothing wrong, and you shouldn’t have to be treated like that.” Kane replied. Johnny would glance at the road then back at Kane. Was his Alpha telling him he’d sever the bond between him and Lacey? He didn’t know what to say so he said nothing, he even glanced in the rear view mirror and saw the wide eyes and bewildered look on Kenneth’s face.
“I think she’s reached her limit as well.” Kane said, after a bit of silence.
“What? Who?” Johnny asked.
“Dax….I think she’s reached her….shit limit. She was afraid to be alone in our room, which was the only reason she was in the office, when she opened the ears. But, I think the car was the last straw for her. She didn’t try to get out of the medical ward, when she woke up, hell she looked relieved when the doctor said she wasn’t leaving till maybe Sunday, and I’m pretty sure she’ll try and convince him she needs to stay longer. And when I mentioned the town council wanting her to head up the art show, she damn near had a panic attack at the thought of having to leave the property. She’s terrified, a pack house full of werewolves and she feels the safest hiding in the medical ward.” Kane explained.
“And the reason she is learning to growl, is because she says her wolf deserves to be more than a voice in her head and Ky deserves his mate. I don’t even know if it’s what she wants. She wants to see if there’s another way to wake her up that doesn’t have to do with me biting her. There’s always the risk that it won’t work and could end up killing her, and she knows that would destroy me, so she wants to find another way.” He added,
“What if there’s no other way?” Kenneth asked,
“Then I don’t think she’ll go through with it,” Kane replied,
“Sounds like she’s using the whole wake the wolf as a distraction.” Johnny commented,
“Then let her!” Kane said,
“You didn’t have to come, you could have just sent Kenneth and me. You could have stayed with her, I would have ranted at him.” Johnny responded. Giving a half laugh Kane rubbed his forehead.
“Truthfully I think I needed to get the fuck out of the house too. Focus on something more normal at least for a few hours anyway.” Kane replied,
“Normal, what the fuck is normal? Nothings been normal since you met her.” Johnny snorted,
“Touché” Kane responded.
“So she’s in the medical ward by herself right now?” Kenneth asked,
“I asked Damon to keep an eye on her. He said something about sibling bonding. I think he would have ended up there at some point regardless of whether I asked him or not.” Kane replied,
“He’s got his own drum beat in his head, that’s for certain.” Kenneth commented,
“Drum beat? That boy has a whole fucking drumline and they’re all playing different songs” Johnny countered. Kane laughed, he couldn’t help but agree though.
“He’s something alright.” Kane agreed, “That being said, he’s one of the few I would trust with my life, he hasn’t let me down yet.” Johnny nodded,
“It’s funny knowing what we know now about them being related, I can’t help but think of all the similarities between the two, like their fierce loyalty to family.” Kenneth remarked,
“Yeah, now that you mention it, they make the same confused face as well, or that might be their you’re a fucking idiot face.” Johnny agreed,
“They do! They have the same temperament, she just gets there quicker” Kane added. “How did we not see this?
“We weren’t looking and they didn’t grow up together” Kenneth replied,
“Wait! Why didn’t they? Why didn’t that woman drop her off with Bruno like she did Damon? My dad and Odin would have raised her like they pretty much did Damon.” Johnny asked, confused.
“Damon thinks Bruno would have wanted her, he wanted kids. Eliza was infertile, and he was two six shooters with only one bullet in the chamber. Damon’s words not mine! Guess they found out a few years after Damon came along.” Kane replied,
“So Bruno was shooting blanks for the most part?” Johnny asked, looking at him.
“Apparently, Damon said they would try every March, he said don’t ask so I didn’t, then Bruno would disappear and come back at the beginning of April.” Kane continued,
“Doesn’t explain why the woman didn’t drop her off” Kenneth repeated Johnny’s question.
“Do you remember what Damon said about fate being the obstacle in the way?” Kane asked, Johnny nodded. “People can be obstacles too. He thinks the woman might have tried, but Eliza stood in the way, prevented it from happening, maybe even threatened her. Don’t know, the point is it wasn’t in fate’s design to have her grow up here with us.” Kane reiterated what he and Damon spoke about in the kitchen.
“That makes a lot of sense, what would the tragedy have been then? There wouldn’t have been one, and another set of souls would have failed.” Kenneth said, building on what was already said.
“That would have been bad too. No Kane, no Blood Howlers. Everyone’s life would have been different. Kane wouldn’t have ripped through the Eastern States, we never would have taken over New York, never meeting you or Marco.” Johnny looked in the rear view mirror at Kenneth.
“I don’t know. It’s not the way it played out, contemplating how things could have, should have or would have been will just drive you insane. I’m already dealing with enough insanity to add any more.” Kenneth and Johnny just looked at him. What Kane said put that conversation to bed.
“Was it all part of fate’s design then? Are we just pawns in fate’s chess game?” Kenneth asked,
“I get the feeling the answer is yes,” Kane replied,
“It would have been what, 1999? If that woman showed up here it’s easy enough to check out. We keep logs of everyone who steps foot on the property that isn’t a Howler. Whether they’re visiting someone, or they were out for a stroll and stopped by the river, if they aren’t one of us, the sentries inform me and I put it in the book. So if the woman showed up here back then she would be in the book as well.” Johnny abruptly declared. “And I will look into it when we get back to the house,” Johnny added after seeing the look on Kane’s face.
Dax paced back and forth in her room in the medical ward. She had tidied up and straightened the bed four times, since Kane left trying to stop her mind from wandering. She kept her hands clenched together if she didn’t they shook uncontrollably and any noise in the hallway caused her to jump. I’m being stupid! She thought. Nothing can get me here! I’m just being paranoid and a baby! A big paranoid baby! It’s not paranoia if someone is actually out to get you! I think it’s called being vigilant! I was wondering when I would hear from you! I’ve been listening, waiting for the right time, now seemed good! So you know? We aren’t human? Yeah, I know! How do you feel about that? It explains a lot! Yeah it does! Like your anger issues! I don’t have anger issues! She says in an angry tone! That’s not funny! It’s kinda funny! Well you can be a bitch! Yes I can, I’ve seen a lot though! I’m sorry! For what? Not being strong enough, you deserve to be more than a voice in my head! It’s not so bad up here, you do have a dirty mind though! Hey! Those are private thoughts! I don’t think you get private thoughts when you share a mind with someone! I hope there’s a book now more than ever! Me too, we have some catching up to do! Do you want to be more than a voice? I don’t mind being a voice! That’s not an answer! Never thought about it, was never a possibility before! I never wanted to be a werewolf! That’s when you thought you were human, and boulder head told you the story of the black blood spewing Luna! You were born a werewolf! I always felt like something was missing, but I thought that was a family! Me too! I don’t want him to bite me, there has to be another way! What if it’s the only way? It would destroy everyone, if it went bad I would die, Kane would die and everyone would suffer! That’s why he loves you! I learned to growl, so there has to be another way! I heard….you made him horny! That’s not what I was going for! You made him hella fucking horny! I was trying to be scary! It was scary how horny you made him! Ok, I’m not very good at it, I get it! You just need practice! I can only practise when Kane and I are alone! Makes sense….he wants to see if you’ll make him horny again! Ok moving on! We have a brother! Yeah! You don’t seem excited! What if he realizes he doesn’t like us? What if we don’t have anything in common? He thought of you as his sister before he knew you were his sister, safe to say he likes us! I’m just being stupid! Perhaps….or perhaps it’s just old habits and bad memories coming back of being told you were undeserving of a family!