SWNOVELS Chapter 116: His Chance
Astrid's POV
The room was covered with silence when everyone left the room.
I turned to my side, facing the opposite direction and covered myself with a blanket.
I don't know why Alpha Theron has to stay. What else does he have to say to me? Isn't it clear that I don't want to talk to him? Haven't I pushed him enough away from me already?
"Astrid, I know you hate me. What I did to you and your mother was unforgivable, and nothing that I do will make up for all the mistakes that I had done to the both of you," Alpha Theron started to speak, his voice solemn and filled with remorse.
"I don't deserve your forgiveness... I never will. All that I'm asking is that please give me a chance. You can hate me all you want, I will accept that, just let me be there for you. Give me a chance in your life even if I cannot break through your heart," Alpha Theron pleaded. As the Alpha of the Shadowfang Pack, Alpha Theron has never pleaded with anyone before; it was always the other way around. Alphas had knelt and begged in front of him before, yet he is here, begging for me to accept him.
I pursed my lips as I remained silent at his words. I don't know exactly what he is asking me for.
He wanted me to give him a chance. What is he going to use it for? He said himself that he would never make up for all the mistakes he had already made in the past, so what is this chance for?
Is he pleading with me to use him? He says he wants a chance and that it doesn't matter if I don't forgive him. Doesn't that mean he only wants me to use him?
"You are my daughter, Astrid. You are the child that Erika and I had who was separated from me for many years. I only found you last week. Give me the chance to be with you much longer," Alpha Theron swallowed back the tears that choked the back of his throat. "When I found out that your mother was dead, I was devastated. I always wished we could meet each other again. I had no idea how too late I was to see her." Tears fell from my eyes upon hearing his words.
If my mother had met him for one last time before she died, would she have been happy, or would she have been so overwhelmed with anger that she would have tried to kill him even though she could no longer move her body?
"Ever since your mother left, there wasn't a day I never thought about her. You are the only one I have of her. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes I did and let you go too and live in regret for the rest of my life," Alpha Theron continued.
"Then why didn't you come looking for us? You are the Alpha of the Shadowfang Pack, you got all the power and resources that it takes to find us. If you really thought of us and missed us that much, then why? Why didn't you come looking for us?" I asked back without turning to face him.
Alpha Theron was silent for a moment. "I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought I was doing what was best for us."
I scoffed at his answer. Best? If he had only searched for us, then he would have had the chance to save my mother from the deadly disease that took her life.
"Astrid, I'm not asking for a chance just so I could win you over. I've already made mistakes. Whatever k do, I will always live with regret for the rest of my life. Just give me a chance to be there for you now. I will never let you and your mother down again," Alpha Theron pleaded once again.
It was my turn to fall silent.
A chance... I will give him a chance to fulfil his role to me as my father. If I did that, then I would be fully
considered as a daughter of the Shadowfang Pack. Not just his
daughter but also his eldest child.
"Fine," I finally answered after I went down a spiral of thoughts. "But only for one condition."
"What is it?" Alpha Theron eagerly asked.
"I don't want anyone else to know that we are blood-related. You can have your chance in the shadows," I answered.
Alpha Theron's eyes went wide; by the looks of it, it looked like he was having a hard time accepting this.
It seems that he has been planning to announce me as his daughter in public, just as I had thought of.
For now, I don't think I'm ready for anyone to know the truth. I'm still recovering from the scars of my past.
My child had just died, and I'm still suffering from traumas. I'm not ready to deal with another big thing like that again.
"If that's what you want, then so be it," Alpha Theron surrendered. "In exchange, you will stay here with me."
"Only until I wanted to," I argued, making him fall silent again.
"Agreed," Alpha Theron replied.
He really doesn't have much choice. It's either he agrees with my conditions or he takes the risk of making me change my mind.