My Hot Alpha

My body was on fire.

Everywhere

hurt.

This is what it's supposed to feel like.

Day three and already I was giving up. I was curled up in a ball in the middle of our bed sobbing. I hadn't moved since yesterday. I couldn't do it; I couldn't handle the burning of my skin or the cramping in my stomach. It was definitely worse than a period.

I was burning up.

I needed him.

I wanted him but after that last fight I wasn't sure when I'd see him again. I knew he was still here. I could feel him but never once did he appear.

There was a knock on the bedroom door.

"Go away".

"Leah it's me". Alanna.

I didn't want to see or speak with anyone. I wasn't the best person to have a conversation with right now. I didn't want to be rude or mean or say something I'd regret once this was all over. "I don't want to see anyone".

"You shouldn't be going through this on your own". "I'll be fine". "Leah-...".

"Please just leave me alone". I bit my lip to stop the sob escaping. I didn't want anyone but Jake. No one could take the pain away like he could. But I was stubborn. I made him leave; I pushed him away because I lost my temper.

I said things that needed to be said. I didn't want to be the weak one anymore. I wanted to be a strong Luna for the pack, for myself. I wanted people to know who I was. I wanted them to respect me the way they respected Jake. I would prove I was no longer a pushover.

"I'm going to get Jake".

"No don't-...". I knew she had already disappeared downstairs.

He didn't knock, didn't speak. He burst into the room scooping me up and into his arms.

Everything eased.

A sigh fell from my lips as my head fell against his chest. My body relaxed against his, my eyes closing.

"I've got you". He whispered before placing a kiss on the top of my head.

I didn't say anything back. I was glad he was here. I wanted him here; I needed him with me.

..

I wasn't asleep but I could feel my eyes growing heavy. We hadn't moved. I was still sat in his lap with my head against his chest. I had two more days to get through. More pain, more fevers, more blood.

I also had to change the sheets because they were soaked in sweat.

"Baby".

"Yeah?".

"What did you mean when you asked if I liked you?".

Jake picked up on everything. Every word, every little thing I say, he never forgets. I can't say I didn't see this coming. Did I say it in the heat of the moment? The thought did cross my mind whether he only liked me because of our bond. "We wouldn't be together if I wasn't your mate".

"But we are mates and we are together. I love you; I love everything about you. What's this really about? Why did you ask that?".

"I don't feel appreciated". I didn't just mean by him. Everyone seemed to take advantage. Whether it be my nature or because I'm soft. It always seemed to be something.

"I appreciate you every day".

"You don't". I whispered. "You may think you do but you don't". There wasn't any point in sugar coating it. I promised I'd always be honest with him. "And I don't just mean you".

"I'll do better". His grip tightened.

"Okay".

"I mean it Leah. I'll do right by you. I'll show you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. No more f*****g around".

I tried to be brave and strong but there was only so much I could put up with before I cracked. Moving here hadn't exactly been an easy ride. I didn't have a bad bone in my body. I was a good girl, I treated everyone with respect and for what? To be treated like dirt?

To be called out on everything because I was chosen to be the Alpha's mate. I hadn't had an easy time. Don't get me wrong it wasn't all bad, but there was definitely more bad than good and it shouldn't be like that. A sigh fell from my lips. "I brought the storm and I promised I wouldn't".