not his first mate now

"I still see his red eyes” my mouth dropped open slightly as I take in what he said.

"It's okay Xaiden my sweetheart, nightmares can do that, sometimes they feel real but there not, even mummy gets them.” I was both worried and furious at the same time.

"So you get them too." He was shocked but I smiled and gave him a nod.

"Wow but your so brave mummy, nothing can scare you." he seemed confused on the fact that adults to can have nightmares.

"That's only because I have you to keep me strong.” A big smile is now spread across his face at the thought of being my little protector. before I know it he's ran off somewhere.

I frown to myself and quickly grab my phone, I knew this day would come but not this soon.

"Lilly" a voice answers, I sigh and then anawers.

"Sasha, how soon can you whip up the rest for me?" She cackles on the phone.

"By when do you need it done?" I groan at the thought of having to do any of it but answered her anyway.

"In three days tops.” The phone goes quiet and I wait for for her reply. "Okay I'll get onto it and Lilliana Ill tell the others.” I knew I would need all of them and in a way I felt really bad for it, but this wasn't just my fight and they all knew it. We would all have to come together once again.

"Thanks Sasha.” With that I hang up. Over the years I some how ended up helping a few people in trouble, which made enemies of all kinds. Somehow there became a group of us sort of like a gang of helpers I guess. But for all of us there was only one big threat and that's the rogue king himself. Everyone thought he was a wolf but I knew better, he was a hybrid, a lycan father mated to a witch X demon mother. And he is a cruel king, the stories I was told made me sick.

"Lilly you okay?" I look up and notice Xander staring at me with concern.

"Just thinking.” I mumble and look back down to the bench.

"Are you sure? I just had Xaiden tell me a story about red eyes and him having to watch you get beaten to death.” Before I know it he's got his arms around me hugging me tight.

"It was just a nightmare he had, you don't need to stress." I explain to him.

"Yes but he says you get them too." I feel a kiss on my head and sigh as I bury my head into his chest.

"My past is not all rainbows and fairy's, you should know that already by now.” I admit softly, he runs his hand down my back slowly.

"I know that.” Came his simple reply that just seemed to iterate me more.

"You know nothing Xander, you will never understand what I went through, what I had to do to servive." I growl out at him and pull away so we can have some distance between us. He new nothing of what I went through over the last five years, no one did.

"Then tell me so I can help you.” He was calm when he spoke. Was even ready to talk about this.

"All you need to know is that you need to protect Xaiden no mater what happens.” With those words I walk away and head out side to the flower garden. Sitting down on the grass, I cross my legs, close my eyes and then hold my palms together. Lifting my head up towards the sky, I take deep breaths in and then deep breaths out. Feeling around me for any energy in the air. Meditation was one thing Sasha taught me so I could feel the energy and movements around that where different. After a few hours i finally found what I was looking for, my eyes fly open and with a cruel smirk on my face.

"I got you now aashole." I growl not caring if he herd or not.