Chapter 37
Aurora's
pov
I closed the door quickly behind me, my chest rising and falling as I sought to fill my lungs with as much air as I can. My heart was racing, the beat harsh in my chest. Will he burst through the door any second and punish me?
The thought had my skin prickling with anxiety but oddly not in fear. Somehow I knew he wouldn't hurt me. Perhaps it was the words I read moments ago that made me feel as if he wouldn't Or maybe it was the way he looked at me.
Desire. Want. But not revolt and despise.
Mate.
I pull away from the door, sweat coating my skin as I started pacing the length of the room. I push my fingers into my hair and itched my scalp as I try to make sense of what I read. Was I Xavier Knight's mate?
The most ruthless alpha that had anyone bend the knee before him?
The tingles that will rock you will have you melt into their arms. Or perhaps the beating of your heart like a drum as they are near. Another is the way you cannot simply stop thinking about them or would you be able to stop the sudden hunger to be claimed Could it be true? Could it really be true? The only way a wolf recognizes their destined mate is by the strong addictive scent of their mate. Or by their beast roaring in their heads that they've finally found him or her.
But if I were his mate....wouldn't he have claimed me by now or at least make it known?
Unless...
He didn't want me.
My heart pained at the harsh thought and I quickly clutch at my chest. My eyes stung and I quickly try to blink away the moisture. I didn't want to cry. I couldn't. From now on, I needed to be strong. Sighing, I went to sit on the bed, my fingers quickly playing with the covers as I go deeper into iny thoughts.
Was that the reason he always punished me like this? I redden as the remembrance of how his tongue had dipped into my folds. Unknowingly, my hands had seemed to have gone between my thighs. I palmed the spot, reddening when I felt a throb. I remember how pleasurable it felt to have his tongue there, how wet I could feel myself had become by his torturous tongue. My nipples bead against the soft cotton fabric of the shirt as iny breathing grows harsh. How he sucked me like he was a starving beast.
Yet he didn't claim me.
I couldn't understand.
He could've claimed me there and then and as dumb as it sounds, I wouldn't have protested.
Some part of me wanted him while the other fear the unknown with him. He was a beast, I have seen it first hand. I saw the way he damaged Adrian's throat. 1
But I also remember the look in his eyes when they fell on my injured arm, the same very one Adrian had caused. And I knew it was because of me. He hurt her because of me.
Male wolves precisely Alpha's are those most likely to be more possessive and territorial. It's normal for them to feel very possessive and protective when they haven't marked their mates yet. 1
Maybe seeing me get hurt by Adrian's claws made him get protective and angry. Why else would he hurt her for me? Why would he ever hurt her for someone like me? Unless....
I was truly his mate. I can't forget about how he looked at me inside the infirmary or the way he held me protectively. His gaze was so deep, so warm, so different than how others regarded me. No male wolf would ever do such a thing if the female wasn't worth something to them. Was that why he spared me?
He knew I was his mate?
Of course, he knew, apparently his wolf would've screamed it in his head upon first glance at m
So why did he not tell me or claim me?
If he were going to reject me, wouldn't he have done it sooner? Why keep me here yet keep me at arm's length? Better yet, why does my heart roar by the very thought of him claiming me? Was that supposed to be the bond working? Or were those my own feelings?
I grew confused, not understanding where my thoughts were leading me. I should be happy that perhaps Xavier didn't want me as a mate, yet, I wanted him to want me.
He was a strong alpha, a strong wolf, perhaps if he claims me, I can have that protection I have always wanted. I could help Cas and maybe, just maybe if he finds out about my blood he'd not kill me.
Maybe this was to my benefit, the moon goddess destined us so he could be someone I can lean on. Someone who can protect me from the harsh judgments of the cruel world. Someone! can depend on to shield me from their glares.
He was a ruthless alpha many feared, they wouldn't dare try to do me anything if I was claimed by him.....
I shook my head, my hand moving away from between my thighs. Besides, it wouldn't be so bad to be claimed by a man whose face screamed perfection. And he seemed rather skilled 100.....
I blushied, uy thoughts straying to how his fingers burned my skin when they skimmed their way across my body.
No, it wouldn't be bad at all to be claimed by him...
I knew my thoughts were far from what I truly was aiming for. I knew that somehow during those two nights, somehow......the cold wolf was slowly creeping into my heart. Maybe it was the bond, or perhaps I had just taken a liking to the woll.
But what I was sure of was that I would do everything in my power to survive, even if that means getting claimed by a raging beast. Making my mind up, I rise to my feet my heart pounding into my ears. Was I really about to do this? To do whatever necessary to make Xavier Knight claim me?
I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the lengthy mirror.
Yes, I will. I would do anything and I mean anything to have him claim me. There was no other way out anyway. With the way he was acting, he'd probably not set me free any time soon. And if he did find out about my secret I wasn't sure I'd stay alive. But if I manage to have him claim me, that would give me a chance to actually stay breathing. Because a male wolf would never hurt his mate.
There was one thing I do know about mates from what I've seen, was that they are unable to live without their other half. And if their mate perishes, there was a high chance their wolves would die and it wouldn't be long until their human half as well.
Mates were crucial for the wolf community. A sacred bond that every wolf wishes to have one day.
As much as it confused me that Xavier and I were mates I needed to trust that the moon goddess knew what she was doing and destined us for a reason.
Fear still licked up my spine but a knew desire to be claimed by the alpha wolf weighed down on any other emotion.
I may not know why he chose to not claim me yet, although I had a feeling it had to do with his suspicion of my entire identity. But I do know he felt something with the way he couldn't control himself from touching me.
So with shaky fingers, I peeled off every clothes on my body and stood naked.
I was going to do anything to have him claim me. I wanted him to claim me.
I kneeled down and waited for him as I recited those words in my head over and over again. I was going to have him claim me no matter what it takes, My eyes burn holes on the floor as ! waited almost impatiently for him.
I let out a soft breath when the door suddenly opens and then slams roughly, I heard when he locked the door and felt the undeniable burning stare of his on me.
Drawing in a calining breath, I lift my head, my eyes connecting with that of amber. And that's when I realized that it wasn't because of protection alone I wanted him to claim me, but because I wanted him with a fierce fire burning inside my belly.
"Punish me as you want Alpha," The words tumble out of my mouth and a sharp shiver rush