One Sided Love

Alex

Mom try to tell me something but I don't listen anything when Helen said what kate did I become so angry how dare she disrespect my family ... but then she apologized in a way that blow my mind she said those words that I said to Shawn about her in my wedding ceremony with Emily... but if she had heard them....she never told me.... nor she tell Emily....may be she never said it was just coincidence.... what whatever she did was wrong.... but why I felt that something else is in the story n why the fuck im feeling guilty... she deserves this. Everyone start to leave n Mom still try to talk to me but I told her not right now.

I went to kate room but stop when I heard her crying voice I know I should go n check her... she fucking do this on her own...

I know sleep is not coming tonight so I went to office n don't know how long I stay there...

The next morning I woke up with a headache ... I realized I slept in my office... I don't want to go to my room that night where kate was not there.... I stop at my declaration.... sure it is my lust talking... I think so.... damn this women is making everything in my life out of control.... I know what I didi with her was down right rude n cruel.... she is my wife n I promise to respect her but fuck when Helen told that kate insulated her... I become furious... I still can't trust her...oh god .... may be yesterday dinner was too much

When I was having conversation with the gents I heard Helen angry voice... n that whole drama started.

I went to my room to have a shower.... whole house was so quite... I looked the time it was 7:45 am... Kate woke up this time usually n make breakfast.... may be she is tired from yesterday event... who can blame her for that.... I went to take a shower n dressed in my office clothes n went to dinning room.... Emma was awake n Martha was there cooking breakfast... I was little confused normally kate do all these breakfast stuff... is she ok?... I realized then she had an appointment yesterday where she told me to come n I rudely told her no... she also said about doctor.. n gender of the baby...Fuck I never asked her how was her visit.... but then how to ask her when I told her im not interested...its better this way... she will not get the wrong hopes..But deep down im also wondering what is the gender... but I ignored that thought... n have breakfast

I asked Martha 'Wheres kate? She will not have the breakfast'

Martha gives me some sort of angry look n said ' No sir ... I have no idea... I checked her but she was in her deep sleep so I thought not to wake her... she looks very tired from yesterday dinner'

I have a feeling Martha knows about yesterday evening n my reaction... but I choose not to answer... but now I was worried sick that was it too much for her... everything was going ok yesterday... hell kate makes a very good hostess accept that moment which ruined everything... I was getting ready to go to office when I can't stop myself to go to kate room n checked her... I opened her door n enter her dark room... she was sleeping with she was not in peace she looked very tense n lost... Martha was ready she looked very tired... I looked her teary faced n I feel so guilty... I run a finger to her cheek n let her sleep more... n went to office..

When I was driving all this time mom was calling even I had missed call from Aunty but I choose to ignore... when I enter my office shawn was there already with a cup of coffee

I said ' thank god... I need this'

He replied 'welcome but I brought this for me ..but never mind'

I take a sip then I saw shawn was standing there awkwardly ... I raised my eyebrows in question

He said 'Dude I know I have no right to interfere in your life but I can't control it... but do you think kate listen our conversation about her in your wedding ceremony with Emily... because as long as I remember she said those exact word'

I replied 'I.. don't know.. may be its, a coincidence... may be its not... god knows'

He said 'why don't you ask her... cause I feel guilty... n there something else I want to tell you'

I replied why the fuck your guilty... it was me who said those words not you....n what else you want to talk about dude im having a terrible headache right now'

He replied 'well for in instance your behavior towards kate.... I know I shouldn't interfere but you did insult her in front of everyone so I can't stop her.... Alex you do have to trust her in some point in your life... She is your wife after all you have to support her in all her problem...you know yesterday event has another story'

I have very bad feeling where it is going but I said 'what do you mean'

He replied Rachel told me it was Helen who started all this... she first belittled kate n start insulting her what a lousy host kate is which I think was totally wrong... kate was best... n then she start saying how Emily has a sense of sophistication n then pointing out that kate can trapped you but not your heart... n start making her feel like shit that you n kate did not have a single wedding pictures where emily pictures are all over the house.... which I think you are indifference toward that again why invitation your guests n proving kate how less important she is..... but anyway kate did not say anything she just smiled n try to ignore it... but when Helen attack your... i mean kate unborn baby... that how you can believe its Robbins baby and not a bastard... it that moment kate lashed..... Alex she doesn't say a word when Helen say shit about her but she took stand for her baby... which you failed to do it for both'

I was shocked by the admission that shawn said.... fuck... Helen why did you do that... n fuck me for believing her n once again doubting kate... n insulted her in front of everyone.... I don't know how to make this right... shawn left me in my guilt.... I don't know how long I was lost in my thoughts when my cell vibrated...I saw it was from home... for a moment I thought kate is calling

I picked the phone n Martha voice came' sir if your are not busy can you come home... Mrs Robbins is not feeling good I think.... she has been sleeping so long... I try to wake her but she is not responding im very scared... I don't know what to do'

