SWNOVELS Chapter 10
Alpha Asher's pov
Maya didn't look as happy as I expected her to be. Right from the first day she stepped foot into our pack as a rogue, her only greatest desire that she had made known to us repeatedly;
even until It became her walking siren, like a reminder to us all and most especially to me, was the fact that she hated being my mate and wanted to "explore the world while belonging to no one" as she put it, living the way she wants. I thought taking Daniel's idea would help build a relationship with Maya, no matter how long it takes but she had this wall so strong around her and I feared not even I could bring it down or gain her trust.
So I decided to do what I believed was right, I believed it was best to let her go and let her live her life to the fullest, she insisted she wanted it instead of letting me keep her in my pack. If I forced her,
it would make it seem like I was caging her since she didn't want to stay... The other best option was to let her go.
Funny thing was that I still understood her, even though I had known her for quite a short time. I understood her to want to belong to no one,
her desire to go wherever she wanted because growing up in a monastery made me understand and gave me the ability to relate to half of what she had gone through;
the pain, the torture, the hatred for the moon goddess and her parents that abandoned her for no reason only to make her suffer.
So I was going to let her go if that's what she so much wants for herself because I wouldn't want to be a part of the people she hates forever. Even though deep down, I wanted to feel that feeling called love and be loved by someone too. Once Edna and Daniel left, I met her eyes with my gaze and I was surprised to see the fear and plea in hers. She was silently begging me not to let her leave because her pride wouldn't let her speak,
"I'm not ready to leave" she said with an empty voice, trying to sound tough but I still caught her eyes before she got rid of any sign of emotion that was there. I sighed and ran my hand through my hair, this was a hard nut to crack; a tough case to solve.
"You said you want to be free so that's what I'm doing for you Maya, letting you go" I replied and she looked at me angrily but her eyes were shaky like she was panicking.
"So you'll just let me go? After saving me? After making me believe that there may be kind people in this life?" She yelled with her voice sounding like she was close to tears.
"That's not why I'm letting you go, Maya..." I tried explaining to her but then she interrupted, her voice filled with anger
"fuck you, Asher if no one's ever told you I'm going to say it to your stupid face! You are a shitty Alpha, Alphas don't run from problems, they don't shift responsibilities.
Instead, they tackle it themselves
but look at you, you want to let me go because I refuse to be your mate. After all, Crefuse to belong to you
Well, news flash Alpha fel.
Asher, that's what happens
someone who's been traumatized
and tortured her whole life,
I face reality and see things for what they are because life has never been a bed of roses for me so don't expect me to open up to you at once like you're some knight in shiny armor.
Anyone can be a villain" she stopped and took a long breath but I was even too stunned to speak, I just sat there staring at this woman that had just put me in my place.
People hardly put me in my place in this pack because not to brag but most times I'm right so not even Edna or Daniel put me in my place except they believed it was necessary and that hadn't happened in a long time now. Then I understood why the moon goddess chose her for me, I thought Edna was something else but Maya was more than that...
she was was feisty and I could see the fire in her eyes from her burning rage... she feared no one
"you see this" she added gesturing between the two of us
"it can't work, we can't work so I guess rejecting you had bruised your ego and now you want to let me back out there into those dens you call packs" she finished and slowly stood up, her eyes still on mine till she was now standing above me
"It was nice meeting you Alpha Asher, I'll leave your pack now. You should pay me for those clues I gave you too" she spat every word at me with venom and stormed out heading towards her room.
I didn't know what to do, I just sat
there looking dumbfounded after Maya had just given me the lecture of my life. I was even more confused and didn't understand it all. Was I meant to keep on trying with her until she opened up to me?
Was telling her she had a choice to leave for another better pack a mistake on my part? That was what she wanted though.
I groaned and threw my head back to ease the incoming headache but it wasn't helping. This was serious, far more than I thought it was.
Maya was strong-willed, stubborn, and held her pride dear to herself; even after all she had gone through in her former pack.
So I knew nothing else would make her waver, this was little compared to what she had experienced all her life. Suddenly Cypher started getting agitated in my head and I got the message immediately.