Palindrome

“What about how to make this? Is it just to make it into a tea of some sorts? Do I need a ritual?” I was amazed my brain worked so clinically at this moment, like it was shutting out everything else on purpose. Lil looked behind her, as if someone was calling on her, but frowned and answered me.

“It`s just like any spell, you must have the right intent and have your heart with you.”

She grabbed my shoulders and fixed her stare on me. “Listen, you have a choice. You always have a choice. The Beast will try to force you to take the wrong one, and it will be hard for you to make the right decision in the midst of it all. Just remember you are loved either way, my child.”

Lilith looked over her shoulder again, but I couldn’t hear or see anything through the trees.

“I have to go, there`s something….” She didn’t finish, just kissed my forehead quickly with tears in her eyes. “Your mother and father sends their love. Be careful.”

The trees swallowed her before I got to say anything – her green dress blending in, it was like she had never been here. But I had the grapes in my hand, and the two mythical Trees stood trembling before me, like they were speaking to me. One of Good and Evil, one of Immortality. The Tree of Mercy, knowledge of everything in the world. What would happen to me if I drank the potion? Wait, who was supposed to drink the potion? Noah? There was no chance I was able to give it to William with a straight face, knowing he would crumble to his death after taking it.

There were still things I wanted to know, things I didn’t understand. Who had created the trees in the first place? Who was the first Beast, this Ophidian? Was he still alive? Why did Devon make such a point out of the holy oil, that it wasn’t what the Beasts thought it was? And why did they call it the Holy Oil, when it was clearly a potion, a wine of some sorts? Sweet Mother, my head hurt. My heart hurt even worse, preparing for my next steps.

“HANNAH?”

William`s voice boomed through the lush forest, but I hadn`t had enough time to prepare myself. I fell to my knees in despair, body and mind fighting although I knew what I had to do.

“Hannah, are you alright? Please, sweet heart, talk to me!” His voice was frantic, his hands all over my body to check for wounds or broken bones. They ended on my face, cupping it gently and lifting it up towards him.

“Baby, whatever it is, it will be alright. I will protect you; I will be there.” His words hurt me deeper than any sword could, but I couldn’t let him see that.

“Tell me what you need, and I`ll get it to you.”

I wanted only him, him for the rest of my life. How had I not seen it? The love I had for him; it had always been inside me. And not only love, but the need for him was also threatening to overcome me, it was eating me up even though he`d just been inside me. Could I spare the time, just to feed my own egoistic needs?

“You. I need you.”

“Hannah, you`ll always have me.”

I shook my head, my lungs struggling for air.

“Take me. I want you to mark me with your love, forever.”

He looked worried, but also affected by the fire between us –his beautiful eyes glowing in the dusk.

“We don’t have much time.” My voice was hoarse and needy, he`d gotten dressed but my hands were already ripping his shirt open, revealing his muscular chest. I slowed down, touching him gently all over so I would remember every inch of him. The way his shoulders curved, the dip on the back. His nipples and the way he moaned softly when I licked them.

I tossed the shirt on the ground, walking around him just to revel in all his male glory. He started to unbutton the black jeans but stopped to let me gawk at him, a smirk on his face.

“Hannah, you`ll be the death of me.”

His arms reached for me, yanking me to his chest. William lowered his head, his gaze fixed on my lips – making his intend clear.

“And I`ll die a happy man.”

His kiss was everything I needed but didn’t want. I wanted him to be rough, to brand me. Not smooth talk like this and kiss me senseless.

Eventually, his kiss deepened, and a growl slipped out of him.

“You want me to fuck you hard?”

I sighed, “That`s exactly what I want.”

“How hard?”

I bit his lips, feeling the taste of his blood in my mouth and smiled.

“So hard that I`ll never forget it. Never forget you.”

“Say you love me.”

I closed my eyes, licking up the drop of blood that had escaped down his side.

“I love you.”

He growled even deeper, his claws ripping through the dress and sinking into the soft skin on my back.

“Remember those words, baby.”

I heard a tearing sound, but I was too busy basking in the sweet torture he was giving me to bother open my eyes to check what it was.

You belong to me. I don’t` need to mark you to make it true, but as I have said before – your wish is my command.

My eyes popped open, and I stifled the scream pushing through my throat by the sight of the ground below us. I opened them even wider when I finally registered that he`d changed and had us both up in the air. What now?

William flapped his wings lazily and hovered at the height of the treetops while he held me tight.

Tell me to stop and I will do it.

In response I pressed my naked body closer, wrapping me legs around him. He fell backwards, the sudden change made me giggle and hold on tighter, but he remained on his back, floating steadily while moving the black wings slowly.

Ready to fly?

He was bigger like this, and I had to adjust to him slowly, opening up little by little, until he was filling me up like never before. I laid still, allowing myself time to get used to him – my small gasps for air almost drowning in the sound of the wings keeping us afloat.

I felt myself relax and the need for more made itself evident, but I wasn’t sure how to move in this position. I wiggled carefully, aware of the distance to the hard ground.

Fuck, I can feel you pulsating around me. I have never had anyone like this.

I rested my hands on his chest, feeling his heart beating hard and fast.

I was planning on forcing you to take it slow, but I can`t…

I yelped when he twirled around, racing for the ground but rising at the last second – heading for a small rock formation in the distance. I didn’t know if I had made it, or if it was a part of the real world, it seemed vaguely familiar. There was a small ledge where we barely fit, but William landed smoothly and pressed me against the rock covered in soft moss.

You are my Goddess; you deserve to be treated like one. But I won`t offer you diamonds and pearls. My offering to you is myself, and you must accept. You must take all of me.

This time I could feel the glow around me, shining from every pore on my body – covering us both in a golden glow.

“I accept your offer.”

He started moving, slow and steady, building a fire within me almost too hot to handle.

Mine

Mine

Mine

Forever and ever mine

His words shattered my soul at the same time he took me to Heaven.

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