My Hot Alpha

I turned around in his embrace. "I thought the party was a, no?". I wasn't in the mood to act happy. I wasn't happy. My head was throbbing, I felt sick and my skin was on fire.

"It's just family".

"It's still people". I didn't want to socialise. I didn't want to talk about last night. I couldn't be bothered with people gushing about how we were now mated. Most of all I knew the questions would be coming. Marriage.

Kids. Blah.

That's how I was feeling about that.

My mood had completely change but it's not as if I could throw them out, they were family.

"You wanted to go to the party". He spoke.

"Yeah, well now I don't". I stepped away from him.

"Leah".

"I need some air". I about turned and headed back out the front door. He didn't follow. I sat on the front step resting my head on my knees. I had this sudden pent-up rage inside. Like I would snap at any second. I didn't want to be here.

I thought after last night we were finally where we needed to be but no. Of course, there was more, it was like a fucking jigsaw. Why couldn't it be simple? He marks me, I mark him.

Done. Mated and we live happily ever after.

I wanted to go back to how I was feeling last night. A sigh fell from my lips when I heard the door open behind me. Great, just what I wanted. Company.

"Can I join you sweetheart?". Charlotte asked.

I loved her but right now I didn't want to talk to anyone. I was afraid I might say something I didn't mean. Or all this rage inside of me would come out. Or that I'd burst into tears. I'm pretty sure all the above would happen today at some point. "I don't want to be rude but I don't want to talk to anyone right now".

"Just tell me you're okay and I'll leave you to it".

I was glad she couldn't see my face. I wasn't okay. On top of being in heat I just felt horrible. I wasn't sure if I wanted to scream or cry. My emotions were all over the place. I didn't feel like myself at all. "Leah?". She stepped out from behind me.

"I'm okay". I didn't remove my head from my knees but I did manage a small smile. I was in a funk and it wasn't going to go away until my heat finished. 5 days. I could manage 5 days.

I hope.

"You're not though, are you honey".

"My heat is playing with my emotions. I'm happy, sad, angry all wrapped into the one". It was bizarre and I felt crazy.

"Have you told Jake how you're feeling?". She sat down beside me.

"Pretty sure he knows I'm angry".

She chuckled. "Talk to him sweetheart. He can help, being around him helps with the pain".

I lifted my head from my knees and made a face. "I thought we couldn't be around each other until my heat finishes?".

"That boy". She sighed. "That stupid, selfish boy".

I was lost and confused as hell.

"Is that not true?". I frowned.

"He's doing it for praise within the pack. Within Alpha males it shows how strong they are if they can hold off until their Luna's last day of heat. It shows greatness and proves how powerful of a leader he is". "But he marked me last night so he isn't holding off on anything". He had his fill; he placed his mark. It was me that was the bloody strong one. I was the one suffering not him.

I couldn't believe this.

"It's your scent sweetheart. It'll drive him crazy but if Jake is anything like his dad, he won't be able to resist you. I wouldn't worry too much, he'll come crawling with his tail between his legs".

"So, he's doing it for his ego?". He was already the Alpha, he already held greatness and power within the pack so why did he feel he had to prove himself?

Everyone already feared him and followed him. The pack was loyal to him.

"It's been a tradition in our pack for centuries but no one has ever completed it".