Chapter 22: I’ll help her bury you!
He changed from his shorts to his pants, he hated to do it but if she woke up and he was gone it would freak her out. He started rubbing her back trying to coax her awake, she mumbled something and swatted him. He tried again and again she pushed him away. He started lightly kissing her face and her neck, while his hands gently trailed up her sides. She squirmed from his hands, but he didn’t stop until she was in a sitting position scowling at him. He pulled her into his chest and kissed the top of her head.
“I’m sorry baby, but I have to go out for a bit and I didn’t want to leave without you knowing” he said into her hair
“Where are you going?” She asked, he could hear the panic in her voice
“I have to deal with some business that was just brought to my attention, and if it wasn’t so important I would leave it for a later time, but I will come right back, I promise” Kane reassured her, she hated feeling weak and helpless which is pretty much how she felt the second Kane opened that door.
They all came rushing out at her, screaming, clawing their way into her. But the figure was the worst, it reminded her how unlovable she was. How easy it was for people to reject her, to leave her. She doesn’t even know why she created them, she doesn’t even remember doing it, she would get a thought or a feeling in her head and when it vanished, it was there standing before her taunting her. So she shoved them in that room to never be let out. But they were out now and they brought everything with them.
“Johnny will stay with you until I get back, but you need to put on pants” he broke her out of her thoughts and she glared at him. She hated wearing pants in her home. She was much more comfortable without them. “I know baby, I prefer you without pants as well, and this is going to sound very possessive, but I can be very possessive at times.” He grabbed her round little bottom and gave it a squeeze, causing her to squeak and her eyes to widen.
“But this is mine and no one else is allowed to look. Ok?” She nodded her head and just stared at him. He kissed her nose “Good, I will meet you downstairs” with one last squeeze which made her squeak again, he let go of her. He had to do something to chase the demons from his mind and he liked her ass, it fit nicely in his hands.
Dax quickly threw on a pair of black leggings the closest thing she could get to not wearing pants, but still wearing pants and walked out of her loft and down the stairs. She stood next to Kane who wrapped his arm around her waist and tucked her into his side.
“Johnny just had to grab something from the truck, he will be back in a minute” she wrapped her arms around his waist and hugged onto him tightly. When Johnny came back he carried a large box with him.
“What is that?” She asked, pointing at the box.
“Hello darling, it’s a tv, if I have to babysit you, I am going to need entertainment, your tiny loft provides none.” Johnny replied.
“What? Babysit! I don’t need a babysitter” she hissed “Kane tell him I don’t need a babysitter”
“You’re right you’re not a baby, you’re an adult, so if I’m going to adult sit yo-“
“You finish that sentence, I’ll punch you in the throat….again” she cut him off.
“You don’t have a tv, how do you even entertain yourself?” Johnny asked.
“I read, you should try it” Kane shook his head at the two of them and pulled her away before she did punch Johnny in the throat….again.
“Shhh little mouse he is just teasing” Kane said as he pulled her into his arms.
“He’s a jackass!” She stated.
“I heard that” Johnny called over his shoulder to her.
“You are” she stuck her tongue out at him.
“Maybe I was wrong when I called you an adult, cause that was childish” Johnny was pushing her buttons, she flipped him off. Kane shot Johnny a look and he shut up.
“Behave and don’t hurt him too badly. There are burgers and fries upstairs please eat something” he cupped her face and kissed her forehead “I have to talk to Johnny for a minute, but I will be back as soon as possible” she nodded her head and walked upstairs but not before she slugged Johnny in the shoulder.
“Ow! She hits hard for a tiny human” he rubbed his shoulder.
“What the fuck?” Kane asked him.
“She has been scared for so long, maybe it’s time she gets mad” Johnny shrugged, made sense when he thought about it. It actually made sense to Kane as well.
“Well good luck with that, but I’ll help her bury you if you wind up dead” Kane warned him. Johnny just laughed “Make sure she eats something, I’ll be back soon.”
“Will do” Kane gave one last look towards the loft and left.
Johnny took the tv upstairs and started hooking it up. She sat on one end of the sofa with her knees tucked under her chin.
“I’m sorry darling, I didn’t mean to upset you” Johnny looked at her apologetically.
“He told you didn’t he” she blinked back the tears that were threatening to fall.
“Not any particulars. He said you were dealing with demons and you were terrified. Kane is concerned for you. You have been alone your whole life, dealing with this, and now you don’t have to deal with it alone.”
