Nadir

Half the time, you will never realize what you have until you lose it. As much as this saying is cliché, I have been on the unlucky hand of experiencing it first hand and I would never want to go through the same thing again. Some days I wonder if Joshua is just pretending to be okay with me or he has genuinely forgiven me because this man has been so good to me it irks me.

‘What’s going through your beautiful mind?’ he asks kissing the tip of my toes.

We are in his bedroom listening to some music and we are both so relaxed.

‘It’s nothing.’

‘It’s not nothing if it’s getting you like this.’

I breathe out deeply. This man won’t leave my thoughts unsaid.

‘I keep wondering if this is real you know.’

‘What do you mean?’ he asks kissing my toes some more.

‘What if you are only like this just to get back at me? What if really you just want to hurt me the same way I did? You know what they say about revenge being saved best cold?’

I see the hurt on his face and I wish I didn’t have to tell him what exactly was on my mind.

‘Babe is that how lowly you think of me?’

‘See why I didn’t want to tell you my thoughts.’ I respond feeling bad.

‘Nandy I am not sure what I have to say or do to make you believe that I love you. So much it scares me.’

‘And I love you. But I messed up once.’

‘And love doesn’t keep records of wrong, love forgives, love forgets, love gives another chance. Because if it didn’t then we all wouldn’t be here.’

‘Where did you come from?’

‘From somewhere in your drunk state and you can’t even remember.’

That has me laughing. I can’t believe that my most vulnerable moment got me to where we are right now.

I sit upright and he looks me straight in the eyes.

‘I am going to marry you some day.’

‘Joshua.’

‘I am a man who knows what he wants and I have never been surer about anything, I love you so much I want to spend the rest of my life with you.’

‘Don’t say such things.’ I say shaking my head.

He makes me face him and before I can compose myself he places his lips on mine. Joshua and I have kissed so many times but this time around it feels different. He separates my lips with his tongue and I let him. Slowly and passionately we tongue and I am feeling all these emotions I thought I would never feel again. His hands find their way to my bosom and I gasp: that response makes him stop.

‘Go on.’ I say between his lips.

He uses one hand to fondle with my right breast, touching it slowly and then finding his way inside my blouse. I let out a soft moan when he touches my bare skin. His other hand finds it’s ways to the zipper on my pants and I allow him to undo them. He moves his hand and caresses me on top of my underwear material and my inner goddess is happy to have worn a lace underwear when coming here.

‘Babe I want you.’ He says looking at me in the eyes with a hunger I have never seen before.

‘You are delaying.’ I say lightening the moment and we both laugh lightly.

He helps me out of my jeans and underwear, then the t shirt and bra.

‘What?’ I ask as he stares at me.

‘You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.’

‘You are making me feel shy.’

I am blushing and I feel like my cheeks will turn pink.

He starts to remove his clothes and he commands that I stare at him as he does that. It’s the sexiest thing I have ever seen. When he is completely naked, he gets a condom from a drawer and wears it. Then he comes back on to the bed and starts to kiss me again. Our bodies are touching and emotions are flying all over. I am losing myself in the process. He is well endowed and he is growing under me, I just want him inside. As if reading my mind in one swift motion, he enters me and I have to hold on to him.

‘Babe.’ He moans.

He locks his fingers with mine and starts to move inside me slowly, we are kissing and making love it feels like there is just the two of us in the world it’s mind blowing.

‘I think I am about to cum.’

‘Let yourself go babe.’ He encourages and I do, freeing myself until I cum so hard.

‘I want to do this to you all the time.’ He says kissing my lips.’

He starts to thrust again and this time harder, faster and deeper. My eyes are rolling to the back of my head because he is hitting just the right spot and it is confusing me and I can’t keep up any longer. Just as I am cuming his body shudders on top of me and after a few minutes we are both breathing lightly.

‘Why didn’t we do this sooner?’ I ask making him laugh.

‘We have a life time together, we will have a lot more of these.’

‘I love you.’

‘I love you.’ He responds and I believe him.

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Kwenje’s Girl

Winnie

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