SWNOVELS Chapter 5. Walls Guarding Emotions
I got up feeling miserable altogether. At my sister and at Mason.
When I got home yesterday I knew I would be facing death head on. The minute I stepped through the door, Kalina ambushed me with questions.
"What the hell Xayla?" That she asked me the minute I walked through the front door.
"What...hell?" I asked sarcastically.
"How could you be so stupid. What happened to the contacts you had in this morning?" Kalina needs to work out her anger issues. Its not really a big deal. It was just another day that I had a bad headache and my eyes felt like they were on fire, which probably caused the contacts to I don't know not work again?....
Okay it is a big deal. Its not like my eyes were small enough to not be noticed from a far but my eyes are actually big enough for that.
Of course I had no solid answer to give Kalina, so we called Gran and told her what happened.
You see....Gran's a witch. Not the evil kind but the good one I guess since she uses her powers and potions for good.
"Okay, Xayla tell me exactly what happened." Gran had said to me flatly clearly not buying that I had that much of a severe headache out of the blue.
I made sure Kalina was out of earshot and I told her exactly what had happen when I looked into Mason's eyes.
"Gran, he was very confusing and I just wanted to understand him better but he had these walls up and that prevented me from getting anything at all. Before I know it, I was trapped." I had told her.
"You had in your contacts then so it would be difficult to get anything from that mind of his, you know that. As for the walls....people sometimes build walls around their heart and soul to prevent people from getting in. I'm assuming his walls are pretty thick. Somehow though with the contacts in, you managed to walk through the first wall but you couldn't get pass the second and i'm assuming when you tried to get out, you were somehow trapped between the first and second. If you had been using your real eyes then there wouldn't be much of a problem." Gran explained to me.
"So I guess I should say goodbye in trying to know him then." I sighed.
"Honey, you could go the other way. The more human way. You could try talking to him, build trust and let him be the one to tell you about himself." She said to me.
I don't know but something about having to be friends with Mason made me nervous and excited but at the same time, it scared the bejeebies out me.
Why did he have to be so fricking hot and make me so nervous in his presence. I'm gonna make a fool out myself.
Then again, why did he have to be such a jerk and make me feel so timid to talk to him, afraid that he would run me away and tell me he doesn't want to be seen talking to a weirdo like me.
I mean, my eyes are too big for my face, my cheeks are chubby, i'm short and....my eyes are too big for my face.....wait I said that already.
Its not like I wanna be friends with him. Its just that i'm so use to knowing people by reading their minds, so I never felt the need to go the human way by just asking questions and building trust and what not.
I just want to know why he is the way he is and thats it. I don't wanna be his friend or anything. Absolutely not.
Or maybe i'm looking for an excuse to not be his friend.
Okay, I'll give this getting to know you a try. But I swear if he's a jerk to me, i'm gonna have to go with plan B.
Wear shades and talk to him privately and BAM! I know all his deepest darkest secrets.
Who knows, I can probably use them against him. Make him think i'm a spy or something. And I'll punish him for being so mean to me.
Mwuahahah!
Okay Xayla that's way to far.
I don't know why but something about him interests me. Maybe its his dark personality that draws me to him.
Or maybe, I still feel guilty because I didn't help that someone who had the same black aura Mason has. If I had helped her, maybe, just maybe, she wouldn't have committed suicide.
Probably if she was still alive today, I wouldn't have a reason for these pills to help me sleep at nights.
I keep having that same nightmare over and over again.
I can still remember the news headline on that day.
"Trajedy in the School Community:
Teenage Girl, Sabrina Waters jumps off Roof"
I could've prevented that. I passed her through the hall the day before and the weight on her shoulders were so strong, I absorbed it myself. I could've absorbed it all knowing it didn't affect me, but I didn't because I couldn't deal with another headache.
I was selfish.
On that day, I vowed to myself that if anyone comes in contact with me and I sense that they are feeling depressed to the point of death, I'll help them. Even if it makes me tired and get a killer headache.
If Mason was friendlier then I would've helped him in a jiffy.
I'm still confused as to why he carried me to the nurse's office yesterday if he hated me. I thought he would've refused to carry me but he didn't.
Even though he told the nurse not to tell me....today i'm going to confront him.
Right after I have a shower.