“Alone is really all I know” she looked at him and the first tear slipped.
“Time to learn how to be with people then” he simply said,
“But what do I tell them and how do I deal with how they will look at me?” She swiped at the tears falling from her eyes.
“You just need to find the right people, and how will they look at you?” He turned to her,
“Like I’m broken” she whispered,
“I know about the door, not what’s in it, but what I felt coming off of it was pretty intense. You have been scared for so long that maybe it’s time to get angry. Life handed you the shitty end of the stick. No one would say shit to you if you got mad. You’re not broken Dax you might be a little mouse, but you are a mighty little mouse. I don’t know one person that could have survived what you did and have come this far, so no more tears” he said and hugged her.
“Thanks Johnny, but I’m not sorry I punched you” Johnny laughed.
“You hit hard for a little mouse,” he rubbed his shoulder, causing her to laugh.
“What are we doing?” She asked, wiping her tears away.
“Watching a movie,” he replied.
“What movie?”
“Survive the Night, with Bruce Willis”
“Ok, Johnny?”
“Yes Dax!”
“He’s the bald one right?”
“Are you serious right now? Do you live under a rock?” She just looked at him and shrugged. “Have you seen any movies?”
“No”
“Rock it is”
“Jackass, just play the movie”
It was mid afternoon when Kane made it back to the warehouse, he walked into the loft and was about to say something.
“Shhh” Johnny held his finger to his lips and motioned towards Dax who was sleeping on the couch. Kane nodded and headed back down to the warehouse in which Johnny followed.
“Poor kid has never seen a movie in her life, don’t get me wrong she is absolutely horrible to watch movies with, she talked through the first one, but still not one movie. If I would have known that I would have picked a better one” Johnny said joining him on the floor. Kane looked tired, he had had a very long day and it was beginning to wear him down.
“How did things go with Alpha Peter?” Kane gave him an envelope and when Johnny opened it it contained the deed to the warehouse.
“Did he just hand it over to you?” Johnny asked shocked,
“He was hesitant to acquiesce my request so I gave him some incentive to aid in his decision”
“What incentive was that?”
“His Beta lost his head, and if he did not want any more dismembered pack members he better not touch one member of the Hillcrest Pack or any other pack for that matter. Then he offered me the warehouse, well he offered me whatever I wanted. Naturally I took the warehouse and a few other key properties” Kane replied.
“You took half his town holdings” Johnny was shocked,
“One of his biggest grievances was that he was under a lot of pressure, so I alleviated some of it, really I did him a favour.” Kane shrugged,
“And Ky?” Johnny asked laughing,
“His bloodlust is satisfied...for now” Johnny didn’t really know what to say to that. “How is she? Did she eat”
“She is….Dax, she is a mighty little mouse and has survived this long, and yes she ate. Lacey called, and I have a few errands to run for her while I am in town. It shouldn’t take too long.” Johnny took the keys from Kane and headed towards the truck. Kane just nodded and headed upstairs.
He looked at her sleeping on the couch, seeming to be at peace, but who knew what she saw behind those closed eyes. He walked into the kitchen and pulled out his phone, checking his messages and emails. He had called Alpha Thomas on the way back, telling him he shouldn’t have any further problems with Alpha Peter. He rubbed the back of his neck, his muscles were sore and he was tired, when he felt arms circle his waist from behind. The tingles he craved more and more with each day that passed started to resonate through his body, he covered her tiny hands with his. He could feel the bond between them getting stronger and stronger with each move she made.
“You are tense!” She said into his back.
“I have a lot on my mind” it was the truth, he had a million things running through his head.
“I’m sorry” she whispered.
“What do you have to be sorry for?” He said looking down at her hands.
“For causing you so much stress.” It upset her that she was causing him to stress and worry.
“You do not cause me stress, little mouse. You bring me happiness. But there are a few things going on that have caused some stress. But I assure you, you are not one of them.” He kissed the palm of her hand. She stepped out from behind him and grabbed his hand and pulled him towards the bedroom.
“Where are we going?” He asked, but continued to let her lead him.
“To ease some of your tense muscles” came her reply.
“That sounds intriguing,” he smirked.
She ordered him to remove his shirt and lie on the bed, which he more than happily obliged.
“This is sounding better all the time” but chuckled when she arched her eyebrow at him.
