My Hot Alpha

Happy tears, sad tears I wasn't sure, but I couldn't stop. I was full on sobbing my heart out. Jake tried to calm me down, but it didn't work. I was wrapped up in my own little bubble. Trapped inside my own head with the what ifs and the buts. We were having a baby.

I was having a baby.

"Leah, baby, please talk to me".

My sobs grew quiet, my tears coming to a stop. I sat myself down on the couch and placed my head against the cushion. I just wanted to sleep. I wanted the buzzing in my head to stop and the churning in my stomach. "Baby". He sat beside me placing his hand on my leg. "Everything is going to be okay. It's me and you remember. We've got this".

I was eighteen and pregnant.

I wasn't sad about it; I was overwhelmed, and it hadn't sunk in yet. I was going to be a mom. We were going to be parents. Us, how were we going to look after a kid?

He grabbed the blanket from behind the couch and placed it over me. "Do you want me to make you some tea?". He asked.

I nodded.

My stomach was in knots. I was nervous, I felt sick. There was a baby growing inside of me. Our little baby. I swallowed the lump in my throat, my mouth dry I licked my lips.

It was big news and a lot to take in, but I was carrying the life that we created together inside of me.

"We can go to bed, get you more comfortable".

I shook my head and sat up taking the tea from him. "I'm okay sitting here". We had to talk about this but for now I wanted to sit in silence and gather my thoughts.

He sat back down beside me his hand resting against my leg. We both sat in silence not a word spoken between us. For how long I have no idea. A yawn escaped my mouth as he shifted beside me reaching for the tv remote. I guess the silence was too much for him.

"Any preferences on what we watch?". He asked.

I shook my head and continued to drink my tea. He was scrolling through Netflix, but I know his head was elsewhere. It wasn't fair for me to only think about my feelings on this and how I felt. He was part of this as well.

"I'm overwhelmed". I whispered. "And scared as hell". The lump appeared in the back of my throat as the tears welled in my eyes.

"I'm scared too baby". He took my hand in his.

"You are?".

"Terrified".

I smiled. "We're having a baby".

"Is this what you want?". He asked.

"I never thought it would happen so quickly, but it has. Right now, I'm not sure how I feel about it all. I don't think I believe it yet. It hasn't sunk in that I'm going to be a mom". "But you're going to keep it?".

"I thought it was a boy?".

He gave me a soft smile before squeezing my hand gently. "I didn't know what you were thinking, you wouldn't talk to me, so I wasn't sure what you were planning on doing".

Taking his hand, I placed it flat against my stomach. "I may not know how I feel right now but this little baby in here is ours". He had to know that I wanted this.

"We're going to be parents". He whispered.

Yeah, shit was about to get real and fast.

..

I slept all night never waking up once.

I felt sick and the feeling of feeling sick without being sick was the worst. I would rather spew my guts up than feel like this all day. I flushed the toilet, washed my hands and brushed my teeth. Maybe it would help.

Yeah, it didn't.

I boaked, I gagged.

"Babe?". He knocked on the bathroom door.

"I'm fine". I wiped my mouth and put my toothbrush back. Still in my towel I opened the door and walked back into our bedroom.

"Were you sick?". He asked.

I shook my head. "I feel sick though". I wasn't sure if it was my nerves or the pregnancy that was causing it, but it was horrible.

"Do you want some dry toast?".

"Dry toast?". I made a face.

He scratched the back of his head. "I read somewhere that it helps with the sickness".

Aww.

"I don't think I could stomach it". I sat on the bed leaning my back against the head rest. "But if you think it'll help, I'll have some". He was trying to help, and I was going to let him. "Keep drinking your water. You need to stay hydrated".

I saluted him as he walked out the door. This was a new thing Jake had decided on last night. Everywhere I went I was to always have a bottle of water with me. If mama's happy then babies happy. His words not mine.

We had the doctor coming over this afternoon to take my blood and a urine sample to confirm that I was pregnant. I wasn't sure how I felt with it being the pack doctor and not an obgyn but Jake didn't trust anyone else. Dreadful things happen in hospitals apparently and he wants me nowhere near them. I had a feeling my already overprotective boyfriend was going to become a lot worse.

"Docs coming over around 3. Is that okay for you?". He handed me my toast and the smell alone was enough to make me not want to eat it.

But I took a bite and surprisingly it stayed down.

"We don't tell anyone Jake".