Chapter Chpater 323
One day until I graduated and as much as I wanted everything to be perfect it wasn't. I wanted us all to come together and celebrate but I wasn't sure if Alanna and I were on speaking terms. I said what I had to, and I still stand by it.
I was getting ready to meet Ryan in town. Jake had left early this morning, a pack meeting but I didn't need to attend. At first, I thought that was a little strange but the more I thought about it the more I'd rather not be there anyway. It's not like he would let me do anything.
I hadn't heard from Lana, but I wasn't surprised. She was dealing with some stuff, and I was giving her the time to sort it all out. If someone had told me this was how my life was going to turn out I would have laughed in their face. I thought I would be off to university living my best life, riding out the last of my teenage years. Instead, I was mated to an Alpha werewolf, pregnant with his child and had no idea what lay ahead.
A sigh fell from my lips as I slipped my arms through my jacket. Some paragraphs are incomplete if you are not reading this novel on Jobni'b.com. I was in a funk, and I couldn't shake this feeling off. It's not that I wasn't happy because I was. I knew this was where I was supposed to be but sometimes, I couldn't help the little what if thoughts entering my head.
What if we never moved to Texas?
How different would my life had been if I was still in Florida?
Would my gran still be in my life?
I had to get out of this house before I fell into a slumber of depression.
Just as I got in the car he texted and cancelled. He was too hungover to meet for lunch, he was sorry, and he would make it up to me. Instead of going back inside I clipped my seatbelt into place, turned on my engine and drove off down the street. I would take myself to lunch and maybe even cheer myself up with some shopping.
I ended up at the beach.
It wasn't beach weather, but it was always my go to place when I needed time on my own. I didn't realise I needed time on my own until Ryan cancelled. I just couldn't be bothered with anyone right now. I didn't want to talk I didn't want to socialise. Right now, all I wanted was to sit in my own company and forget about the world.
Reaching the beach shack, I ordered a coffee with extra milk and took a seat so I could watch the view. The sound of the sea soothed my soul. It made me relax and it made me think of home.
I made a face. Home. This was my home. Florida was so long ago or so it seemed. I guess everything that I have been keeping to myself was coming to the surface. Feelings that I buried, the drastic change to my life that I just went along with. These pregnancy hormones were suffocating me.
I didn't like how emotional or vulnerable I felt. Even now I could feel the tears in my eyes. I was crying at nothing. It just happened without warning.
I frowned when a cupcake was placed in front of me. "I didn't-...".
"It's from the girls". The server nodded to the left.
Alanna, Lacey and Lana.
I cried more. To the point where I was sobbing.
It was then I realised I needed my friends now more than ever.
"We're sorry". Lana spoke.
"Yeah, we fucked up". Alanna added.
"I'm just here for support". Lacey grinned.
A laugh fell from my lips. I missed them all. I missed our laughs, hanging out, sleep overs. I missed everything.
"I'm sorry". I spoke. "I haven't been myself lately".
"Because you're pregnant". Alanna grinned.