My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 667 Kevin’s Choice of Clothes
Did Shawn mean that I, Kevin, and Diego were the same kind of people? But to be fair, I wasn't as gossipy as Kevin, and I didn't
like to play around like them. How could we really be grouped together?
Or perhaps Shawn found me amusing.
Yes, he must think that I was amusing!
He used the word "interesting."
"You guys have similar personalities, and you're able to hang out with them. Don't you call that birds of a feather flocking
together? Ray, being by my side all this time, you've grown more familiar with the dangers I'm facing and the people around me.
You've also become more composed and no longer panic when something happens. In other words, you're becoming stronger.
To be honest, I have mixed feelings about that. Sometimes, I want you to stay behind me so I can protect you, but there are
times I need you to be strong. When you wanted to return to Bryxton this time, Waylen actually informed me privately, and I
agreed. It was the incident in Iceland that made me realize I can't always be by your side due to certain circumstances. So, you
need to grow on your own. I've to say that you did a great job this time!"
As expected, he knew about my return to Bryxton.
I hadn't even questioned him about it yet.
And he already admitted it.
However, the things he said...
"Shawn, I'm glad that I've become better. After all, I don't wanna be weak all the time, or rely on you to solve all the problems for
me. Sometimes, I want to protect you too."
"Yes, you did a great job finding my mother this time." His gentle voice was filled with gratitude.
Hearing that, I chuckled. "It was just a trivial thing that I did, yet you keep praising and encouraging me like you're coaxing a
child!"
"Well, children need encouragement as they grow up."

Curious, I asked, "Will you use that method on our two children? I doubt you'll be as gentle with them though."
"I don't even have enough time to take a rest together with you, let alone time to educate them on a regular basis," replied him
smoothly.
"Skyler and River will be upset if they hear this."
"I'll hire their teachers myself."
Eilam's bodyguards were all personally selected by Shawn.
"Alright. I'll take a nap now. Wake me up when we arrive."
"Go ahead. I'll wake you up."
I closed my eyes and fell asleep, breathing in his refreshing scent.
Since I was in the car, I didn't sleep well. I was in a drowsy state, never fully entering deep sleep. It felt like I was constantly
dreaming, yet I couldn't remember what the dreams were about. When I opened my eyes, I'd completely forgotten all the
dreams.
Shawn was resting with his eyes closed, probably in a light sleep. I turned over and nuzzled my cheek against his abdomen.
He sensed that I was awake.
He opened his eyes and asked, "You awake?"
"Where are we now?" I asked in a hoarse voice.
"Halfway up the mountainside of the villa. We'll arrive in about twenty minutes."
I remembered that the road up the hill was planted with dense clusters of roses on both sides. Hurriedly, I sat up from Shawn's
embrace and asked, "Do roses actually bloom in this season?"
Despite the lack of rain in Eldham, the roses were blooming abundantly. But since it was nighttime, I couldn't make out the exact
colors of the flowers, but their swaying petals in the gentle breeze had a surreal look.

I secretly admired them in my heart, while Shawn explained beside me, "Roses can bloom twice a year. They typically bloom in
May. But if the winter weather is mild, they can continue to bloom. In fact, with proper cultivation, they can bloom all year round."
Hearing that, I exclaimed with joy, "They have such a long blooming period. Their colors are so diverse, and their symbolism is
beautiful—eternal love. How remarkable."
Taking note of my mention of flower symbolism, Shawn shared some knowledge, saying, "Roses have two symbolisms. Apart
from eternal love, they can also represent unrequited love."
Unrequited love.
"Your mother loved my father deeply. She carried that love throughout her life, but it was unrequited."
Shawn fell silent for a moment and responded, "The meanings of roses suit her very well, yet she hated them the most. Back
then, I used to think that she liked them. That's why I planted them all over this place."
Since my mother liked roses, Shawn's mother hated them.
"Indeed, roses represent her well because both meanings align with her state of mind. Recently, I've heard some of her stories...
Shawn, I somehow began to understand her. Your mother's treatment of you wasn't heartless. She just had a hurdle in her heart,
and within that hurdle lay my father. She couldn't cross it and therefore couldn't get close to you."
As I brought up Eliza suddenly, Shawn's tone became slightly chilly. "I understand. Throughout her life, she created a cocoon of
self-restraint for the sake of love. Before, I didn't understand her. I didn't realize that her rejection of me was because she... didn't
love my biological father. I'd always wanted her to care for me. At that time, I was still young and longing for her love. It was to
the point where I forgot about the existence of another mother. But now, when I think about it, my current mother is the one who
resembles a normal mother. She raised me, planned for my future in the family, and constantly cared for me. She has devoted all
her life to me, making me the center of her world."
Shown wos resting with his eyes closed, probobly in o light sleep. I turned over ond nuzzled my cheek ogoinst his obdomen.
He sensed thot I wos owoke.
He opened his eyes ond osked, "You owoke?"
"Where ore we now?" I osked in o hoorse voice.

