Remembering You

There are moments in this world where you wish things were different. Where you wish you had the opportunity to go out an seek new adventures. Where you wish at the same time to be at home safe and secure. Where you wish the one you have had a crush on for a while was not more than just a stranger on a computer. Where you wish now and days the world was not just on a computer. Where you wish you could express your words in a way that could change others’ lives. There are moments in this world where you wish, you would just wake up as if it were just a huge dream.

You see, moments like this are worthwhile. You wish things could change into something they were not destined for. You chase the people you wish were good for you. You fall for those people. You expose your soul and each single one of them, takes a part with them when they leave. Therefore, you have become guarded. You like the aloneness that follows. You separate from your friends. Constantly saying “Oh I cannot come out tonight. I have something to do” or another lie.

You become this different person who is slowly building up a wall until one day it gets taken down by someone.

I let someone into my world. Worried about him leaving. Afraid that if he got too close, he would ruin me. But slowly I started to worry less and smile more. I became happier knowing what he felt was still there every time he would stare at me for no reason. He turned my world upside down for the better. I started chasing after what my heart wanted. Not caring about the aftermath. But when the time came, he had bigger plans in this world. May his soul forever rest in peace.

The you happened into my life. And that is when I started wishing for better. I stopped wishing it was all just a nightmare and that I would wake up soon. I stopped woshing to never feel happy again. I stopped wishing that i only had one soul mate. Yet, for some reason my mind stopped worrying about what was going to happen next. I stopped fearing love and the thoughts of connection with someone else.

For no reason at all I started opening up to the world. I became more free to express my words. My thoughts. My questions to the world. I began telling my secrets to the moon again. Like I had many years ago. In the midst of all of this, I could not help but love what I have learned. I could not help but love the people I met and the things I saw. I could not help but learn more and more about what I would adore in my future. Or how I would get there. I cannot help anything that was destined. I was chasing stars and hoping for the best. Now I have found something that was not in my destiny.

I cannot help but feeling lost in your world. I was home safe, now I am chasing the stars to find the words to tell you what I think and how I feel. I cannot help but chase these stars leading me on a new adventure to a future that is better than before.