I dropped my phone... no.. no god no... plz don't let anything happen to her... there was something wrong with kate n o didn't realised... I left everything n went the house... by the time I reached kate room... she was looking same way I left her ... Martha was crying I asked 'whats wrong... kate opened your eyes... come on kate ... please kate... Martha called the doctor right now'

Martha replied 'I have already she is own her way'

After ten minutes the lady doctor came n checked kate... I was waiting impatiently

Doctor said ' Mr Robbins kate is, already for now I have given her some relaxing injection ... thank god the baby is fine... but it's kate im most worried... you have not come to any of her appointment I have to discuss something about her'

I replied ' plz tell me whats wrong'

She give me disappointing look n said 'I wished you were more involved in her pregnancy... work is not always important...do you know kate is anemic n her blood pressure fluctuate which is not good for her in this situation...n yesterday appointment she has a panic attack when she knows she is having a girl... these things are not good Mr Alex totally not good'

I paled... fuck thats why she asked because her doctor want to talk to me... Im so ashamed that kate has to make excuses about me in front of her doctor... n what doctor said a girl... we r having a girl... fuck this pregnancy is becoming more real to me day by day... I replied ' im very ashamed doctor... I will try to take care of her alot... what tell me she is ok right now'

She replied ' yeah she is fine... some time stressed of all day can make pregnant women very tired n sick... but she will wake up in few hours... this is kate diet n medicine chart which you make sure she followed daily'

I said thank you n let martha to see off the doctor.

I feel so angry at myself at Helen... at ryan Evans... people like is always hurt the person who has nothing did wrong.... kate was expecting that her husband will support her in front of everyone but what I did... I again insulted her... degraded her...I kissed her forehead n pray to god that she woke up soon... even the baby she wants more than in her life should be ok... otherwise I will not forgive myself.

Kate My whole body n head felt like it is hit by a truck... I feel so tired...when I put my hands in the bed I felt that I was touching some one hair... I opened my eyes it was Alex who lay his head in the bed... by my moment he woke n hold my face to check im really awake Alex' kate... oh thank goodness... you are awake'

Kate' whats wrong... n how long I slept'

Alex replied ' its almost 4:00 pm ... you slept for whole day...I was so worried sick ... when doctor checked you I still was not satisfied...'

I said ' The doctor? My baby... is she ok... what about emma she is going so distressed n confused'

Alex put his hand on my head n said ' shh shh just relax kate ... just relax... you were not waking so I called her... she said the baby is ok... Emma asked you but I told her you r not feeling good so you are resting she was ok by then'

I looked Alex n then I start realizing whole yesterday event... I try stay away from his hand n asked ' Alex why are you here... you should be in your office right now?'

He flinched n said 'Kate I know im an asshole but not that much that im going to leave my sick wife on her own'

I replied 'well you left me alone multiple times so why not now'

He shamefully said 'yes kate I deserve your anger.... n im sorry for that... but you need rest n something to eat.... then we will talk .. ok'

He left n called Martha to bring something for me to eat

Martha become a good friend n mother figure to me in a short time... She bring food n said ' im so happy kate your awake you have seriously put me in worry...don't do this again... Mr Alex has been there whole time... I don't know what would I did if I didn't called him' I said ' im sorry Martha but you shouldn't called him... I was ok you know'

She replied 'you were not.... I know you r angry with MR Alex n he deserves that but never take too much stressed in this position also.

Martha left n Alex came with my baby Emma

He said ' Hi look who come to meet you... she was asking about you alot so I thought to let her see you... n emma kate is little tired so don't disturb her'

I replied ' Alex she never disturbed me she calm me... come her my baby girl im so sorry I worried you.. come here'

Emma come n lie down with me n said ' Mama kate! Dada say you sick.... emma don't want you sick... eat soof.. you ok'

I said 'oh baby...im so good right now.. n its soup not soof ok...'

When I looked Alex he stand still n then I realized what emma has said to me... I tense n said... 'Alex she said to me, sometimes I never said anything to her'

Alex shake her head' I know kate... you don't have to explain me... you are like her mom to her'

Alex phone rings... he say its his mother... then he left....

Emma n I start talking n playing with her doll... I told martha to bring some snake for emma... then we start watching tv in my room...

Alex

Mom told me exactly what Shawn told... I wish I have listen to her first... I told her that I know the truth n I feel like shit

I went to kate room n I saw emma sleeping in her lap n kate was smiling at her n running her fingers at her hair.... When emma called kate mama I was little shocked but when then I realized I don't feel bad about it at all...

And now looking at them also give me satisfaction that emma has a mother in the form of kate ... she looked at me n paused n become tense ...

I replied' Are you ok?

she said 'yeah im good...

I replied 'let me put emma in her bed'

Kate said she needs fresh air then she moved to the balcony till the time I put emma in her bed.

And moved to kate room to talk to her.00