“On your stomach mountain man” he grumbled a bit but obeyed. She took a small bottle of baby oil off the dresser and walked over to the bed. Placing a small pool of it in her palm she straddled his back. He was about to ask what she was doing when he felt her hands on the back of his neck. With the right amount of pressure she massaged the muscles of his neck and started to move down to his shoulders. Ky purred in his head at her touch, practically drooling over himself. It felt so good to have her touching him this way, his body hummed with electricity, each pass of her hand over his sore muscles turned them to butter and for the first time in weeks he felt himself relax. Her tiny little magic hands worked miracles on him, when she hit a spot just below the shoulder blade he let out a moan.
“Goddess, that feels good” she smiled at him, and continued working that spot before she moved to the other side.
“If it is not just me causing you stress then what else is it?”
“I am in the middle of working out a deal with a friend, but someone threw a complication into the mix.” When Kane let out a low growl, she kissed the back of his neck cutting the growl off, and went back to massaging his back
“Go on, how are they making it complicated?” She asked, moving lower on his back.
“Threatening a hostile takeover of my friend’s acquisitions” Kane moaned out again “Goddess, woman you are magic” she giggled but continued working, easing more and more of his muscles.
“Did you offer them something to make them back off?” She inquired,
“No, I just made them back off” he growled out, thinking of Alpha Peter. She bent down and kissed his neck again, and his growl subsided.
“How did you do that?” She slid further down his back so she was now straddling his waist. She ran her thumbs up either side of his spine, while her fingers stretched to reach his sides
“By using my charm and highly domineering personality” he breathed out at the movements of her hands, she laughed remembering the words she spoke to him the day they met.
“An issue in New York has also risen that requires my attention” she stilled at the mention of New York, but continued to work his muscles.
“And is this issue in New York urgent?” She gritted out, he didn’t like that the mere mention of the city caused her anxiety, another low growl escaped him and once again she bent down and kissed his neck, cutting the growl short.
“It is of the utmost importance and unfortunately will require a visit in the near future” just thinking of Carl, he released a deep growl. Dax again bent over but this time grazed her teeth across his neck before she kissed him. He sucked in a startled breath. What was that? Even Ky was startled. She pressed her body to his back and started trailing kisses down the back of his neck. Each one magnifying the shocks he was already feeling.
“You growl too much, it is not helping you relax” she said between kisses.
An intensity was building in him at her bold moves, she was tempting him and his resolve was breaking. He pulled her off his back and underneath him, hovering over her, his grey eyes darkened.
“You are tempting fate little mouse” he purred into her neck, she gasped at the feeling of his teeth against her flesh.
“I might be a strong willed man, but I am just a man, I have an animalistic side and you are testing the limits of my control over it” he looked down at her, he was leaning on his arms so he would not crush her under his weight. She lifted her head and kissed along the line of his jaw, the look he saw in her eyes, told him she knew exactly what she was doing. He buried his face in her neck again shifting his weight so he could allow one of his hands to travel up her leg. He realized then he hated the leggings, he wanted her bare skin. His hand moved over the back of her thigh, and she gasped when he squeezed the bottom of her cheek, causing her to arch into him. His lips trailed kisses up her neck to her jaw line. End this and take her! Ky purred in his head. His hand moved over her hip to under the hem of her shirt. Pushing the fabric higher, he exposed her skin as his lips moved across her jaw. She arched into him again, pulling him closer to her, not caring about his weight. His lips brushed across hers and he was about to claim her when Johnny bellowed. Kane let out a growl.
“I will kill him a thousand different ways!” Dax let out a giggle and he pressed his forehead to her shoulder. With a sigh he reluctantly pulled himself from the bed and her arms.
“Kane!” She stopped him at the door while she was getting off the bed and he looked at her. “That’s round eight!” A sexy grin spread across his face. Oh he was going to break, but even if he lost the game, it would still be a victory for him.
Kane left with Johnny, but only after she insisted that she was all right to be by herself and no longer required adult sitting. Johnny bought her a few groceries, her cupboards were bare and not knowing what she liked he just bought what he liked. Kane promised to call her later, and now she stood in the middle of her warehouse….alone. Her demons were at the door screaming for her to answer them, screaming all the hurtful things Carl used to say to her. Johnny was right, it was time to stop the tears and get angry. She was not alone, like he said she would be. She had people that cared for her, she had people in her corner. And for the first time standing in that warehouse alone, she did not feel alone. She looked at the door and collected as much courage as she could muster, she told her demons to shut up, she had work to do.