My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance)

Chapter 69 He Found Out

I was so embarrassed I started to cry, I couldn't control myself anymore.

After crying for a while, I went to the bathroom and washed my face. Then I told myself to not give up so easily.

If I don't give up, I believe I would one day find out about his dirty deeds.

I knocked on Lance's study room door. He raised his voice and said 'come in'. I pushed the door open and entered, he was reading his documents. I stood in front of his desk.

He looked up at and said:" What do you want? Trying to look for private and confidential business files? Are you really that dumb?"

My hands turned to fists, telling myself I have to calm down. Calm the hell down.

I put on a pretentious look and acted innocent, I knew he wasn't going to believe what I was about to say, 99% sure, but i was still willing to bet on that 1%. "Brother, why do you like to misunderstand me so much? You always like to think of me so lowly, you know very well what kind of person I am. I'm not born into a rich and powerful family like you. I have always been a simple person, I just want a person to protect me, to not let me get hurt anymore. It used to be Leo who gave me protection, then I woke up, I know it's impossible between me and Leo. When you saved me from the jail, I already decided to follow you. I hope you can protect me, no matter if I will only ever be your bed lover, I don't care. I just don't want to live under anyone's shadow and get bully ever again. You told me if I obey you, you wouldn't make my life hard, right? If you really mean it, can you please treat me better? I'm also a woman, I have a heart, I as strong as you think. I'm afraid of getting hurt too, it really hurts." I touched my heart while saying this, tears forming in my eyes, threatening to roll down.

I noticed the slight change of expression on Lance's face.

Sometimes, woman can be weapons too. It just depends on how we use ourselves; I've been wrong this whole time. But this time, I also wasn't sure if I was making the right move, but I had no choice but to try If I fail, then I have no choice but to die in his hands.

Lance stared at me, who was full of tears now. His furrowed eyebrows meant he didn't believe a single word I said.

Of course, if what I say would make him believe me easily, I wouldn't have been through all of this nonsense.

But this was my last chance, I needed to find a perfect solution slowly. And slowly, 1 shall cut open his heart and see if it's really as cruel and as evil as he behaves.

"Since you're so sincere, then can you explain why you went to that forest just now? Did you think I would hide something there?" Lance asked calmly.

I see, seems like we still couldn't move away from this topic. Perhaps the excuse 1 gave just now really sucked.

"Brother Leo, he has very good drawing skills." I said.

Lance raised an eyebrow, confused why I would bring up Leo.

"What are you trying to say?" he asked.

I once saw Leo's portfolio. I saw this forest and just wondered how it looks like."

I wasn't willing to bring up Leo, because every time I do, my heart hurts like hell. But I had no choice but to use his name now, so that he might at least believe me and let his guard down a little. I know this was a b*tch move, but I really had no more choice.

Lance's face was full of anger right now.

Thad a very daring thought, if Lance loves Leo so much and still purposely let Leo know about our dirty relationship, hurting his dear brother, what was he really thinking?

Did he really just wanted Leo to see what kind of woman I am? Was this his ONLY intention?

I wouldn't ask Lance: do you like me

No, I wouldn't do that like I used to anymore.

I've been by his side for some time now, I knew some things are best left unspoken.

"Get out!" Lance yelled, pointing at me.

How harsh, but it made me excited. I believe if there's danger, there will also be a change

What if the change is Lance's feelings for me?

I started to bet again.

I left his study room and sighed out in relief. I remember reading a book, the author said if a man falls in love, it wouldn't affect his IQ or EQ, if a man really falls in love, they like to numb themselves, making them look like they are easy to fool.

Lance is too smart, I wouldn't be able to outsmart him.

I didn't have any other choice, if I want to get further evidence, I have to get his heart. I have to own his heart, make him fall in love with me.

And only this way, would he let his guard down. This way, I can dive deep into his and get what I want.

I admit, I'm acting like a total b*tch now.

What I said in the study room to Lance? Bullshit. But one sentence is particularly true. I'm tired of getting bullied everyday.