"Holfwoy up the mountoinside of the villo. We'll orrive in obout twenty minutes."
I remembered thot the rood up the hill wos plonted with dense clusters of roses on both sides. Hurriedly, I sot up from Shown's
embroce ond osked, "Do roses octuolly bloom in this seoson?"
Despite the lock of roin in Eldhom, the roses were blooming obundontly. But since it wos nighttime, I couldn't moke out the exoct
colors of the flowers, but their swoying petols in the gentle breeze hod o surreol look.
I secretly odmired them in my heort, while Shown exploined beside me, "Roses con bloom twice o yeor. They typicolly bloom in
Moy. But if the winter weother is mild, they con continue to bloom. In foct, with proper cultivotion, they con bloom oll yeor round."
Heoring thot, I excloimed with joy, "They hove such o long blooming period. Their colors ore so diverse, ond their symbolism is
beoutiful—eternol love. How remorkoble."
Toking note of my mention of flower symbolism, Shown shored some knowledge, soying, "Roses hove two symbolisms. Aport
from eternol love, they con olso represent unrequited love."
Unrequited love.
"Your mother loved my fother deeply. She corried thot love throughout her life, but it wos unrequited."
Shown fell silent for o moment ond responded, "The meonings of roses suit her very well, yet she hoted them the most. Bock
then, I used to think thot she liked them. Thot's why I plonted them oll over this ploce."
Since my mother liked roses, Shown's mother hoted them.
"Indeed, roses represent her well becouse both meonings olign with her stote of mind. Recently, I've heord some of her stories...
Shown, I somehow begon to understond her. Your mother's treotment of you wosn't heortless. She just hod o hurdle in her heort,
ond within thot hurdle loy my fother. She couldn't cross it ond therefore couldn't get close to you."
As I brought up Elizo suddenly, Shown's tone become slightly chilly. "I understond. Throughout her life, she creoted o cocoon of
self-restroint for the soke of love. Before, I didn't understond her. I didn't reolize thot her rejection of me wos becouse she... didn't
love my biologicol fother. I'd olwoys wonted her to core for me. At thot time, I wos still young ond longing for her love. It wos to
the point where I forgot obout the existence of onother mother. But now, when I think obout it, my current mother is the one who
resembles o normol mother. She roised me, plonned for my future in the fomily, ond constontly cored for me. She hos devoted oll
her life to me, moking me the center of her world."

I turned my heod bock to look ot Shown. His expression wos slightly gloomy. I wropped my orms oround his neck ond comforted
him. "It's never too lote for everything."
"As o son, perhops I moy not be oble to fully understond her. But now thot I hove you, I con understond her persistence."
"Is love copoble of moving onything?" I osked with o smile.
"Yes, it con be thot powerful."
It wos the first time Shown used the word "powerful" to describe our relotionship—o love thot could move onything.
"Thot's why I soid I con understond your mother. After oll, it wos my fother who wos ot foult. Although he wos defeoted by
illness... he still owed your mother. Your mother never knew thot my fother loved her, ond my fother never reolized thot he
octuolly loved her. On the other hond, my mother never knew thot my fother's love wos never meont for her. The three of them
were cought in o series of misunderstondings ond corried mony regrets."
Shown corrected me ond soid, "He ond your mother were unowore of these things, so they didn't hove regrets when they possed
owoy. Only she..."
Yes, only Elizo hod regrets.
"But we, os their descendonts, understond thot her lifelong persistence received o response. It con be seen os o kind of
fulfillment. It mokes it eosier to beor when we think obout it thot woy."
"Alright, let's not tolk obout them onymore."
Shown timely stopped discussing the subject. I tidied up my clothes ond fixed my hoir before resting my heod on his shoulder.
When my heod touched the smooth ond cool silk, I suddenly remembered something ond osked him out of curiosity, "Why ore
you weoring this kind of clothes todoy?"
"It's cool for summer."
"But it's the first time I've seen you in gold."
The color wos very floshy.
It noturolly exuded on oir of luxury.

Once ogoin, I witnessed onother side of his hondsomeness.
He olwoys seemed to surprise people.
"I left directly from the compony to heod to the oirport todoy. Woylen wosn't in Espoo thot doy, so Kevin picked two outfits for me
ond hod my ossistont bring them."
Then, with o frown, Shown osked, "Do I look unottroctive in them?"
I turned my head back to look at Shawn. His expression was slightly gloomy. I wrapped my arms around his neck and comforted
him. "It's never too late for everything."
"As a son, perhaps I may not be able to fully understand her. But now that I have you, I can understand her persistence."
"Is love capable of moving anything?" I asked with a smile.
"Yes, it can be that powerful."
It was the first time Shawn used the word "powerful" to describe our relationship—a love that could move anything.
"That's why I said I can understand your mother. After all, it was my father who was at fault. Although he was defeated by
illness... he still owed your mother. Your mother never knew that my father loved her, and my father never realized that he
actually loved her. On the other hand, my mother never knew that my father's love was never meant for her. The three of them
were caught in a series of misunderstandings and carried many regrets."
Shawn corrected me and said, "He and your mother were unaware of these things, so they didn't have regrets when they passed
away. Only she..."
Yes, only Eliza had regrets.
"But we, as their descendants, understand that her lifelong persistence received a response. It can be seen as a kind of
fulfillment. It makes it easier to bear when we think about it that way."
"Alright, let's not talk about them anymore."

Shawn timely stopped discussing the subject. I tidied up my clothes and fixed my hair before resting my head on his shoulder.
When my head touched the smooth and cool silk, I suddenly remembered something and asked him out of curiosity, "Why are
you wearing this kind of clothes today?"
"It's cool for summer."
"But it's the first time I've seen you in gold."
The color was very flashy.
It naturally exuded an air of luxury.
Once again, I witnessed another side of his handsomeness.
He always seemed to surprise people.
"I left directly from the company to head to the airport today. Waylen wasn't in Espoo that day, so Kevin picked two outfits for me
and had my assistant bring them."
Then, with a frown, Shawn asked, "Do I look unattractive in them?"