My Hot Alpha

I was still in full control but the urge to shift was there. I could feel her clawing at my skin. I had never lost control to her before but there was a first for everything. "Hey". He spoke softly to me his hand resting on the lower of my back.

My eyes connected with his through the mirror. My heart was racing, I could hear how fast it was beating in my chest. She wanted out but I wouldn't allow that to happen.

I never wanted to lose control to her.

"Just breathe baby. Control her. The more you do the easier it becomes".

"I can feel her. She's strong". I whispered.

"You're strong. Remember she is you".

I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing. When I opened my eyes again a sigh fell from my lips when they returned to their normal colour. I didn't like that. For a split second I thought I was about to lose control. The power from her, the clawing at my skin. The burning deep within my stomach. I made the decision there and then that I would make the effort and learn more about my wolf.

"I don't like that". I spoke.

"It gets easier I promise". He kissed the top of my head before disappearing into the bathroom.

I couldn't understand one thing. If my wolf wanted to take control she could. So, why hasn't she? I had no idea what I was doing. I still didn't feel like a werewolf.

A sigh fell from my lips. I hadn't been talking much tonight. I would speak when spoken to and make sure I had a smile on my face, but truth was I wanted to go home.

But like always Charlotte had made enough food to feed a village and I wouldn't be rude by going home early. Jake had been talking with his dad a lot tonight. Always hushed voices and lots of different facial expressions. Obviously pack business. But I chose not to listen. I was too busy with my own bizarre thoughts.

"You're quiet tonight sweetheart". Charlotte placed her hand on my arm. "Are you feeling, okay?".

"Will my wolf die?". I had no idea why I said it. It was more an inside thought that slipped out. It also caused the room to fall silent.

All eyes on me. The silence was deafening. Pulling my bottom lip between my teeth my eyes landed on Jake. He looked worried. Should he be worried? Was I giving him a reason to be concerned?

"It's just I don't feel connected to her like I believe I should". I had to break the silence even if I was embarrassed by it.