Refusing my Alpha mate

Arthur

Clair and I were again in the open field, with tall, yellow grass, she kissed me and I wrapped her body in my arms, I kissed her neck, and I couldn't wait to end this dream, but the sounds of screams made us stop the kiss, Clair's body moved away from mine, and it was as if she was pulled out of control. I tried to hold her arms and she tried to hold on to my hands, but it was in vain, until arrows came towards us, I ran towards her and I tried to protect her, but I couldn't run, I couldn't move, the moment I managed, I saw her chest being hit squarely by an arrow, her uniform began to take on a scarlet stain, and my chest was falling apart flooded with pain and suffering, I reached her small body before falling to the ground, just about to see her last breath, as the life was sucked from her, a scream of pain left my throat, at the same time I woke up screaming in my room, sitting on the bed scared.

I was panting and terrified.

If she really was with me in the first dream, if she also dreamed about it, was she okay after that?

I didn't think then, I just ran, went down the stairs almost tripping so fast, and as soon as I reached the door, I felt the winter breeze hit my face and at the same moment the images of Clair dying in front of me flashed, her uniform covered in blood and horror took over me at the same time that my wolf came, without control, tearing my sweatpants and running towards Clair's Pack, I was so nervous, and he was so upset that I couldn't align our thoughts, it was as if there was a gigantic need to see her as if just seeing and being sure that she is okay, we would have peace.

I ran, I ran so fast and with such desperation that I don't remember ever feeling it, I almost couldn't feel my paws reaching the floor, our Packs weren't that close, but I only realized it when I was already there, in front of their Pack House.

The border guards recognized me, but arriving in front of the house, even though I was who I was, it wouldn't be easy to enter.

I returned to human form and rested my hands on my legs trying to catch my breath, and one of the guards came to meet me.

"Alpha Arthur, what are you doing here?" He asked me with an expression of astonishment.

"I need to see, Clair," I said breathlessly, my words came out choking.

"She's sleeping sir, it won't be possible." Another guard responded.

"You don't understand, I'm going to see her now, I need to. I'm not leaving here without seeing, Clair." I said and my tone was louder than I imagined, It was me, but it was my wolf too, and the desperation he felt was almost palpable.

"Not like that." One of the guards pointed to my body, and only then did I remember that he was naked.

"I'll get a uniform." Another guard left towards the barracks.

It only took two minutes for my breathing to recover, but my heart was tightening, it was still difficult to breathe.

She couldn't be dead in the room, could she?

Just thinking about it made my breathing start to quicken again, and the despair increased. The guard came back and handed me a uniform from their guard. I got dressed as quickly as I could and started pushing past them, pushing past the guards with my shoulders.

"They're going to kill us for letting him pass…" I heard one of the guards say.

"Are you going to try to stop him? Because I won't." Hearing what the other guard said I realized how upset I sounded.

I went up the stairs of Pack's House, and only then did I realize that I had no idea where her room was, I closed my eyes and her smell filled my nose, I followed her smell and went straight to the penultimate door in the hallway. I opened my hand and knocked it flat on the door.

"Clair, are you there?" I called, and only then did I realize that my voice was cracking, my heart was in my mouth.

Silence, she didn't respond.

"Clair, please," I called again and then I heard sounds inside the room.

It took a few seconds but the door opened and Clair was wearing a blue lace nightgown that highlighted her eyes even more, her wavy hair was messy and her eyes were swollen from having just woken up, but I didn't have time to look at her properly. My instinct just made me pull her into my embrace and it was only when I felt her scent mixed with mine, when I could put my nose in her hair, only then could I breathe again.

"Arthur let me go. What's going on?" She tried to get out of my hug, but I tried to keep her there.

"I dreamed that you died, I just need to…" I gave up trying to hold her, but Clair stopped in front of me, just inches away from me.

"You came in the middle of the night to invade my Pack to see if I was okay, just because you dreamed that I had died?" Clair said and when I heard it from her I realized how stupid it was to have done that.

"You're right, it was stupid, I'm sorry, but the other dream you dreamed too, and that one was so real, and it was actually my wolf, I didn't even have a choice…” I said running my hands through my hair and trying to turn around. “I'm leaving.”

"Wait." She held my hand stopping me from leaving. "This is my guard's uniform…" Her eyes then looked at me and her lips opened in astonishment. "Did you run over here, just to make sure I was okay?" She asked, but her voice was as low as a whisper.

I just nodded, but she was so close to me, so close that she had to look up for her gaze to meet mine, and there with her so close, her scent so strong, with my heart so accelerated, I opened my lips as I sighed and slightly lowered my head.

"It's very dangerous to come back at this time, there were attacks on our border last week. You can sleep in the guest room… " She said whispering again as if any sudden movement would break this bubble, this moment, and as she said each word, Clair's gaze went from my eyes to my mouth, and that was like a green light for me to lower myself a little more, she opened her lips and there I closed the distance between us and wrapped her lips in mine.

Feeling Clair's full lips was something I had wanted for so long, I had fantasized about it in my head and in my dreams, but nothing, simply nothing, compared to reality, they were the fullest and sweetest lips I had ever tasted. I opened my mouth, invading hers with my tongue, at the same time I pulled her by the waist, making her fit into my embrace, and she let out a low moan, inside my mouth, when my body wrapped around hers, and there I was in ecstasy, it was as if I were in heaven, overcome by the strongest feeling I had ever had, and suddenly she pushed me back.

Clair looked at me with wide eyes and swollen lips, she exhaled from her lungs and swallowed hard.

"The guest room is at the end of the hall, brown door." She said pushing me lightly out of the room.

I wanted to say something, but she just closed the door in my face, I raised my hand to knock on the door, but I heard the sound of what sounded like her putting her back against the door and sliding to the floor. The night was already too exciting, I followed her advice and went to sleep in the guest room.

Strong emotions in this chapter. What are your thoughts about these two?